My Heaven; My Hell
Chapter Three
CC's POV:
It kills to see you dying.
Before I even knew what I was doing, my mouth was attached to his. For a moment he lay still beneath me, in obvious shock, but after a while his lips started moving in perfect rhythm with mine. A soft moan escaped him as the kiss deepened. But just as I was about to take it further, he pushed me back sharply, eyes wide and brimmed with tears. His deep voice was raised to a cracked, shrill whimper as he tried to speak. "No- I can't... I can't lose my virginity like this. P-please don't rape me; you can beat me, you can send me to the hospital, just please not this-"
I couldn't help but stare at him in disbelief. Rape him? No matter what I did, he was still scared... Why couldn't he just understand that I loved-
My thoughts cut off abruptly.
What was I thinking; hell, what was I doing? I couldn't do this with him!
I shook my head, hardening my tone. "You don't think much, do you?" Without looking for a reaction, I rose to my feet and turned to walk away. The silence behind me was deathly. A part of me almost wished he'd stop me... but why would he ever do that? I knew all the things I'd done to him; it was right of him not to trust me.
Andy's POV:
What had just happened?! I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs or to cry into someone's shoulder, but who did I have to do that with?
My mind raced back to when I'd been hugging CC; no, he'd been hugging me. Why would he even think to do something like that... Was he trying to make me trust him only to let me down in front of everyone? I had to admit, though... the way he looked at me didn't even have the slightest trace of malice, and he practically lulled me to sleep with his soft caring voice.
The way he hugged me, so gently as though afraid of hurting me, was nothing like the CC I knew. He almost seemed to want to hug me. He knew exactly how to make me melt into him and break down. Was he just trying to embarrass me? He even kissed me sweetly.
I rose my hand to touch my lips softly, feeling the shaky breaths against my skin. I'd kissed back. Why had I done that? After everything he'd done, why did I kiss him?! I felt tears dampen my hand as the next thought raced through my mind.
I want to do it again.
It kills to see you dying.
Before I even knew what I was doing, my mouth was attached to his. For a moment he lay still beneath me, in obvious shock, but after a while his lips started moving in perfect rhythm with mine. A soft moan escaped him as the kiss deepened. But just as I was about to take it further, he pushed me back sharply, eyes wide and brimmed with tears. His deep voice was raised to a cracked, shrill whimper as he tried to speak. "No- I can't... I can't lose my virginity like this. P-please don't rape me; you can beat me, you can send me to the hospital, just please not this-"
I couldn't help but stare at him in disbelief. Rape him? No matter what I did, he was still scared... Why couldn't he just understand that I loved-
My thoughts cut off abruptly.
What was I thinking; hell, what was I doing? I couldn't do this with him!
I shook my head, hardening my tone. "You don't think much, do you?" Without looking for a reaction, I rose to my feet and turned to walk away. The silence behind me was deathly. A part of me almost wished he'd stop me... but why would he ever do that? I knew all the things I'd done to him; it was right of him not to trust me.
Andy's POV:
What had just happened?! I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs or to cry into someone's shoulder, but who did I have to do that with?
My mind raced back to when I'd been hugging CC; no, he'd been hugging me. Why would he even think to do something like that... Was he trying to make me trust him only to let me down in front of everyone? I had to admit, though... the way he looked at me didn't even have the slightest trace of malice, and he practically lulled me to sleep with his soft caring voice.
The way he hugged me, so gently as though afraid of hurting me, was nothing like the CC I knew. He almost seemed to want to hug me. He knew exactly how to make me melt into him and break down. Was he just trying to embarrass me? He even kissed me sweetly.
I rose my hand to touch my lips softly, feeling the shaky breaths against my skin. I'd kissed back. Why had I done that? After everything he'd done, why did I kiss him?! I felt tears dampen my hand as the next thought raced through my mind.
I want to do it again.
Notes
Whoa.
Where did this come from at 12 in the morning? x-x
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-Bridecest101
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6/20/16