I just wanna die in your arms tonight

Jinxx's POV

I looked at the time; only 2 hours to the KISS concert! I was so excited because this meant that Jake and I would be spending time with each other. We hadn't done that in a while...
It was all because of a stupid night out. We'd gone out with the guys and I got a little too drunk and the next minute we knew I was kissing Jake. He just froze in shock and when he realized that the guys where there, he pushed me off and called me a fag. That's all what CC told me anyway...

Jake suddenly stormed into my room with CC. What was he doing here? Was he coming too? I honestly just wanted it to be Jake and I but it won't be too bad as CC is quite a fun person to have around.
"Hi Jinxxy!" CC shouted, hugging me tightly. "Jake and I are going to see Motley Crue in half an hour so we can't stay for very long." What was CC talking about? Jake had already made plans with me.
"But aren't you going to see KISS with me, Jake?"
"Sorry Jinxxy, I'd rather see Motley Crue with C to be honest. Come on dude, lets go already."

It hurt that he didn't want to go with me but I didn't want to start arguing with him; things are awkward enough between us as it is. Maybe I should have just leave him and the house in peace. No, I have nowhere else to go and the band will struggle to find another rhythm guitarist.

On their way out, CC mimed with his lips that he was sorry. I just shrugged my shoulders, it wasn't his fault that mine and Jake's relationship was so broken. I watched out the window as they got into Jake's car. I wanted to fix things with Jake but I didn't know what to do. I thought the KISS concert would be a way to get him talking to me again but I guess he'd given up on the idea of us being friends again. I couldn't really blame him but I didn't know what else I could have done to repair things between us.

I should have expected this to happen. Why would he want to hang with me after what I did? Jake probably hates my guts- he certainly acts like he does. I thought he would at least have the decency to go; the tickets cost me a fortune and they were really hard to get my hands on. What could I do with them now? Maybe Rosaline and Andy want to go? It would make a good engagement present. I would go but it just doesn't feel the same without Jake even though we're not a big part of any more. No one will ever replace Jake...

I called Rosaline's mobile but she didn't answer so I called Andy. I sat there silently as I waited for him to pick up. No answer. Seriously, what was those two be up to?

Just as I thought the tickets were going to be wasted, Ashley walked in. I should have kept the door locked – anyone could have walked in. I wasn't really in the mood to talk to Ashley; not anyone actually. What was he doing here anyway? He's never invited himself over here before.
"Hey Jinxxy, C called me and told me you needed someone to see KISS with so here I am!" I just looked at him blankly. I really wasn't in the mood. I appreciated the fact that CC to find me someone to go with but Ash and I are almost complete opposites. He's overly happy and I'm quiet. In high school, I was the quiet kid and he was the jock. I couldn't just say no though, he was giving me the puppy dogs eyes. Ashley could be quite 'adorable' sometimes.

I am not saying that I like Ashley more than a friend. I don't but no one in our band could resist his puppy dog eyes. Based on his history with women, he's not the type of guy you'd expect to have a cute, innocent side.

I quickly got ready to look like Gene Simmons and he's pretty bad ass. I practiced my tongue waggle one last time and waited for Ashley to finish getting ready. He dressed like Paul Stanley as he had a small obsession for stars. He had a star tattoo on his elbow, not to mention the star tattoos on his back.

"All set? Come on lets go, Jinxxy" Everyone has started to call me Jinxxy since CC posted a picture of him and I titled ' Jinxxy Winxxy and I'. I kinda liked the nicknamed though – it's way better than my real name; boring old Jeremy. Everyone said they liked it because it sounded cute. We all and unique nicknames but most of them were simple and common.

I couldn't help but be full of excitement when we arrived at the arena although I still wished that I was seeing KISS with Jake. I soon forgot about him when God gave rock 'n' roll to you was being played. That was my favorite song! KISS were the most awesome and legendary band in the world in my opinion. They performed every song with so much passion. They were my band's biggest inspiration. I've had the best time that I've had in months. No misery or loneliness in my head, just pure happiness.

My joy soon disappeared when I arrived home. Jake was sat in the kitchen eating the tacos I had ordered! No more Mr Nice guy. No one eats my tacos! I know it's petty to get mad over stuff like this but I loved tacos; they tasted so good. I sauntered into the kitchen and grabbed a few of his Pizza that he had left on the table and smirked at his irritated expression as I ate it slowly whilst smirking at him.
"Jinxxy! GIVE ME MY PIZZA!" He shouted. I loved winding people up sometimes, everyone thought I was so innocent.
"Nope." I sniggered.
"That's it!" Jake jumped on me and started tickling me. I giggled so much that my sides hurt. I wasn't expecting that so my body was in panic mode. He just wouldn't stop and he smirked at the pain my laughter was giving me. I don't think he realized how tired I was getting until my eyes closed and I'd stopped laughing. I heard him giggle for a few seconds but then fell into a deep sleep. Trust me to fall asleep after being tickled...

Jake's POV

I hated myself for going to see Motley Crue with CC after Jinxxy had spent all that money on the KISS tickets. I only blew him off like that because of the incident that happened a few months ago. It would be so awkward. I didn't understand why he would want me to go anyway, we stopped being best friends a while ago. I wanted to fix things but I couldn't see how I could. One thing I did know was that he could never be replaced not matter how hard I tried...

I couldn't bring myself to smile during that show, I'd been so horrible to Jinxxy. I'd been hiding his stuff so that he couldn't find it and I may have broke his straighteners. I don't know what was wrong with me, I never usually act that childish. Maybe it was due to the fact that I was still so hurt about that incident.

We had gone out with our band, going to any party we could find. I finally found the courage to kiss Jinxx but he pushed me off and called me a fag. To be honest he did sound like he'd had too much to drink, which I wouldn't have minded, but CC swears he hadn't touched a drink. It didn't stop me from missing Jinxx's company.

I've liked Jinxx for a while now. It started from the moment I met him when we were 14. I know it sounds crazy and cliche but I had fallen in love with him. There was just something so unique about him, he wasn't like anyone I'd met. He was sweet, caring and non-judgmental but there was one problem – he was an alcoholic. I hated that he was drinking so I frequently tried to stop him.

Luckily for him, I've always been quite a persuasive guy so I eventually found a way to get through to him. It was clear to me that he was unhappy. I knew that he just wanted to get away from home so we broke into an isolated house. From that point, our lives got better. We'd both been suffering from depression but this new environment. For me the caused by how society treated me and for Jinxx... I don't know. I never asked in case bringing it up made him cry. We were inseparable and I didn't want to ruin that by upsetting him.

I quickly rushed home, trying to get to Jinxx before he set off to the KISS so I could go with him but I just missed him. Just my look! I wanted to see KISS but more importantly, I wanted to see him. Seeing him may often bring bad memories but I missed those icy blue eyes stored with so may great memories. I just played Call of duty on my Xbox to pass the time until I got hungry. I picked up my phone and called for a pizza but it felt like hours until it arrived (turned out that I had been waiting 5 minutes) so I grabbed some of Jinxx's favorite food – Tacos! I knew he would be mad but all I cared about was my stomach at that moment. Finally my pizza arrived but I was enjoying the Tacos too much to stop eating them, much to Jinxx's annoyance...

After Jinxx arrived, he noticed that I was eating his tacos so he ate some of my pizza! No one eats Jake's pizza. I pounced on him and had a tickle fight with him. He tried to tickle me back but he was giggling too much. I loved to hear Jinxx's quiet giggles and see him smile widely like a mad man. He suddenly fell asleep, making me laugh. I really wasn't expecting that. He looked so peaceful unlike usual. Usually Jinxx suffers with nightmares and cries when he is sleep. I grabbed a Biro from the table and drew a comical mustache on his beautiful face. He was going to be so mad at me in the morning!
I carried him to his bed and I stayed laid next to him for a while, staring at his gorgeous delicate body in awe. I wanted him to be mine but I knew that was never going to happen. Jinxx is probably straight and even if he isn't he would never like some boring fat guy. I weigh 133 pounds, that's more than enough weight for a 24 year old man. When I saw that the time was 1 am, I slowly crept into my bed on the other side of the room, not without giving him a goodnight kiss. He may have called me a fag the first time we kissed but I think can get him to change his mind about me...

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