I can't change. It's like part of me will always stay the way i am. Retarded,ugly,fat,disgusting,pig,bitch,druggie,loser,fake,wannabe.

I wasn't any of those things. But they told me I was,so I started to believe them. It's so hard to act like myself. But I try.
I walked into school wanting to shoot a bullet into my own fucking brain. This place was a living hell. I opened up my locker and pulled out my science book.
"Ok Katrina,Katrina",Gem said. Gem was the most popular girl in school,but she was a nightmare to me.
"Sorry you couldn't make it to my party yesterday. Guess I forgot to give you an inviting. Whoops! Me and Scott had fun yesterday. In my bed! Haha.",She said and all her group started to laugh.
"That's okay. I heard some kids sayin that the party was lame anyway",I said and heard a gasp from Gem.
"Whatever",Gem flipped around and strutted into the hall. I grabbed my art supplies and headed toward the art door.
"Hello class we have a new student today",Mrs.Larson said.
"His name is Andrew",
"It's Andy",He said and walked back to his seat which was next to mine.
i took out my notebook and began drawing the face of Scott. Scott was my best friend but we had grown apart for sometime. We were dating before he just completely ignored me. Without anything he just changed. Changed into a new person. I looked over my shoulder and saw the new guy studying my paper. I just ignored it and kept on drawing.

2nd period


i changed into my gym uniform leaving my sweatshirt over it.

"Katrina take that sweatshirt off",My gym teacher called. Oh shir