And Face Today (Sequel to We'll Brave This Storm) [COMPLETED]
Hold On
Andy's P.O.V.
Three weeks. It's been that long since Skylar was born. She was the only comfort that I had had since Melanie still hadn't woken up. Every single day I would kiss her on the lips, just wishing that, that was what she would wake up to. I hoped that one day she would open her eyes and be perfectly fine, but I knew she wouldn't be. That's just how Melanie was.
The guys had been trying to cheer me up and give me hope. I did have hope, sure it wasn't a lot, but I still had some. Melanie was going to wake up, it's just a matter of time.
Everyone had been walking on egg shells around me lately. I know that I've been rather snippy with them, but I couldn't help it. I needed Melanie.
Diamond, though. I think Diamond is in as much pain as I am. Neither of us have eaten much, and I've noticed her tendency to leave for the restroom for long periods of time. I had a gut feeling something was really wrong with her, and it scared me.
"Andy, dude, you should really head home. We'll call you if she wakes up. You've been looking pretty slagged lately," CC said.
"I want to be here when she wakes up. I can't leave her side, man."
"Andy," Jinxx said, entering Melanie's room, "Go home. Get some rest. Spend some more time with your kid."
I looked at Melanie's sleeping figure. She looked so peaceful.
I turned back to Jinxx and nodded.
I got out of the cushioned chair that now probably had my butt permanently imprinted on it, god knows the last time I left the chair.
Suddenly, I heard a glass-shattering scream. I whipped my head around and saw Melanie thrashing around in her bed.
"Melanie!" I cried as I pinned her arms down to her sides.
She wasn't calming down. I tried making shushing noises, but none of that seemed to make any difference in her condition. What the hell could be making her this scared?
"You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
Andy face today
You're not alone," I sang.
She stopped flailing and started breathing heavily. Her eyes were still clamped shut.
"Melanie, are you okay baby?" I whispered.
She didn't respond.
Jinxx placed his hand on my shoulder and lead me out of the room.
"Andy, we'll watch her. She'll be awake before you know it," Jinxx told me.
"I can't go now! She was almost awake a second ago!"
"Dude, if you don't go willingly I'll drive your ass home myself. You can't stay here. It isn't good for you."
"O-okay. Does my mom still have Skylar?" I asked.
"Last I checked, yeah."
"Thanks man."
I walked out into the waiting room and saw my mom craddling Skylar in her arms. God, I wish Melanie could see this.
"Andy! How's Melanie doing?" my mom asked, looking up at me.
"She started moving, but she didn't fully wake up. I'm scared for her, mom. What if, when she wakes up, she won't be the same? Being so close to death can really change a person. She's the love of my life, I want her to be healthy, happy, and safe," I croaked.
"Andy, Melanie is a fighter. She may not be okay for a while, but with you by her side, I'm sure she'll be fine. So, um.... any thoughts of marraige when she wakes up?"
"What?!"
Marraige? I loved Melanie to death, but I never thought of marraige. I never really wanted to get married before, it just wasn't my thing.
"I....uh....don't think so," I mumbled.
"Really? You have a kid with her and talk to me about her being the love of your life, yet you don't want to commit yourself to her?"
"Mel told me the first week we were on tour that she didn't want to get married. Ever."
"Well, that was before you two started dating and she got pregnant, wasn't it? Do you want to spend the rest of your life with her?"
"I couldn't be with anyone other than her. She has my heart."
My mom just raised an eyebrow at me.
Fuck. What if I did want to marry Melanie? Would she say yes? We haven't even been together that long. Knowing Melanie, she would probably see my proposal as something of a necessity to me because of Skylar. No, I'll wait. We aren't ready for marraige.
"Someday it may happen, but I don't think it will happen any time soon," I told my mom.
"Fine, but this time you will let me know."
She still wasn't over the fact that I hadn't told her about Melanie's pregnancy. It's been months of guilt trips from her over the phone and occassionally in person. As much as I love my mom, I'm getting a bit tired of her.
"Mom, I'm sorry about not telling you about Melanie, but it's in the past, okay? I can't change what I did. Looking back on it, you would've been the first one I told. I love you, but you need to let this go! Melanie isn't waking up! Right now I'm basically a single parent! I can't deal with all of this guilt!" I yelled as tears started falling.
"Guilt? You think her not waking up is your fault?" my mom asked, astonished at my outburst.
"I was the one who got her pregnant. If I didn't sleep with her, she wouldn't be here in this fucking hospital. Maybe she never would have left me," I sighed.
"Andrew Dennis Biersack, you are being ridiculous. You two slept with each other. You didn't rape her," I cringed at this, "she voluntarily gave herself to you because she was in love with you. As for her not leaving you, Skylar's death hit her hard. I think she just wanted to forget about her and everything and everyone that was associated with her. It wasn't because of you."
"I just want her to wake up so I could hold her and kiss her. I want to show her our beautiful child and tell her how much I love her. I thought her leaving me was the worst feeling I'd ever have, but this is so much worse."
My mom handed baby Skylar over to me. She was sleeping and I heard the light breathing noises that were coming from her mouth. Holding Skylar was the only time I didn't feel like crap. She has been my saving grace these past few weeks.
"Andy!" someone called.
I snapped my head towards the direction the voice had come from. Jinxx.
"Andy, she's waking up!" he smiled.
"Holy shit!"
I speed-walked to Melanie's room, making sure not to wake Skylar.
There Melanie was, still in her bed, but stirring. I felt a smile forming on my face. I made my way to her bedside and placed a kiss on her cheek.
"Please wake up, Princess," I muttered.
"A-Andy?"
I looked down at Melanie, her eyes were squinting up at me.
"Mel, you're awake!" I beamed.
"Andy where am I? Is our baby okay? How long have I been out?"
"Babe, calm down! You're in the hospital. You've been out for three weeks. Skylar's okay, see?" I said, holding Skylar out in front of her.
Melanie's eyes started tearing up as she said, "Andy, she's beautiful."
"Yeah, she is. Do you want to hold her?"
Melanie nodded her head feverishly with a huge smile on her face. I smiled back at her and put Skylar in her arms.
"I've been out for three weeks?" she asked me after a moment of silence.
"Yeah, I haven't left the hospital once. I was afraid that you wouldn't wake up."
"You mean I almost died...."
"Yes, but you didn't die. You're still here and I'm not going to let you go....ever. I'll hold on to you forever, babe."
"You know, I don't think there has ever been one time that I have woken up in a hospital wihtout you there," she grinned at me.
"I will always be there."
"Using your lyrics on me? Isn't that a bit cheesy?"
"Only for you, Princess," I laughed.
I looked into her eyes and kissed her lips, and she finally kissed me back after three excrusciatingly long weeks.
Three weeks. It's been that long since Skylar was born. She was the only comfort that I had had since Melanie still hadn't woken up. Every single day I would kiss her on the lips, just wishing that, that was what she would wake up to. I hoped that one day she would open her eyes and be perfectly fine, but I knew she wouldn't be. That's just how Melanie was.
The guys had been trying to cheer me up and give me hope. I did have hope, sure it wasn't a lot, but I still had some. Melanie was going to wake up, it's just a matter of time.
Everyone had been walking on egg shells around me lately. I know that I've been rather snippy with them, but I couldn't help it. I needed Melanie.
Diamond, though. I think Diamond is in as much pain as I am. Neither of us have eaten much, and I've noticed her tendency to leave for the restroom for long periods of time. I had a gut feeling something was really wrong with her, and it scared me.
"Andy, dude, you should really head home. We'll call you if she wakes up. You've been looking pretty slagged lately," CC said.
"I want to be here when she wakes up. I can't leave her side, man."
"Andy," Jinxx said, entering Melanie's room, "Go home. Get some rest. Spend some more time with your kid."
I looked at Melanie's sleeping figure. She looked so peaceful.
I turned back to Jinxx and nodded.
I got out of the cushioned chair that now probably had my butt permanently imprinted on it, god knows the last time I left the chair.
Suddenly, I heard a glass-shattering scream. I whipped my head around and saw Melanie thrashing around in her bed.
"Melanie!" I cried as I pinned her arms down to her sides.
She wasn't calming down. I tried making shushing noises, but none of that seemed to make any difference in her condition. What the hell could be making her this scared?
"You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
Andy face today
You're not alone," I sang.
She stopped flailing and started breathing heavily. Her eyes were still clamped shut.
"Melanie, are you okay baby?" I whispered.
She didn't respond.
Jinxx placed his hand on my shoulder and lead me out of the room.
"Andy, we'll watch her. She'll be awake before you know it," Jinxx told me.
"I can't go now! She was almost awake a second ago!"
"Dude, if you don't go willingly I'll drive your ass home myself. You can't stay here. It isn't good for you."
"O-okay. Does my mom still have Skylar?" I asked.
"Last I checked, yeah."
"Thanks man."
I walked out into the waiting room and saw my mom craddling Skylar in her arms. God, I wish Melanie could see this.
"Andy! How's Melanie doing?" my mom asked, looking up at me.
"She started moving, but she didn't fully wake up. I'm scared for her, mom. What if, when she wakes up, she won't be the same? Being so close to death can really change a person. She's the love of my life, I want her to be healthy, happy, and safe," I croaked.
"Andy, Melanie is a fighter. She may not be okay for a while, but with you by her side, I'm sure she'll be fine. So, um.... any thoughts of marraige when she wakes up?"
"What?!"
Marraige? I loved Melanie to death, but I never thought of marraige. I never really wanted to get married before, it just wasn't my thing.
"I....uh....don't think so," I mumbled.
"Really? You have a kid with her and talk to me about her being the love of your life, yet you don't want to commit yourself to her?"
"Mel told me the first week we were on tour that she didn't want to get married. Ever."
"Well, that was before you two started dating and she got pregnant, wasn't it? Do you want to spend the rest of your life with her?"
"I couldn't be with anyone other than her. She has my heart."
My mom just raised an eyebrow at me.
Fuck. What if I did want to marry Melanie? Would she say yes? We haven't even been together that long. Knowing Melanie, she would probably see my proposal as something of a necessity to me because of Skylar. No, I'll wait. We aren't ready for marraige.
"Someday it may happen, but I don't think it will happen any time soon," I told my mom.
"Fine, but this time you will let me know."
She still wasn't over the fact that I hadn't told her about Melanie's pregnancy. It's been months of guilt trips from her over the phone and occassionally in person. As much as I love my mom, I'm getting a bit tired of her.
"Mom, I'm sorry about not telling you about Melanie, but it's in the past, okay? I can't change what I did. Looking back on it, you would've been the first one I told. I love you, but you need to let this go! Melanie isn't waking up! Right now I'm basically a single parent! I can't deal with all of this guilt!" I yelled as tears started falling.
"Guilt? You think her not waking up is your fault?" my mom asked, astonished at my outburst.
"I was the one who got her pregnant. If I didn't sleep with her, she wouldn't be here in this fucking hospital. Maybe she never would have left me," I sighed.
"Andrew Dennis Biersack, you are being ridiculous. You two slept with each other. You didn't rape her," I cringed at this, "she voluntarily gave herself to you because she was in love with you. As for her not leaving you, Skylar's death hit her hard. I think she just wanted to forget about her and everything and everyone that was associated with her. It wasn't because of you."
"I just want her to wake up so I could hold her and kiss her. I want to show her our beautiful child and tell her how much I love her. I thought her leaving me was the worst feeling I'd ever have, but this is so much worse."
My mom handed baby Skylar over to me. She was sleeping and I heard the light breathing noises that were coming from her mouth. Holding Skylar was the only time I didn't feel like crap. She has been my saving grace these past few weeks.
"Andy!" someone called.
I snapped my head towards the direction the voice had come from. Jinxx.
"Andy, she's waking up!" he smiled.
"Holy shit!"
I speed-walked to Melanie's room, making sure not to wake Skylar.
There Melanie was, still in her bed, but stirring. I felt a smile forming on my face. I made my way to her bedside and placed a kiss on her cheek.
"Please wake up, Princess," I muttered.
"A-Andy?"
I looked down at Melanie, her eyes were squinting up at me.
"Mel, you're awake!" I beamed.
"Andy where am I? Is our baby okay? How long have I been out?"
"Babe, calm down! You're in the hospital. You've been out for three weeks. Skylar's okay, see?" I said, holding Skylar out in front of her.
Melanie's eyes started tearing up as she said, "Andy, she's beautiful."
"Yeah, she is. Do you want to hold her?"
Melanie nodded her head feverishly with a huge smile on her face. I smiled back at her and put Skylar in her arms.
"I've been out for three weeks?" she asked me after a moment of silence.
"Yeah, I haven't left the hospital once. I was afraid that you wouldn't wake up."
"You mean I almost died...."
"Yes, but you didn't die. You're still here and I'm not going to let you go....ever. I'll hold on to you forever, babe."
"You know, I don't think there has ever been one time that I have woken up in a hospital wihtout you there," she grinned at me.
"I will always be there."
"Using your lyrics on me? Isn't that a bit cheesy?"
"Only for you, Princess," I laughed.
I looked into her eyes and kissed her lips, and she finally kissed me back after three excrusciatingly long weeks.
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2/16/15