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I wish I could remember

I woke up feeling warm and for once well rested. I rolled over and opened my eyes slowly to see the back of someone getting dressed.
'Was I dreaming?' I asked myself feeling sadness fill my body. Did I dream meeting Andy again? I have dreamed about meeting him so many times but it never felt so real as they one I had last night.
I sat up and rubbed my eyes holding the blanket up to cover my chest. As I blinked the sleep from my eyes I quickly realized that the back of who I was looking at was indeed Andy. I smiled realizing that it was not a dream.
'Wait, he is getting dressed and I'm naked. We had sex?' I asked myself trying to remember what happened last night. The last thing I remember was going to the club.
'Why is he getting dressed, is he trying to hide what happend from me, to act like it never happened?'
Of course he wants to hide it you are not his girlfriend he does not love you. My subconscious spat at me making my bottom lip quiver.
I bit my lip to make it stop and got out of bed making Andy turn around to look at me.
"Em I-"
I quickly held up my hand to stop him. "Don't. I know it was a mistake. It happens." I shurged and smiled as best I could.
"I wont tell anyone I promise." I said quickly putting on my clothes. "I'll see later." I said then quickly walked out the door, down the hallway and off the bus.
I thought about the soft grass under my bare feet as I walked as far away from Andy as I could. When I looked up I found myself next to a traler for one of the bands. There was a pick nick table beside it that I quickly found myself sitting at. I laid my arms on the table and hid my face in my arms feeling something warm and wet run down my cheek. I closed my eyes tightly as more tears followed.
"Umm are you okay?" Asked a rough voice.
I looked up to see a tall guy with black hair and puppy dog brown eyes.
"I'v been better." I said wiping the tears of my face. "I'm sorry to bother you I'll just leave now." I said starting to get up
"Whoa where are you going? You are not bothering anyone sit down and keep crying if you want I just wanted to ask if you were alright." He said smiling at me. "I'm Ronnie"
"Emily." I said sitting back down. My throat stinging from crying.
"So do you want to talk about why you were crying or do you just want me to leave you alone?" He asked sitting across from me
"Both."
"Well how about we talk then I leave you alone?"
"Sounds good."
"So whats bothering you?"
"Do you know the lead singer of Black Veil Brides?"
"Andy? Yeah I know him we are pretty good friends."
"Well I'm one of his old friends and we have just met up again and I did something very bad. So now I'm sure he don't want nothing to do with me."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because I slept with him and he has a girlfriend..." I said hiding my face in my hands "I can't belive I was that dumb like what was I thinking last night? I don't know if I'm more mad at myself at doing it or mad at him trying to hide it."
"What makes you think he was trying to hide it?"
"I woke up to him getting dressed as quickly as he could. I don't blame him for wanting to keep it from Juliet but she is cheating on him anyways."
"You seem more mad with yourself then with him." Ronnie said softly making me look at him. His eyes met mine and seemed to make me realize what I was really upset with.
I sighed and bit my lip looking to my left. I staired at a leaf on the ground like it had the words I needed.
"Its just the first time I have sex with someone I actually wanted to, I cant even remember it...." I said looking off into space.
I could not look at Ronnie I didn't want to see the confused look on his face. He would not understand what I meant since he didn't know my past.
"That's why your upset?" Asked the voice that I didn't want to hear for a long time.
"I'll leave you two alone to to talk." Ronnie said getting up.
I was shocked when Andy sat to the right of me. He didn't touch me or try to make me look at him he just sat there.
"How much did you hear?" I asked after we sat there for five minuets.
"When Ronnie said you were more mad at yourself then with me. Is that true?"
"Andy you know I could never be mad at you..."
"Why you should be. I was just going to get dressed and wait till you brought it up to talk about it. I don't want to rune the thought of last night with us hating each other." Andy said making all the color drain from my face. I looked at him trying to hold back tears.
"You hate me? Was I that bad?" I asked my throat starting to burn and my eyes getting warm.
My breath cought in my throat when Andy placed his hands on my face and pressed his head to mine.
"No that's why I didn't want to talk about it. I loved it every second, every touch and every kiss." Andy asked softly his voice sounding more scratchy and rough then it did before.
"You kissed me again?" I asked stopping myself from reaching up to touch my lip.
He laughed softly and nodded "Haha yes quite a few times if I remember right."
I smiled softly a bittersweet feeling rushing threw me. I was happy that I knew why he didn't want to talk about it but sad that I could not remember anything that we shared between us
"Why are you crying?" He asked making me look up at him. He brushed the tear off my cheek and looked down at me.
"Because I know what happens next."
"Whats that?"
"We acted like this never happened and you go back to Juliet." I side biting my lip trying to hold back tears.
"Who is Juliet?" He asked smiling at me. Even with the smile I could see the pain and anger in his eyes.
"What happened?"
"It doesn't matter."
"Yes it dose tell me. Please?"
"I went to go talk to her about what happened not wanting to make you have to hide anything. I walked in on her blowing some guy. She tried to play it off like I didn't understand that it was not what it looked like but she clearly had his dick in her mouth. I don't understand why this keeps happening. Why dose ever person I get with cheats on me. Am I that bad to be with?" He asked his voice wavering at the end. It was a shock to see him like this. Broken and sad. He looked lost. Like a puppy out in the rain that no one wanted.
"I want you." I said without thinking.
"What?" He asked looking at me confused
"Just thinking to myself. Don't worry about them Andy, they don't know what they gave up." I said stroking his cheek with my thumb.
He smiled softly and leaned into my hand closing his eyes.
"I guess I'm the broken one now."
"Never. We all fall down sometimes."
"I don't think I can get back up."
"You don't have to. God knows I didn't get back up for a long time."
"What helped you?"
"You." I said softly
Andy opened his eyes and smiled softly at me.
"Glad I could help cupcake."
"All in a days work for batman."
"It's a hard job but someone has to do it." He said smiling this time it reaching his eyes.
I could not help but smile back glad that his mood was brightening. I looked up when I felt something wet land on my cheek. More rain drops quickly followed. I giggle left my mouth.
"What?" Andy asked making me look at him
"We met in the rain and here we are all grown up, you on tour talking about-" I stopped what I was going to say not knowing if it was the right time to even say it.
Me and Andy had sex last night.... He broke up with his girlfriend because she cheated on him. We are so close that all I had to do was move my head slightly up and I could kiss him.
"Us." Andy said pulling the word out of my head
I bit my lip and nodded. Before ANdy could say anything thunder cracked making me jump.
"Come on lets get you back to the bus before more tears start." Andy said shocking me that he remembered my fear of storms. I was fine with them as long as I was not alone.
'I wonder what else he remembers?' I asked myself as I walked behind Andy his fingers wrapped in mine on my left hand. "I think he remembers a lot more then what you think." Jake's voice ran threw my head.
"I thought the rain was the best place to cry? No one can see your tears." I said over the rain as it damped our clothes quickly.
Andy stopped and turned around to face me. I could see just the corner of his mouth lifted in a small smile.
"Who told you that?"
"A raven haired blued eyed angel." I said taking a step closer to him smiling.
"Hmm I don't think he was angel if he was telling things such as that."
"But he was. Maybe a fallen angel. A angel that fell to save me from myself."
Andy smiled and took the few inches that was between us so we where now almost touching chest to chest. He moved a strand of wet hair off my cheek and behind my ear but left his hand resting on my cheek.
"You said that last night." Andy said so softly I almost didn't hear him threw the rain. But I did, his words made my cheeks turn red and get hot.
I closed my eyes and lend into his hand on my right cheek, laying my hand on his. My left hand still holding his.
"I wish I could remember." I said softly opening my eyes to make mint green meet bright blue.
Andy smiled and stroked my cheek softly nodding knowing that I knew there was nothing he could do to fix it. He shocked my by pulling me into a hug and burying his face in my neck. I felt rather then heard him take a deep breath and relaxing. I wrapped my arms around him hugging him back. I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder. The smell of smoke, body wash and rain filled my nose. I could not help but nuzzle into him. His warmth sinking into me making butterflies fill my belly. I giggled when I felt Andy nuzzle into my neck his breath tickling my skin. I felt him smile and he softly and quickly bit into my neck. I could not help but grab his shirt when warm tingles shot threw my body. I felt Andy's smirk he did it again and pulled away from me, but kept his arms around me.
"Something wrong cupcake?" He asked lifting one eye brow
"That's not fair and you know it." I said play glaring at him
"Who said I play fair?" He said smirking
I rolled my eyes at him then giggled.
I screamed when thunder cracked very loudly over head making the sky light up. I didn't realize how dark it was till now. I knew it was only 1 in the afternoon so it should not be this dark out.
"Andy can we please go to the bus now?" I asked feeling very cold
He must have heard the fear in my voice because he looked around to see how dark it was. He nodded and started to pull me quickly to the bus.

I let out the breath I didn't know I was holding when the bus door closed behind me.
"Hey there you guys are I was about to come looking for you, a storm is coming. Well looks like you guys know that you are soaking wet!" Said Jake walking out of the hallway.
"Hey Emily are you okay?" Asked Ashley from the couch making Andy look at me.
I had my arms wrapped around tightly around my body and was tying to get as small as I could to keep warm. Shivers running threw me. I bit my lip to keep my teeth from chattering.
I was shocked when I felt warm hands on my cheeks making my hand move up. I was met by dark blue eyes.
"Shh Emily you'r okay you are safe. You are in the bus with me." Andy said looking deep into my eyes and talking clam and strong.
I nodded wanting him to know I understood. A shiver ran threw my body. I wrapped my arms around my body tighter trying to stay warm.
"You'r okay." He said softly, smiling.
I shook my head. "C-cold." I said my teeth chattering.
I don't understand how he did not seem cold at all.
"Shower?" Andy asked almost sighing. I watched him relax once he realized I was not having a brake down.
Was he really that worried about me?' I asked myself not thinking he would worry that much. Maybe its because I'm in fron of his friends yeah that's it.
I nodded at him. wantting out of these wet clothes and in a hot shower. Andy smiled and grabbed my hand leading me to the bathroom.
"I promise not to tell Juliet." Ashley said joking when we both stepped into the bathroom.
Andy was about to leave but I was shocked when he put his head out the door.
"Tell her I don't give a fuck." He said and shut the door and locked it behind him.
He turned around and put his back on the door and crossed his arms over his chest. He looked at me and smiled but I could see the pain in his deep blue eyes. I bit my lip taking him in for the first time today. He was dressed in a simple black misfits shirt and black jeans and his boots. The water from his hair dripped off and ran down his neck or fell to the floor.
I took a breath and was slightly shocked at the words that left my mouth but I said them before I could stop myself.
"Take a shower with me." I said oddly clam I was still shivering but no teeth chattering.
"Em I don't think that's a good idea."
"Well Ashley is going to bug you about not doing it when you said you were and plus you need a shower to. You are just as wet as I am." I said biting my lip feeling shy
'Oh come on Emily you fucked him last night he has seen you naked already.'
I turned from him and turned on the water. I started to take my jacket off but it was sticking to my wet skin. I blushed when I felt ANdy's cool fingers push the jacket off. It made a soft plop as it hit the tile floor.
"Thank you." I said softly.
I grabbed the bottom of my shirt and took it off along with the rest of my clothes letting the fall to the floor with my jacket. I stepped into the now warm water sighing as it washed down my cold body. I closed my eyes and turned around getting my hair wet. I closed my eyes and ran my fingers threw my wet, now warm hair.
I opened my eyes hearing the shower door close. Andy was standing in front of me in nothing but what he was born in. I blushed and made myself look at his face. At his deep blue eyes.
"You got water all over the floor leaving the door open." He said taking a step closer to me. I moved back so he could get wet by the warm water, making me pined between him and the shower wall. It was cold sending a small shiver threw me.
"Still cold?" Andy asked his voice deepening
I blushed for once not knowing what the naked guy in front of me wanted.
'Was that lust in is voice is that why it got deeper?' I asked myself, trying to remember if all guys did that. 'Dose Andy have a lust for me?'
He had sex with you so he must like something about you.* My mind said to me. I agreed with it hoping that it was true.
"Yes a little." I said to Andy's question.
"Come here." He said shocking me by taking a step back.
I shyly took a step closer the water now running down my back. I closed my eyes and dipped my head back letting it run threw my hair.
"Turn around." Andy said his voice deeper if that's even possible.
I blushed and turned around the water now running down my neck and down my belly. A soft sigh left my mouth as I felt long fingers run threw my hair. The warm familiar smell filled my nose. Cinnamon I think. I closed my eyes and lead my head back a little. All too soon Andy told me to turn around to wash it out. Luck for me he did the same with conditioner. I smiled up at him when I was done rinsing my hair.
"Better?" He asked softly touching my cheek.
I shook my head. "Much better." I said smiling.
"Good. Want to go to bed?"
"No I have to wash your hair only fair." I said smiling at him.
He rolled his eyes then smiled. I took the same shampoo he used on me and put some in my hands. Standing on my toes I rubbed it into Andy's hair. I started to slip till I felt warm strong hands grab my middle. He grabbed where my tattoo was, right under my breast a deep blush covered my cheeks and neck.
"Easy cupcake." Andy said. I could hear the smile as much as see it.
"You'r fault for being so damn tall." I said moving so I was on the bottoms of my feet again. Andy didn't take his hands off me till he knew I was not slipping.
"Always my fault..." He said shaking his head. The hummer clear in his eyes
I giggled and stepped back so he wash his hair out.
"Of course." I said as he turned around leaning his head back I ran my fingers threw his hair washing the shampoo from his hair.
I conditioned his hair but let him wash it out as I quickly washed my body. I blushed deeply when I loud yawn left my mouth.
"Now time for bed?" He asked behind me. I could feel his chest almost touching my back. I blushed and nodded. Andy turned off the water as I opened the door to the shower and stepped out. The cool air nipping at my skin. I wrapped my arms around my chest. I smiled when I felt a soft towel lay over my shoulders. I smiled at Andy and started to dry myself off.
"I'm going to go get dressed." Andy said looking at me threw the foggy broken mirror.
"Okay." I said smiling back at him.
I was shocked when I felt warm soft lips press into my left cheek. "Don't punch anymore mirrors okay cupcake." Andy said then softly ran the tip of his nose up my cheek then kissed it again. He walked out of the bathroom, shuting the door behind him.
I looked at the door a few moments after he left thinking about all that has happened today.
'So what dose that mean for us? Are we together now?' I asked myself looking at my now clearer self in the mirror.
I shook my head and got some clothes from under the sink changing quickly. It may have been in the middle of the afternoon but I was ready for bed. I slipped on a tank top and a pair of sweat pants. Not worrying with socks I opened the bathroom door and walked down the hallway. Shocked i didn't see anyone in the front room.
'Maybe everyone was sleeping since there was nothing else better to do with the rain outside.' I wonder to myself and stopped when I got to Andy's bunk. The curtain was pulled back and there was no Andy. I shrugged and crawled in. Leaving the curtain opened I laid down facing the wall and curling up in a ball. I snuggled into Andy's pillow cinnamon filled my nose. I smiled realizing why the shampoo smelt familiar.
"Having fun?" Asked a soft yet deep voice from behind me.
I jumped and looked behind me to see bright blue eyes. I smiled at Andy and nodded. He was only dressed in a pair of black sweat pants. He smiled back making his eyes get brighter. I turned around before he got in the bunk knowing how hard it was to move once he was n here. Not that I minded I rather enjoyed being close to him. I was scared of small spaces but not with him. He made me know that I was safe and no one could hurt me.
"So may I ask why you were snuggling my pillow?" He asked laying his side holding his head up by his elbow on the pillow. The curtain closed behind him. I giggled
"It smells like you. In a away its my pillow too since we sleep in the same bunk and there is only one pillow."
"No it's mine because you sleep on ether my chest or shoulder or arm. Never the pillow." He said lifting one eyebrow making me bite my lip.
"Fine you win this time batman."
"Cupcake I win most of the time." He said smiling and softly stroking my cheek with his thumb.
"only because I let you." i said sticking my tongue out at him. Before I could react Andy moved down and licked the tip of my tongue with his making me blush and giggle.
"Take a picture with me?" He asked taking me by surprise
"Okay." I said smiling.
He smiled widely like a small child on there birthday and got his phone out of his pocket and turned it on. He laid on his back making me move so my head was on his shoulder. I didn't know if any of his fans would see this I didn't want them to get the wrong idea of him since they don't know who I am and that get is single now. I bite my lip trying to stop the butterflies in my belly at the thought.
I was pulled by my thoughts by a bright light. I blinked and looked at Andy to see him looking at the picture he just took. It was of both of us. My bottom lip was between my teeth and I was clearly lost in thought. My hair still slightly wet fanned down my back and slightly on the pillow under me and Andy. It was a okay picture of me but I could not stop stairing at Andy. He had his head to the side looking down at me. His eyebrow lifted and he was biting his lip ring. He looked relaxed and his eyes were bright and clear. He looked younger and dare I say it happy. I shook my head at the thought and looked up at Andy as he typed something in his phone.
"What are you doing?" I asked looking at his phone.
Twitter was up. He was shearing the pic on twitter? Great now I'm going to look like a whore fucking him.
*You are fucking him.* My mind spat at me. 'Fucked! I fucked him I'm not fucking him it was a one time thing.' I thought trying to make myself believe that.
He posted the pic with the words. Chilling in my bunk with my BFFFFF.
He smiled down at me.
"Another?" He asked hope laced his voice. How could I say no. What was with him and taking pictures
"Sure." i said smiling at him.
This time I was looking at the phone and not off in dream land. It was easy enough picture both of us smiling. Well Andy was more of a smirk but I didn't mind.
He got on twitter again to post it and already he had 20 comments on the picture he posted before.
"Want to reply to some of them?" He asked looking down at me.
I nodded making him chuckle.
"Alright. Most of these are who are you that's easy." Her name is Emily.
He replied the the first comment, then handed me his phone.
"What-"
"Reply to the next one, you siad you wanted to don't think I'm going to be doing all the work for you lazy bones." He smiling and poking my nose
I rolled my eyes and look at the comments.
How old is she? I replied with my age.
I bet she is really your new girlfriend? ;)
Andy what happened to Juliet?
She is hot!
How long have you know her? Why just now show us a pic?
Love the contacts she has! That is her real eye color.
She is ugly....
I can't believe you are cheating, Didn't think you were like that Andy.... -_-
Not trying to be rude but she is prettier then Juliet. Sorry Andy >.<<br> She looks high lol!
How long have you known her Andy? Since I was a teen. Bryan Stars has a her in a interview.
"Here, your turn they are coming to fast and half of them are not questions and the other half I can't answer." I said handing his phone back to him.
"Welcome to my life. You can't connect to a lot of fans anymore." He said sounding almost sad. He didn't even look at his phone he just locked it and put it on the shelf in the wall.
"Now what?" I asked a yawning leaving me lips
"Now we sleep, we should start heading to the next stop soon. You know how I don't sleep easy plus you one stop yawning." Andy said yawning.
"I only yawned twice, and I can't help it my shower was very relaxing." I said smiling at him.
"Glad you liked it hun." He said wrapping his arms around me.
I smiled and cuddled up to him nuzzling into his neck, his chest cool to my cheek. My smiled grew as he started to hum My Friends From Sweeney Todd.
Soon way to soon I found myself swinging in a pool of sweet dreams about a dark haired blue eyed fallen angle.

Notes

Thank you so much for reading my story!!! :) I really hope you liked it :) Comment and tell me what you think and if you would like to see something in it who knows I may just used the idea ;P Okay then bye my loves

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