Miles and miles away.

*Cole's point of view*

Today was the day to pack up and go home. Ryan wouldn't move from bed, she hasn't moved from the bed since the fight with Des. Most she's done was get up to pee and ate a sandwich. That sandwich was the most she's eaten in the last few days and dear god I'm worried about her. This began as this just to get her away from Austin's fuck but I've really come to like her. I never usually feel this way about people so seeing someone I actually care about hurting and just in this depressed state and I couldn't do a goddamn thing about it killed me. All the things I thought would help or at least make her smile a little failed. I just held her to me, hoping that hearing my heart beat, knowing that someone living and breathing was here to help her. She didn't show any reaction so I don't know if it had or not.
I started packing our bags and then I found them. Her blades. Her fucking blades. How could I not fucking know?! I knew when Austin was, I knew when my cousin was, but I couldn't fucking tell when she was!
I did what just seemed right to me at the moment, I flushed them all. And her razors, I'll get her some fucking nair. But what I really wanted to do was check her. I've never seen her naked before, first date I was focused on her not fucking, for the first time.
I decided to finish packing before I did anything. When I finished I sat next to her on the bed and stroked her hair. "I know... I want to see your cuts..."
"why?" She muttered.
Tears burned my eyes and dripped down my cheeks, "So I can know how many times you needed me and I wasn't there. Ryan I care so fucking much about you and just knowing you're doing this to yourself, it fucking hurts. baby I'm here
for you and next time you ever decide to hurt yourself. Hurt me instead. Now show them to me."
She sat up and stripped down to her underwear. They were everywhere. On her chest, stomach, upper arm and thigh. They weren't new but they weren't old. It was a bunch of scabs.
I have never cried so fucking hard. I wrapped my arms around her and she did the same in return. I cupped her cheek and started into those beautiful blue eyes. She leaned in and kissed me. I ran my hand down her bare back and pulled her in closer. Her tongue slipped into my mouth and played with my mine. I moved my hand from her cheek and unclipped her bra,(one handed if I may add (; ). I felt her body tense up. I pulled back my head and whispered to her, "Baby, relax. Is this your first or something." Her cheeks flared up and she looked away. I grinned and kissed her neck, "I'll be gentle as I can. I'm honored you're letting me be your first..."

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When we were finished, we were dressed and there was a smile on Ryan's face. I kissed her cheek and carried our bags down to the car. It was getting dark and this part of Tampa worries me. It's not the best place to be. I was afraid we were going to get mugged in the parking garage.
And of fucking course it happens.
I heard Ryan yelp and a deep, grunt voice say "Give me your money or she gets it!" he waved his gun in the air for a second then shoved it back to her back.
I tossed him my wallet, "Hey man. There you go we don't want any trouble. Don't hurt her. Please." When he went to pick up the wallet, Ryan ran. He immediately noticed and shoots. She flops to the ground, "RYAN NO! YOU MOTHERFUCKER!" I lunged for him. I heard the loud boom then felt numb. I knew my body fell to the ground. I saw Ryan unconscious a small ways away from me. I grabbed her hand and held it with the small grip I had. "I love you Ryan..." My vision went blurry then Ryan disappeared from my vision.
Everything went red.
White.
Black.

Notes

Okay guys I hope you like this chapter. I might upload more later or tomorrow but I'll most likely be updating on the weekends but I'm going to try my hardest Not to take a month to update. Alright love you guys.