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The Outcast

Secrets and Scars (Blade's Pov)

"Oh... So I guess were gonna go down stairs .. unless you want to stay here "Andy said.
He just give me a choice. I spent almost my whole life in the orphanage. They never let you choose. I seen Andy looking at me. I don't know why but knowing he was looking at me made my want to go a hide somewhere no one could see me. Then i realized he was waiting for me to answer his question.
"Sure we can go down stairs" I said I sounded like to was sad but I was low self-esteem. I don't like to make choices. I didn't want anyone to get upset if they don't like my choice . So I don't choose things.
We made our way down stairs and into the living room where all the guys was.I sat on the floor as faraway as i could and Andy sat next to Ashley. Everyone was quite for while.
"Hey Blade" CC said breaking k the silence .I looked at him to be sure he knew I was listening."Do you play any instruments"
"Yes" I answered hoping he wouldn't ask me anything else.Yet he started to ask another so I put my head phones back on turn the all the way up and turned so i was facing the wall.Then someone tapped me. I just ignored it. Then some one took me phone from my hand and my head phone . But I was still facing the wall when i heard Andy speak
"I'm taking this for two days and if you don't turn around I'm make it week"
I need my phone to survive so i turned around.
"Now stop being so rude." Andy was he was calm.
I just sat there looking at Andy until he looked at me and i hid my face with my knees. I think he noticed that i was shy and wouldn't start talking to anyone.
"Blade" Andy called me and everyone looked at me I hate people staring at me I feel like they were judging me."Those guys I met earlier you guys are your friends right"
"Kinda" I responded. "th-th-their in my ba-band well our band."I stuttered so felt really ashamed a feeling i haven't had in a long time. So i hid my face again.
"Blade you don't have to hide from us" The tone of Andy's voice had me sound truthful."We wont hurt you OK"
"OK" I responded I'm 15 and i sound like scared little baby.I knew that Andy wouldn't let them hurt me.I knew they wouldn't try. So stop hiding and watched them talk about a new record they were working on.
"Blade" Ashley called it get my attention "What do you do.. you know in your band."
"Im the lead singer but sometime when someone else want prpform a song they wrote I take there place" i answered.
"Oh" Ashley was still looking at me i geuss he was tring to find something else to ask."Do you have a girlfreind"
I didnt want to tell them adout me and Texas so soon. but i felt like I should hide thing from them.
"Umm..No" I said tring to say it iso I wouldNt vbe lying When i said it i got all shy again so I just looked down. Andy must have notice because he asked if he cuold talk to me in my room. so i followed him upstairs and into my room.he saton my bed and I sat on the chair next to my desk.
"Blade."He said like worried "If we're making you feel un comfortable you can tell us."
"But your not" I responded "It's just that... nevermind"
"Blade you can tell me."He said."And if dont want the guys to know I wont tell them."
"But you wont like me if i tell you." I said.
"You know that not true" He said.
"I know that but you wont treat me the same" i didnt want to hide things from andy but i know how he would take this.
"I wont change the way I treat you. I just wanna know why your so afraid of us?"
"Im not afraid of you.. just the other guys."
"Why" He asked.
"Because they might hurt me"
"How would they hurt you?"
"You know verbal,mental,emotional,and physical abuse ... Ive been through it all before"
"That was before your here now and they wont hurt you" He said as he put his hand and my shoulder and looked me in the eyes ."I would never let them hurt you.... Now what was that whole thing with ashley just then"
"You remeber Texas right?" I asked.
"Yeah hes in your band right."
"Yes..... well umm me and him are together you know like ...dating." I said then prepared myself to get yelled at and sent back.
"Oh.. that's cool"He responded.
OK either this guy is death or hes insane. Probably the second one.
"Your not mad?" I asked.
"Nope... So you dont like girl who cares" He said smiling.
"I like girls it's just that I've never meet a girl who liked me for any reason either than sexual and I like to base my relationships on a personal level."
"Oh so that sweet little rock and roll kid every wish for but wont ask out because the guys thinks he a demon " He said in a been there done that type of voice.
"Yup" I responded
"Oh well lets go back down before they get bored and break my house"

We went down stairs and I sat down in the same spot but this time andy sat next to me.It was silent except one of them... I think his name is cc.. Keep complain about how quite t was. I stared at him for a while then looked at andy.
"Thats cc... CC man stop complaining" He yelled at him after he told me who he was.
I smiled a little cause after that cc sat there looking kinda sad.
"Is he always like this" I asked.
"Saldy yes." Andy responded . We both laughed a little "Blade when did you get on...IT" He said putting air quotations around it.
"What is it?!?" CC asked again for like the 3rd time today.
"Is he going to keep asking until he knows." I asked.
"Yes" Ashley answered while still looking at his phone.




Comments

please start again

I feel really bad never updating but if you guys want i can start again because i got a new laptop

Da_Real_JaNae Da_Real_JaNae
9/18/15

I should update tomorrow

Da_Real_JaNae Da_Real_JaNae
2/10/14

AAAAHHHH I LOVE IT PLEASE WRITE MORE!!

UPDATE!!.... pweaze?
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12/7/13