i love/hate you so much

Cc scared me out of my frozen state "Jeremy!" he sounded pissed

Jinxx just muttered the work shit under his breath and got up I was confused so I followed

We both got to the door and I saw the PTV tour bus i burst out laughing,why?,because it was funny this whole CC and Mike thing is hilarious

CC just glared at me it was actually really scary I knew it wasn't just because I laughed there was some other unknown reason

"Hey"vic said running up to me cc and jinxx with his arms out leaving the other guys behind on the bus with all the bags

He hugged us all I was last I didn't care but I could feel someone watching me like you know when someone's starring so hard it makes you feel uncomfortable

I looked up and it was CC what the fuck is this guys problem I just gave him a confused look because I am really confused

He just shook his head and motioned for me to follow him

He walked into the mini studio in jinxx's house and walked into the sound booth I shot him another confused look

"Get the fuck in here" is what I got in response so I followed him

"Cc why are we in here"

He just hit me in the face,why the hell did he just hit me

"You Ashley, Need to stop"

"What am I even doing" I replied from the floor

"What are you doing"he shouted but no one heard, because of the sound booth,Oh, well I guess I know why where in here now"you can't be serious jakes fucking face hasn't heeled from what you did for no good reason"

"There was a fucking reason you don't understand"

"Trust me I understand I would have said the same fucking thing since when are you even gay"

CC's Pov

"I'm not" Ashley shouted in my face"well.. I err"

I said I wasn't gonna hit him again but I couldnt help it he fell to the floor again

"So why the fuck are you sleeping with Andy if your not "

"Don't listen to jake he is just making things worse"

"Andy told me actually so don't even bring jake into this"

Ashley stood up and walked past me and out of the sound booth I followed him but then he walked out the front door so I just left him and walked into the living room

Everyone apart from Ashley was sitting around the table including the PTV members and mike yaay...

Andy gave me a look asking where Ashley was but I just shrugged but he got up and ran when he heard Ashleys car start he just mouthed the words sorry and left

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Ashley got in to his apartment and slammed the door shut he knew Andy was behind him and that's why he shut the door

Andy came in seconds after

"Ashe.."He was cut off by a glare from Ashley "I'm sorry Ashley I really am I was just so annoyed please don't be mad at me"

"You fucking told them"

"I only told CC and it was an accident"

"And you told jake, if you knew how to keep your stupid mouth shut none of this would have happened"

"What is even wrong with them knowing there are best friends"

"Who now think I'm a piece of shit"ashley scoffed"and not to mention gay"

"Fuck sake Ashley"andy shouted"You.Are.Gay !who the hell do you think your fooling seriously who ashley,please tell me because I don't even know"

"Fuck you Andy"Ashley said walking into his room and shutting the door after him

Andy followed

Andy's Pov

"No fuck you" I shouted and pushed open his door "I'm fed the fuck up with this, what is actually your problem, what are you so afraid of ashley I swear you are really sta..."


I was cut of as Ashley kissed me and I kissed him back he turned us around and shut his bedroom door with his foot

He pushed me onto the bed so I was on my back and crawled on top of me so he was straddling me

"Do you want to know what my problem is Andy"he asked with so much seriousness in his voice

"Err yeah"

"You"he replied and leaned in to kiss me but I moved away

"What did I do"he sighed and got off and lay next to me

"If I didn't know you maybe I could just ignore this, Maybe I wouldn't of known I can't even look at a girl like that anymore and for that I hate you but I love you so much"I saw tears fill up his eyes I went to wrap my arm around him but he moved away

"Ashley its ok"

"Get out" he snapped at me

"Ash..."

"Please just leave now"he shouted and turned on his side away from me. How does this guys change his mood so quick,One minute he's an emotional wreck the other he's in love with me then he hates my guts then he wants to fuck me and then he doesn't even remember I exist

I left Ashley's room and was going to go into my own but the bathroom door was open so I walked in and opened the medicine cabinet and found my little blue box with my razors in it. I hadn't cut for a while... well only about a week but trust me that a long time for my stupid ass

"One cut andy just one"I whispered to my self as I dragged the blade across my skin but one soon turns to two then to three then to four then to 13.

13 is definitely unlucky because as I dragged number 13 across my skin I felt light headed my vision went misty and I felt my self falling

Notes

hey guys chapter 10 hope you like it, so happy this story got to chapter 10 didnt think it would make it past chapter 1 let alone 10 love you guys xxxx

-stay wretched and make life devine <3