When Darkness Is All You See
A Bleeding Heart Still Pounds
-----TIMS LAPS (a month) ASHLEY'S POV-----
God it felt great to be back in LA. I missed the city, the beach, everything. We had just done our last concert of Warped Tour today and it was time for the meet and greet. I went to my dressing room and redid my hair and makeup, wanting to look good for the fans. I ran the straightener through my hair one more time, then teased the back to make it "poofy". Satisifed with my look, I went to join the guys at the venue.
It started out as a typical meet and greet. The usual sign-this-take-a-picture deal. It was fascinating to hear the fan's stories about how we saved their lives. This one girl handed me her razor and hugged me while she was crying. She told me that if it wasn't for us, she would "no longer exist". I cried with her and told her it was our pleasure.
A few hours had passed when something, somebody caught my eye. And damn, she had some body. Her pretty brown hair, matching her brown eyes, stopped just at her shoulder and covered the left side of her face. Her skin was the perfect tone; a little tan, but not too pale. The lights of the venue danced off her curves as she leaned against a wall. Her ripped jeans showed off her toned legs and her Black Veil Brides shirt showed a little bit of her cleavage. I felt my jeans getting thighter against my errection when I noticed she seemed lonely.
I worked up the guts to go speak to her. The moment I stood, everything around me froze. I forgot where I was, who I was with, and for how long I had been here. I focused all my attention on the brown eyed beauty in front of me. She gave me a small smile, which I returned. I then realized I wasn't speaking and she was staring at me with a hint of confusion on her face. Speak you idiot! I thought to myself.
"H-hi," I managed to choke out.
"Hi," she giggled.
"Ugh," I began my compliments, " I was wondering, do you know how gorgeous you are? Just curious."
"I don't know, Ashley," she said grabbing my star necklace with her index finger, "why don't you tell me how gorgeous I am? I'm sure you've had enough practice to know exactly what a girl likes to hear."
Damn! She had a fiesty side too? This girl is going to drive me insane. This was the first time I hadn't placed my hands on a girl I found attractive. She put her hands on me, instead. Her touch sent an electric charge coursing through my veins. It felt as if every inch of my skin was on fire.
"True," I explained, clearing my throat, "I have had practice flirting with girls. However, I'm not going to treat you as another practice."
"No?"
"No, maybe I want to take you on a date?"
"Where would you take me?" she asked, her eyes glistening in the light.
"How about that carnival that's in town?"
"Hmm," she wondered, "alright, Ashley, I'll go with you. Give me your sharpie?" she asked dropping my necklace and holding out a hand.
"Sure," I said handing her the silver sharpie in my pocket.
"Here is my number," she explained, wrighting her number on my hand. "My name is Meaghan, by the way."
"That's a pretty name. So Meaghan, I don't suppose you would mind if my friends Andy and Kaitlyn join us tomorrow night, do you?"
This was the first date I had in a long time. I needed my best friend for manly advice and his girlfriend for female advice. I didn't want to screw anything up. Something about this girl made me nervous.
"Not at all," she said disturbing my thoughts, "It's a double date. Pick me up tomorrow at 7:00pm. See you then, Ashley. By the way, tell Kaitlyn I'm glad she's back on her feet after the incident with Paul."
And with that, she walked away. Of course, I watched her as she left but I wasn't staring at her ass, I just watced her leave. In my mind I imagined myself running after her, spinning her around and kissing her right then and there. Damn, how could this one girl cause so many feelings? I already missed her as she vanished out of the venue.
Tomorrow at seven. I thought to myself. Don't be late, Ash. You don't wanna screw anything up. I was so excited for our date tomorrow.
"Andy!" I screamed, running back to him.
"What?" he asked, his eyes widened at my excitement.
"I just got a date!"
"Really? What's her name?" he chuckled.
"Yeah! Her name is Meaghan. Oh, do you and Kaitlyn wanna double date with us? We're going to the carnival."
"Yeah, I was actually going to take Kaitlyn there anyways. Her scratches and stuff have finally healed up, so I was going to take her out. She needs to have some fun."
"Okay, by the way," I said facing Kaitlyn, "Meaghan is glad you're better." She just smiled.
The meet and greet ended soon and I was so tired. We all started heading for the bus and I noticed Kaitlyn fell asleep and Jinxx carried her to Andy's bunk. I wish somebody would carry me when I was tired! Deciding not to complain, I got on the bus and packed my bags. Everything was packed and ready to go. As I picked up my last bag, I heard something hit the floor. I turned to see two of my Playboy Magazines had fallen. I realized I was holding my "speacial" bag.
I handed Jake my bag full of clothes and set my special bag on the floor in the back lounge. I unzipped it and felt disgusted by everything I saw. Loads of women's underwear, porn magazines, whips, unused sex toys, lube, all kinds of things. I dug through the entire bag and threw it all away, including the bag.
I decided to keep the condoms, two pairs of hand cuffs, I'd give a pair to Andy tomorrow, and my blindfold. I also kept a sexy night gown, incase Kaitlyn ever needed it, which she might. I wrapped the stuff in my jacket and jumped off the bus, taking my bag from Jake.
I unlocked and stepped through my front door, god it felt nice just to smell my own house. The echoing of my footsteps made me sad. My house was empty. I dug my phone out of my back packet and sent Meaghan a text.
Me: Hey, Meaghan. It's Ashley. I'm just checking to make sure you got home safe. Text me when you can.
Feeling anxious when my phone didn't vibrate after five minutes, I decided to take a shower. The warmth of the water calmed my nerves. I lathered the shampoo into my hair then, after rinsing it, did the same with my conditioner. I washed my body, letting the conditioner sit. At this point I probably would have been jerking to a one-nighter but something was different. The thought of sex never occured to me, I even through all of my kinky crap away. I shrugged it off and rinsed my body then my hair completely. Stepping out of the shower, I grabbed my towel and rubbed it through my hair, drying it, then fastened it around my waist as I walked into my room.
I picked my phone up from my night stand and sat down on the edge of the bed. Looking through my pictures, I deleted every single one of a hot chick. I wanted nothing to tempt me. I wanted a girl to stay with me and love me forever, not just for one night. I didn't want any memories or evidence of previous one-nighters, so I deleted them all.
I jumped as my phone buzzed in my hand. It was a reply from Meaghan. Attached was a picture of her pretty face. She had the most gorgeous, kissable, plump lips. Mmm, I wonder how they would feel against mine. I began reading the text.
Meaghan: Hi Ash! :) Yes, I made it home fine. My friend doesn't believe this is really you so could you send us a picture? By the way, here's a picture of me for my caller ID :)
Me: Haha, sure! I'll send you a picture. You look pretty, btw. :)
I stood in front of my mirror and brushed my hair out. I didn't tease it because after a few more texts, I was going to bed. I looked at myself in various poses, searching for the right one. When I found it, I hit the camera icon and pointed it at myself in the mirror. I used my puppy dog eyes and snapped the picture then sent it to Meaghan without a message.
I looked down and realized my towel had fallen off in my room. I quickly looked at the picture I sent to Meaghan in panic. If she saw my dick, I would be so embarrassed! I mean, don't get me wrong, I am proud of my penis but she didn't ask to see it. A picture of me with puppy dog eyes and my penis on full display?! She'd probably I'm a creep or something. I sat and impatiently waited for the phone to load the picture. Finally, it loaded. Fourtunately, the farthest you could see was my OUTLAW tattoo.
Meaghan: Aww, you look you so cute with your puppydog eyes! You should do them more often, lol!
Me: I'll consider it. Oh and thank you for making me blush, lol. We should probably get some shut eye, especially you. I've got a big day planned for us tomorrow. :)
Meaghan: Lol, okay. I'm actually quite excited. Good night OUTLAW ;)
Me: Good night Bunny. I've decided to call you bunny because you are just so adorable.
Meaghan: Lol, okay. See you at seven?Me: See you at seven. :)
Tired from touring and happy to be home, I plopped down into my bed. I put my phone on charge and got under the covers. I didn't bother to get dressed, I was way too tired to move. It didn't matter if I was naked anyway, I was in my own house. I closed my eyes for one second and I was out like a light.
God it felt great to be back in LA. I missed the city, the beach, everything. We had just done our last concert of Warped Tour today and it was time for the meet and greet. I went to my dressing room and redid my hair and makeup, wanting to look good for the fans. I ran the straightener through my hair one more time, then teased the back to make it "poofy". Satisifed with my look, I went to join the guys at the venue.
It started out as a typical meet and greet. The usual sign-this-take-a-picture deal. It was fascinating to hear the fan's stories about how we saved their lives. This one girl handed me her razor and hugged me while she was crying. She told me that if it wasn't for us, she would "no longer exist". I cried with her and told her it was our pleasure.
A few hours had passed when something, somebody caught my eye. And damn, she had some body. Her pretty brown hair, matching her brown eyes, stopped just at her shoulder and covered the left side of her face. Her skin was the perfect tone; a little tan, but not too pale. The lights of the venue danced off her curves as she leaned against a wall. Her ripped jeans showed off her toned legs and her Black Veil Brides shirt showed a little bit of her cleavage. I felt my jeans getting thighter against my errection when I noticed she seemed lonely.
I worked up the guts to go speak to her. The moment I stood, everything around me froze. I forgot where I was, who I was with, and for how long I had been here. I focused all my attention on the brown eyed beauty in front of me. She gave me a small smile, which I returned. I then realized I wasn't speaking and she was staring at me with a hint of confusion on her face. Speak you idiot! I thought to myself.
"H-hi," I managed to choke out.
"Hi," she giggled.
"Ugh," I began my compliments, " I was wondering, do you know how gorgeous you are? Just curious."
"I don't know, Ashley," she said grabbing my star necklace with her index finger, "why don't you tell me how gorgeous I am? I'm sure you've had enough practice to know exactly what a girl likes to hear."
Damn! She had a fiesty side too? This girl is going to drive me insane. This was the first time I hadn't placed my hands on a girl I found attractive. She put her hands on me, instead. Her touch sent an electric charge coursing through my veins. It felt as if every inch of my skin was on fire.
"True," I explained, clearing my throat, "I have had practice flirting with girls. However, I'm not going to treat you as another practice."
"No?"
"No, maybe I want to take you on a date?"
"Where would you take me?" she asked, her eyes glistening in the light.
"How about that carnival that's in town?"
"Hmm," she wondered, "alright, Ashley, I'll go with you. Give me your sharpie?" she asked dropping my necklace and holding out a hand.
"Sure," I said handing her the silver sharpie in my pocket.
"Here is my number," she explained, wrighting her number on my hand. "My name is Meaghan, by the way."
"That's a pretty name. So Meaghan, I don't suppose you would mind if my friends Andy and Kaitlyn join us tomorrow night, do you?"
This was the first date I had in a long time. I needed my best friend for manly advice and his girlfriend for female advice. I didn't want to screw anything up. Something about this girl made me nervous.
"Not at all," she said disturbing my thoughts, "It's a double date. Pick me up tomorrow at 7:00pm. See you then, Ashley. By the way, tell Kaitlyn I'm glad she's back on her feet after the incident with Paul."
And with that, she walked away. Of course, I watched her as she left but I wasn't staring at her ass, I just watced her leave. In my mind I imagined myself running after her, spinning her around and kissing her right then and there. Damn, how could this one girl cause so many feelings? I already missed her as she vanished out of the venue.
Tomorrow at seven. I thought to myself. Don't be late, Ash. You don't wanna screw anything up. I was so excited for our date tomorrow.
"Andy!" I screamed, running back to him.
"What?" he asked, his eyes widened at my excitement.
"I just got a date!"
"Really? What's her name?" he chuckled.
"Yeah! Her name is Meaghan. Oh, do you and Kaitlyn wanna double date with us? We're going to the carnival."
"Yeah, I was actually going to take Kaitlyn there anyways. Her scratches and stuff have finally healed up, so I was going to take her out. She needs to have some fun."
"Okay, by the way," I said facing Kaitlyn, "Meaghan is glad you're better." She just smiled.
The meet and greet ended soon and I was so tired. We all started heading for the bus and I noticed Kaitlyn fell asleep and Jinxx carried her to Andy's bunk. I wish somebody would carry me when I was tired! Deciding not to complain, I got on the bus and packed my bags. Everything was packed and ready to go. As I picked up my last bag, I heard something hit the floor. I turned to see two of my Playboy Magazines had fallen. I realized I was holding my "speacial" bag.
I handed Jake my bag full of clothes and set my special bag on the floor in the back lounge. I unzipped it and felt disgusted by everything I saw. Loads of women's underwear, porn magazines, whips, unused sex toys, lube, all kinds of things. I dug through the entire bag and threw it all away, including the bag.
I decided to keep the condoms, two pairs of hand cuffs, I'd give a pair to Andy tomorrow, and my blindfold. I also kept a sexy night gown, incase Kaitlyn ever needed it, which she might. I wrapped the stuff in my jacket and jumped off the bus, taking my bag from Jake.
I unlocked and stepped through my front door, god it felt nice just to smell my own house. The echoing of my footsteps made me sad. My house was empty. I dug my phone out of my back packet and sent Meaghan a text.
Me: Hey, Meaghan. It's Ashley. I'm just checking to make sure you got home safe. Text me when you can.
Feeling anxious when my phone didn't vibrate after five minutes, I decided to take a shower. The warmth of the water calmed my nerves. I lathered the shampoo into my hair then, after rinsing it, did the same with my conditioner. I washed my body, letting the conditioner sit. At this point I probably would have been jerking to a one-nighter but something was different. The thought of sex never occured to me, I even through all of my kinky crap away. I shrugged it off and rinsed my body then my hair completely. Stepping out of the shower, I grabbed my towel and rubbed it through my hair, drying it, then fastened it around my waist as I walked into my room.
I picked my phone up from my night stand and sat down on the edge of the bed. Looking through my pictures, I deleted every single one of a hot chick. I wanted nothing to tempt me. I wanted a girl to stay with me and love me forever, not just for one night. I didn't want any memories or evidence of previous one-nighters, so I deleted them all.
I jumped as my phone buzzed in my hand. It was a reply from Meaghan. Attached was a picture of her pretty face. She had the most gorgeous, kissable, plump lips. Mmm, I wonder how they would feel against mine. I began reading the text.
Meaghan: Hi Ash! :) Yes, I made it home fine. My friend doesn't believe this is really you so could you send us a picture? By the way, here's a picture of me for my caller ID :)
Me: Haha, sure! I'll send you a picture. You look pretty, btw. :)
I stood in front of my mirror and brushed my hair out. I didn't tease it because after a few more texts, I was going to bed. I looked at myself in various poses, searching for the right one. When I found it, I hit the camera icon and pointed it at myself in the mirror. I used my puppy dog eyes and snapped the picture then sent it to Meaghan without a message.
I looked down and realized my towel had fallen off in my room. I quickly looked at the picture I sent to Meaghan in panic. If she saw my dick, I would be so embarrassed! I mean, don't get me wrong, I am proud of my penis but she didn't ask to see it. A picture of me with puppy dog eyes and my penis on full display?! She'd probably I'm a creep or something. I sat and impatiently waited for the phone to load the picture. Finally, it loaded. Fourtunately, the farthest you could see was my OUTLAW tattoo.
Meaghan: Aww, you look you so cute with your puppydog eyes! You should do them more often, lol!
Me: I'll consider it. Oh and thank you for making me blush, lol. We should probably get some shut eye, especially you. I've got a big day planned for us tomorrow. :)
Meaghan: Lol, okay. I'm actually quite excited. Good night OUTLAW ;)
Me: Good night Bunny. I've decided to call you bunny because you are just so adorable.
Meaghan: Lol, okay. See you at seven?Me: See you at seven. :)
Tired from touring and happy to be home, I plopped down into my bed. I put my phone on charge and got under the covers. I didn't bother to get dressed, I was way too tired to move. It didn't matter if I was naked anyway, I was in my own house. I closed my eyes for one second and I was out like a light.
Omg I've been reading this for two weeks! I fugging love this story!!!!!! Can't wait for more!
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