My name is Mason.. Mason Purdy
My name is Mason.. Mason Purdy
"Shh,stay as quite as you can." I whispered to Ryan,as we tiptoed down the child and adolesent wing of the California St.Marys Orphange."Just because I invited you doesn't mean we won't get in trouble if we're caught."
"Well,Sorry then." Ryan said in a slight whisper."You know Im not good at staying quite"
"Ok,its right through there"I said pointing at the double-dors that led to the stage two hall that housed the 3-6 year olds.
"How are we going to get passed that camera " Ryan said while looking up at the camera that gaurded the enterance.
"I got this "I said as i pulled the lazer out of my pocket and pointed it into the camera lens."1 2 3 4 5" I counted to be sure it was blinded "Go" I said and me and ryan ran through the doors.
"Hi"I said to the kids who stood there waiting for me to arrive"I brought my freind ryan w/ me this time."
"Hey"Ryan said to the kids as he waved.
"We have to do saviour this time "One of the kids reminded me"You promised"
"Ok johnny wheres the gutair "I asked the 5 year old boy with dark brown hair that stood in front of me. He then walked to the closet and pulled out my old gibson and gave it to me.
"Ok, everyone come sit in the circle"I said as i grabbed two chairs and sat them in the middle of the circle."Ryan wanna play" I asked.
"Sure"Ryan said as he grabbed the guitar.
Ryan began to strum the guitar as I sang saviour lightly to the kids.
After the song ended I sang the acoustic version of knives and pens .
"Ok guys we only have time for one more song "I said to the kids as I looked down at my watch.
"Awwwweee" all the kids said in unison.
"How about we play one from the new record" Ryan suggested .
"Sure let play ...."I paused from a second to think." We''ll play In The End."
We played the song and I looked down at my watch again.
"OH MY JINXX WE GOTTA GO !!"I yelled,I must have been really loud because all the kids sh'ed me.
I handed Johnny the guitar and ran out of the room try to at least make it to our hall before security caught up to us.
But as soon as we turned the corner Mr.Jackson stopped us.
"Mason " Mr.Jackson called.He hadn't seen Ryan yet so I waved to him to keep running."Why are you in the kids section of this facility.I should send you to the detention center .... but I was coming to wake you anyways.
"What why I didn't have anything to do with whatever Jonah and Michael said I did to the rec room they tried to get me in trouble for something that they did you know they hate me "
"Mason relax we know that they did that but I need you to listen to me ." Mr.Jackson said as he reached out to touch my shoulder . "We have some new information about you your mother wrote and letter before she died and gave it to your aunt to hold onto ist brought us some new information."
"What did it say" I asked
"Mrs.Jews would like to have a meeting with you tomorrow at 2 to talk about it , now get back to your room.
"Yes sir" I said as I ran back to my room.
When I got to my room I laid down in my bed and thought about her ,my mom had always been secretive,almost never home.
But what was I to expect from her is had me when she was only 18 and my dad was never there and we only spoke of him two time's
FLASHBACK.......
I sat on the corner of the couch watching KISS .
"Your just like your father ." My mom said with tears running down her face.She looked so broken something I would be able to understand until now she was depressed .
"Mommy what's wrong did my daddy hurt you ,did he make you feel sad" I said as moved close to her to give her a hug.
"No,Mason your daddy didn't hurt me " My mom says."Your daddy loved me"
"Mommy why doesn't daddy love me"I said.
"No Mason daddy does love you"she said as she hugged me tightly
"Mommy your holding me to tight" I said as I wiggled around trying to loosen her hold.
END OF FLASHBACK .....
After that I never asked about my dad I saw what it did to her it broke her down and never want her to be so sad.
I laid there thinking think the days before she killed herself and the only other time my father was brought up.
I was so upset that she would let him do this let him beat me some stranger that she was dating for a week at the time.
The pain would be all over my body from his steady blows I could have screamed the neighbors would have heard it but screaming never helped. The blows would just get harder until he would have gotten tried of hearing them and choked me until I passed out.The screaming would only make my mother cry and if she cried he would hit her to.
I know what your thinking that she was a bad mother but she was a good mom she sold herself for the food I ate the clothes I wore the music I listened to.
I told her that I could have worn cheaper clothes. I didn't need every band tee known to man. But she said I was her son so was going to have to best of the best.
But I wish I would have told her that I didn't need any of it as long as she was happy.As long as she would stop bringing them home to beat me.But I knew that it would hurt her to know I was unhappy until that day. That went to far.
*Flashback*
He hit me again and again. It hurt but I knew not to cry.
"You know what you worthless piece of shit..emo fags like you should die" He yelled at me."No wonder your dad didn't want you" then I felt they stinging on my wrist and looked down to see the blood then he left.
Later that day asked my mom why she would let him say that. The fact that she didnt respond pissed me off.
"Why did he leave" I asked.
"Mason your so young you wouldnt understand" she said
"Mom,I know I'm only nine but I promise I'll understand" she knew that that was true. Id always been really smart for my age. Getting 12th grade to college score on the test the doctors gave us to make sure we werent behind.
"Ok, I told him to leave but when he found out I was pregnant he wouldn't... So umm" I could she tears in her eyes "I moved away with grandma and grandpa and i .... I told your dad Id miscarried and didnt want to be with.. that it would cause me to much pain"
"NO, your the reason he doesnt know me your the reason i hurt myself because i thought it was my fault.... " By now i had tears running down me face "I HATE YOU SO MUCH ... YOUR THE WORST MOM EVER" I ran to my room and shut the door and found my
*End of flashback*
I hated my self for yelling at her so I went out to say sorry but she was gone and so were the keys to the car. Maybe she went somewhere and she'd be back soon. I waited but she never came back so i called my aunt and then the police. Two week later they found her body in the river and found someone who sa id the seen her jump of the bridge just the day before. My aunt got cancer soon after and sent me to the orphanage so id be taken care of. Then next day I skipped break fast and all my classes and waited for 2 o'clock to come.
"Well,Sorry then." Ryan said in a slight whisper."You know Im not good at staying quite"
"Ok,its right through there"I said pointing at the double-dors that led to the stage two hall that housed the 3-6 year olds.
"How are we going to get passed that camera " Ryan said while looking up at the camera that gaurded the enterance.
"I got this "I said as i pulled the lazer out of my pocket and pointed it into the camera lens."1 2 3 4 5" I counted to be sure it was blinded "Go" I said and me and ryan ran through the doors.
"Hi"I said to the kids who stood there waiting for me to arrive"I brought my freind ryan w/ me this time."
"Hey"Ryan said to the kids as he waved.
"We have to do saviour this time "One of the kids reminded me"You promised"
"Ok johnny wheres the gutair "I asked the 5 year old boy with dark brown hair that stood in front of me. He then walked to the closet and pulled out my old gibson and gave it to me.
"Ok, everyone come sit in the circle"I said as i grabbed two chairs and sat them in the middle of the circle."Ryan wanna play" I asked.
"Sure"Ryan said as he grabbed the guitar.
Ryan began to strum the guitar as I sang saviour lightly to the kids.
After the song ended I sang the acoustic version of knives and pens .
"Ok guys we only have time for one more song "I said to the kids as I looked down at my watch.
"Awwwweee" all the kids said in unison.
"How about we play one from the new record" Ryan suggested .
"Sure let play ...."I paused from a second to think." We''ll play In The End."
We played the song and I looked down at my watch again.
"OH MY JINXX WE GOTTA GO !!"I yelled,I must have been really loud because all the kids sh'ed me.
I handed Johnny the guitar and ran out of the room try to at least make it to our hall before security caught up to us.
But as soon as we turned the corner Mr.Jackson stopped us.
"Mason " Mr.Jackson called.He hadn't seen Ryan yet so I waved to him to keep running."Why are you in the kids section of this facility.I should send you to the detention center .... but I was coming to wake you anyways.
"What why I didn't have anything to do with whatever Jonah and Michael said I did to the rec room they tried to get me in trouble for something that they did you know they hate me "
"Mason relax we know that they did that but I need you to listen to me ." Mr.Jackson said as he reached out to touch my shoulder . "We have some new information about you your mother wrote and letter before she died and gave it to your aunt to hold onto ist brought us some new information."
"What did it say" I asked
"Mrs.Jews would like to have a meeting with you tomorrow at 2 to talk about it , now get back to your room.
"Yes sir" I said as I ran back to my room.
When I got to my room I laid down in my bed and thought about her ,my mom had always been secretive,almost never home.
But what was I to expect from her is had me when she was only 18 and my dad was never there and we only spoke of him two time's
FLASHBACK.......
I sat on the corner of the couch watching KISS .
"Your just like your father ." My mom said with tears running down her face.She looked so broken something I would be able to understand until now she was depressed .
"Mommy what's wrong did my daddy hurt you ,did he make you feel sad" I said as moved close to her to give her a hug.
"No,Mason your daddy didn't hurt me " My mom says."Your daddy loved me"
"Mommy why doesn't daddy love me"I said.
"No Mason daddy does love you"she said as she hugged me tightly
"Mommy your holding me to tight" I said as I wiggled around trying to loosen her hold.
END OF FLASHBACK .....
After that I never asked about my dad I saw what it did to her it broke her down and never want her to be so sad.
I laid there thinking think the days before she killed herself and the only other time my father was brought up.
I was so upset that she would let him do this let him beat me some stranger that she was dating for a week at the time.
The pain would be all over my body from his steady blows I could have screamed the neighbors would have heard it but screaming never helped. The blows would just get harder until he would have gotten tried of hearing them and choked me until I passed out.The screaming would only make my mother cry and if she cried he would hit her to.
I know what your thinking that she was a bad mother but she was a good mom she sold herself for the food I ate the clothes I wore the music I listened to.
I told her that I could have worn cheaper clothes. I didn't need every band tee known to man. But she said I was her son so was going to have to best of the best.
But I wish I would have told her that I didn't need any of it as long as she was happy.As long as she would stop bringing them home to beat me.But I knew that it would hurt her to know I was unhappy until that day. That went to far.
*Flashback*
He hit me again and again. It hurt but I knew not to cry.
"You know what you worthless piece of shit..emo fags like you should die" He yelled at me."No wonder your dad didn't want you" then I felt they stinging on my wrist and looked down to see the blood then he left.
Later that day asked my mom why she would let him say that. The fact that she didnt respond pissed me off.
"Why did he leave" I asked.
"Mason your so young you wouldnt understand" she said
"Mom,I know I'm only nine but I promise I'll understand" she knew that that was true. Id always been really smart for my age. Getting 12th grade to college score on the test the doctors gave us to make sure we werent behind.
"Ok, I told him to leave but when he found out I was pregnant he wouldn't... So umm" I could she tears in her eyes "I moved away with grandma and grandpa and i .... I told your dad Id miscarried and didnt want to be with.. that it would cause me to much pain"
"NO, your the reason he doesnt know me your the reason i hurt myself because i thought it was my fault.... " By now i had tears running down me face "I HATE YOU SO MUCH ... YOUR THE WORST MOM EVER" I ran to my room and shut the door and found my
*End of flashback*
I hated my self for yelling at her so I went out to say sorry but she was gone and so were the keys to the car. Maybe she went somewhere and she'd be back soon. I waited but she never came back so i called my aunt and then the police. Two week later they found her body in the river and found someone who sa id the seen her jump of the bridge just the day before. My aunt got cancer soon after and sent me to the orphanage so id be taken care of. Then next day I skipped break fast and all my classes and waited for 2 o'clock to come.
I wonder what the secret is?
3/30/14