Change My Ways
First Show
That night with CC was actually really fun. I liked him. He seemed like a person I could open up to if I chose, but I don't think I'll be opening up to anyone any time soon. Not with Andy around.
We just arrived in Dallas, and we're heading off to soundcheck. To say I was excited was an understatement. We were playing our first real show of our first real tour. Yeah, we opened at the club all the time, but we were really only known in our town. Now we were actually getting our name out there, and that thought was enough to twist my stomach in knots.
(Katie outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=101957721)
(Tara outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=101959560)
Kazuo, Logan, and Devin didn't go too crazy with what they were wearing. Devin was just wearing converse, skinny jeans, and a hoodie with the hood up, Kazuo was wearing black leather pants and a leather vest, and Logan was wearing leather pants and no shirt.
When it was time to go onstage, Logan gave me a good-luck kiss before we headed out to make our name known to the world.
**
We were a hit. The crowd loved us, and that made me happy. So our town wasn't just weird; we were actually good. We stood side-stage as Black Veil Brides played their set, and headed out to the signing tables afterwards.
That night, we got a lot of questions about band merch. I then realized exactly why Andy had made such a big deal out of getting those shirt designs and bracelets done; the fans wanted Broken Skies band merch, and there wasn't any yet.
"Katie," Andy said, walking up to me. My heart started pounding. Every single time he started talking to me, I started mentally freaking out. "I got you guys scheduled for your first real photoshoot tomorrow."
"Why are you doing all this for us?" I asked quietly out of the blue. "We're a small band from a small town in Oklahoma, and we don't even have a real tour manager or anything like that. It's just the five of us; that's it. And yet you're getting us a real tour, a bus, band merch, and a photoshoot?"
"We're just helping out," he said. "You guys deserve to be heard, you've all got major talent." I found myself just shutting him out more.
"Listen, this was all Tara's idea," I countered. "And if it was any band but yours, we actually would have sat down and talked about it. But Tara, being the fangirl that she is, put us all on the spot and we agreed to this without really being sure. And if we're actually going to make it in the musical industry, I don't want her thinking that she can just make the band's decisions on the spot, or that everything will be handed to her, got it? We've got to make it ourselves. We'll go to the photoshoot tomorrow, but you have to stop being our training wheels. We're either gonna fall down or speed away; I'm not gonna let us rely so heavily on training wheels that when they're taken away, we crash and burn so hard we might not be able to get back up."
"I understand," he said. "But you'll still finish the tour, right?"
"Yes, we'll finish the tour," I sighed. "Just please, let us find our own tour manager and make our own way."
"Yeah, sure," he said. That was when, thankfully, a fan asked to pull him away for a picture. He nodded and let them pull him aside, and Ashley walked up to me.
"What do you want?" I asked quietly. I was unhappy with all these people trying to talk to me. Plus, I didn't have the best perception of Ashley right now after talking with Tara.
"Katie, he's crushing," Ashley said bluntly. "Hard."
I felt sick. This was not good. Not only was I stuck on tour with Andy, but now he was crushing? This could get really bad really quickly.
"And he knows about you and Logan," Ashley continued. "So at least be a good friend to him, okay?" I nodded, wanting to be left alone. "I just wanted you to know, and to make sure you wouldn't hurt him."
"Wait, what about Juliet?" I asked.
"We've, uh, been keeping this quiet, but they broke up last week," he said quietly. "Don't let it get out in public yet; Andy wants to give the fans the news in his own way."
"Yeah, okay," I said dismissively, wanting him to go away. He did, which made me happy. I was finally able to sneak away to the bus and crawl into bed, annoyed at the world. Why me?
We just arrived in Dallas, and we're heading off to soundcheck. To say I was excited was an understatement. We were playing our first real show of our first real tour. Yeah, we opened at the club all the time, but we were really only known in our town. Now we were actually getting our name out there, and that thought was enough to twist my stomach in knots.
(Katie outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=101957721)
(Tara outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=101959560)
Kazuo, Logan, and Devin didn't go too crazy with what they were wearing. Devin was just wearing converse, skinny jeans, and a hoodie with the hood up, Kazuo was wearing black leather pants and a leather vest, and Logan was wearing leather pants and no shirt.
When it was time to go onstage, Logan gave me a good-luck kiss before we headed out to make our name known to the world.
**
We were a hit. The crowd loved us, and that made me happy. So our town wasn't just weird; we were actually good. We stood side-stage as Black Veil Brides played their set, and headed out to the signing tables afterwards.
That night, we got a lot of questions about band merch. I then realized exactly why Andy had made such a big deal out of getting those shirt designs and bracelets done; the fans wanted Broken Skies band merch, and there wasn't any yet.
"Katie," Andy said, walking up to me. My heart started pounding. Every single time he started talking to me, I started mentally freaking out. "I got you guys scheduled for your first real photoshoot tomorrow."
"Why are you doing all this for us?" I asked quietly out of the blue. "We're a small band from a small town in Oklahoma, and we don't even have a real tour manager or anything like that. It's just the five of us; that's it. And yet you're getting us a real tour, a bus, band merch, and a photoshoot?"
"We're just helping out," he said. "You guys deserve to be heard, you've all got major talent." I found myself just shutting him out more.
"Listen, this was all Tara's idea," I countered. "And if it was any band but yours, we actually would have sat down and talked about it. But Tara, being the fangirl that she is, put us all on the spot and we agreed to this without really being sure. And if we're actually going to make it in the musical industry, I don't want her thinking that she can just make the band's decisions on the spot, or that everything will be handed to her, got it? We've got to make it ourselves. We'll go to the photoshoot tomorrow, but you have to stop being our training wheels. We're either gonna fall down or speed away; I'm not gonna let us rely so heavily on training wheels that when they're taken away, we crash and burn so hard we might not be able to get back up."
"I understand," he said. "But you'll still finish the tour, right?"
"Yes, we'll finish the tour," I sighed. "Just please, let us find our own tour manager and make our own way."
"Yeah, sure," he said. That was when, thankfully, a fan asked to pull him away for a picture. He nodded and let them pull him aside, and Ashley walked up to me.
"What do you want?" I asked quietly. I was unhappy with all these people trying to talk to me. Plus, I didn't have the best perception of Ashley right now after talking with Tara.
"Katie, he's crushing," Ashley said bluntly. "Hard."
I felt sick. This was not good. Not only was I stuck on tour with Andy, but now he was crushing? This could get really bad really quickly.
"And he knows about you and Logan," Ashley continued. "So at least be a good friend to him, okay?" I nodded, wanting to be left alone. "I just wanted you to know, and to make sure you wouldn't hurt him."
"Wait, what about Juliet?" I asked.
"We've, uh, been keeping this quiet, but they broke up last week," he said quietly. "Don't let it get out in public yet; Andy wants to give the fans the news in his own way."
"Yeah, okay," I said dismissively, wanting him to go away. He did, which made me happy. I was finally able to sneak away to the bus and crawl into bed, annoyed at the world. Why me?
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