I spent the entire next day in the hotel room. I didn't want to risk leaving, in case Ashley stopped by. I didn't eat and I didn't use the bathroom. I couldn't step away from the door, if that knock came I had to be there to hear it. By the time it neared 9 o'clock I was growing frustrated. I turned the television off and sat in the corner of my bed.
Who am I kidding? He's not coming for me. My fists clenched. What could I do at this point? Ashley was all I could think about. I tried to think about what I was going to do If he didn't come but I was absolutely stumped. How was I going to make a living from this point on? I had no talents. I could probably work a cash register and that's it. The only achievement I've ever had up till this point was killing Henry Tanner. My father never let me participate in anything sports or arts related, I always had to help out at the church. He didn't want a future for me, he was the type of man that believed women shouldn't leave the house. I snickered, "Burn in hell you bastard." Ah, it felt good to curse. I found myself wanting to do everything I never got the chance to do. 'Like sex', a voice in the back of my head whispered.Why was I so persistent? Maybe I feared that everything would be taken away so easily again. I wanted the choice to still be mine, when to do it and who to do it with. But ganging up like I did on Ashley was a mistake. If I could turn back time I would. Although by first glance you could tell Ashley was someone who was ruled by their genitals, he was such a gentleman to me. Why did I have to keep bothering him like that, he must resent me now. I screamed into a pillow, now why did I have to think about pointless crap so much.

Before I knew it I had dozed off, uninterrupted by any knocks throughout the night. When I woke up my stomach was growling at me like crazy. I forgot I hadn't eaten anything yesterday. I quickly ran outside and ran back in with my arms full of snacks from the vending machine. My attitude throughout the day was just miserable. I don't even think I was staying inside anymore to wait for Ashley, I just didn't know what to do with my life. Maybe I should drink something, or smoke. I'd never gotten to do that before. I hopped out of my bed and put my shoes on. When I looked into my stash of money I gasped. I only had about three thousand dollars left. How did I spend so much money in such little time? I grabbed a 50 and walked out of the room.

I walked to the nearest gas station and bought a pack of marlboro reds with a case of beer. By the time I got back to the motel its was already nighttime. I popped open my first beer and sat outside so I could smoke. I examined the cigarette before lighting it up, which side did I put in my mouth? I eventually got it when I saw the white filter on one side. I lit it up and sucked in a little bit of smoke. I coughed instantly, "That's terrible!" My throat was on fire, it would not let the smoke pass without burning. I filled my cheeks with the smoke instead and blew it out. This way it looked like I was actually smoking it. The fact that I was also a smoking virgin was embarrassing. The beer didn't taste as bad as the cigarette did but it wasn't pleasant. I would probably drink a couple more just because I wanted to get hammered. I stayed outside for this, being inside the motel room for 2 days made me begin to resent it.

As I was getting ready to drink my third beer I found myself squinting at a walking figure that was approaching. As the figure grew closer I could tell they were limping and staggering. My eyes widened.
"Ashley!" I yelled as I ran towards him. When I reached him he collapsed in front of my feet. "Oh god what's wrong with you?" I panicked as I lifted his head off the ground. He was bleeding in several places, the most blood coming from a gash to the side of his stomach. I quickly dragged him into the motel and propped him up right on my bed. I removed all the clothing on his upper body so I could get a better look at the wound
"Shit." I cursed as he began groaning in pain. The wound was ugly, but I was confident that I could stitch it up. I grabbed a first aid kit from the closet and began disinfecting it. He was panting heavily and had broken out into a sweat. I tried to work quickly so I could attend to the fever he had built up. We were in silence for most of the time, the occasional groaning being the only noise happening. I patched up his wound and pulled the bed covers over his body. I began patting down his neck and face with a cold wet rag until his breathing regulated. I pulled some tylenol out of my drawer and poured a glass of water for him. It was the only thing I had to offer. "Ashley, look at me. You need to drink this." He looked up tiredly and accepted the pills.
I was going to get up to find him something to eat and he frantically grabbed my wrist.
"Stay." he whispered. I nodded and sat down on the bed, holding his hand.
"What happened?" I said softly.
"One of the guys I was going after had a group of men protecting him. I managed to get away, but not in one piece." He attempted to smile. "I didn't know where else to go, this was the closest place I could walk to. I can't return to my apartment just yet either, they'll be looking for me there." He added.
"Just rest, It's okay. You can stay here as long as you need to." I squeezed his hand.
"Thank you Lana. I mean it." He said looking straight into my eyes.
"I thought I'd never see you again Ashley. I wanted to apologize for the things I did. I was just so confused. Don't you hate me?" I said.
"Hey, of course not. How could I hate such a pretty girl?" He teased. I smiled, relieved.
"Well let me know if you need anything? I'm going to check out another room for tonight." I got off the bed to pack a few things.
"What? No, we can share. I'll be good if you'll be good." He reassured. I paused, well that was all fine and dandy but I wasn't sure ifI would be good. I was drunk, and these battle wounds of his were turning me on a little bit. I sighed, "Alright."

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Notes

so i know this isn't the longest chapter but I wanted to update since I didn't get to yesterday. I was a bit busy. Be patient, it'll get better. and kinkier c;

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