Give Me A Sign, I Want To Believe
Kissing in Trees
New Years came and it was a blast. We all stayed up and celebrated 2013 as a BVB family. We played New Years day at midnight which was really funny. Ally had a blast. We got drunk, even Allyson. Her mom had started Ally off with wine and some beer at 16 this way she didn’t go crazy at 21. We had one hell of a night. Today is Ally’s birthday and the release of our album. We’re on tour right now so everyone’s hung over from Jinxx’s party last night.
I woke up to everyone groaning and yelling “CC! not now!” I rolled my eyes and got out of my bunk. Yet again, CC was naked running away from the guys. He had a monster in his hands which is never good. I threw a shirt at him and yelled at him to put clothes on. He finally put clothes on and we all went back to bed. Ally was sleeping off her hangover. She was in my bunk since we had to share. It was noon and we had sound check at 2, an interview at 4, a meet and greet at 6:30 and the show at 8.
“Allyson, wake up.” She rolled over and stuck her head under the pillow. I chuckled and pulled her out of the bunk. She nuzzled her head into the crook of my neck while I sat down on the couch with her still in my arms. I stroked her hair while she slowly woke up. Sammi came out and awed. I rolled my eyes as Sammi sat next to me.
“Awww. Look at you two being all lovey.” Ally groaned and flipped Sammi off. I laughed.
“We’re not being coupley or whatever the fuck you said. I’m extrememly tired and hung over. Jake pulled me out of bed and brought me over here against my will.”
“Hey, you never objected to anything. You’re the one who cuddled my neck.”
“Ahhhhh fuck off.”
“You guys act like a couple. She even quoted you.” Sammi laughed.
“How?”
“I said that one time while playing a song and uploading it to my YouTube channel.”
“Why’d you even wake me up? It’s not like I have sound check. I’m just your make up assistant.”
“This way you don’t wake up and we’re gone.”
“By the way Happy Birthday.” I whispered into her ear. She smiled. She mouthed Thank you.
“Why don’t you guys just get together already? Like geez, we all know you guys like each other and she’s finally legal. God. Just ask her and make everyone happy.” Sammi complained. I rolled my eyes. Ally flipped Sammi off and buried her head in my chest.
“For the last fucking time Sammi, I’ve known her for a week and we’re just friends. Can you not accept that?” I rolled my eyes at Sammi and her attempt to persuade me to go out with Ally.
“No. No I cannot.” Just then Ashley came out.
“Morning everybody. Hey Ally.” Ally waved and then Ash went back to the bunks with a water bottle and some advil.
Just then all the guys came out with a balloon that said Happy Birthday.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLYSON!” She smiled and said thanks. We all got her gifts. CC and Ashley got her a BVB pillow with our shadows on it. Andy and Jinxx got her new shoes and a MCR backpack. I got her a gold guitar pick necklace with two music notes together that looked like a heart. The girls all chipped in and got Ally a dress and jeans.
“You guys are awesome. I love you all.” Ally beamed. She hugged everyone and hugged me last. For some reason, she hugged the longest. Everyone left the bus to check out the venue, while I stayed on the bus with Ally.
“Why’d you bury your head when Sammi said we should get together?” I smirked, trying to mess with her. I honestly wanted to know, I just didn’t want to show it.
“No reason.” She mumbled.
“There’s gotta be a reason silly.” She buried her head deeper into my chest. I just laughed and rubbed her back.
“I hate you.” She muffled out.
“No you don’t. You’re just saying that because you don’t want to admit why you buried your head.”
“Ugh. Your such a smartass. How’d you get to be like that?”
“My sister.” I laughed.
“Want to go for a walk before sound check?”
“Sure.” We were still dressed from yesterday, so we didn’t have to change until before the interview. I grabbed my leather jacket and headed out. Ally just had a sweater on.
We headed out of the bus and started walking. We walked for an hour hand in hand, unknowingly.
“So tell me the real reason why you buried your head. I won’t say anything or freak out. Promise.” Ally looked at me and looked at the floor. We stopped by a tall tree.
“Climb with me and I’ll tell you.” We climbed the tree and sat on a branch. Ally sighed and looked up at the sky.
“The real reason I buried my head was because I was blushing. I didn’t want you to see or find out.”
“Why not? Do you really like me?” Ally looked to the sky and sighed. She nodded slowly.
“I feel the same way. The day I found you was the best thing ever. I wasn’t heartbroken anymore. I felt like you deserved better. The morning you woke up to get ready for the studio I started getting feelings for you. You’re different. You’ve struggled and made it. I really enjoy your company. I love how we just naturally hold hands when we don’t realize it. I love knowing that I make you feel safe. Your mom trusts me and likes me and I’ve met her once. And that’s amazing. Allyson I love you and I really don’t see any girl in my future. I know Ella’s going to pop up now and then but, she won’t get the same love from me that I give you.” Ally started tearing up.
“Jake, the night you found me was incredible. I honestly thought I was unloved and should’ve died. You took me in. The first night I slept with you was the first night I didn’t get a nightmare. I was so confused to why I didn’t get a nightmare. I get this weird feeling when I’m around you. It started the when you sang Saviour to me. No one, not even my mom, ever did that to help me when I woke up from a nightmare. You saved me Jake. You’re my Saviour. I keep thanking you because you’ve been doing everything I’ve hoped for. It gets hard when your mom is the only caring person in your life. It’s the little things that you do that made me start liking you. Telling me I have so much to live for, being kind, offering to let me stay with you after a hard break up, letting me borrow your clothes so I would be warm, getting me a phone, just everything. Even down to you staying with me so I’m not alone and don’t get a panic attack. I know my mom told you about it and I’m okay with it. I didn’t even know about your band when you found me and you didn’t care. Its things like that, that show you care. That’s what sticks out to me.” Ally had tears rolling down her cheeks. I wiped them away with my thumb.
I had no idea she felt that way. I didn’t realize that little things stuck out to her. I didn’t know any of that. Wow… I’m speechless.
I looked at Allyson as she looked to the sky and let the tears fall. I moved her face towards mine. I cupped her cheek and kissed her. She didn’t hesitate at all. We pulled away and she was smiling. Her tear stained cheeks glistened in the light.
“Allyson Moore, I know we’ve only known each other a short time, but we’ve poured our hearts out to each other. Would you like to… to go out with me?” I looked down at the ground.
“Jake, I’d love too.” I smiled and grabbed her hand. I looked at the time and saw it was 2. We climbed down the tree and I gave her a piggy back ride to the venue.
“JAKE STAHP!” Ally kept giggling. I ran to the stage and put her down.
“Ass.” She punched my arm and I laughed. I ruffled her hair and tuned my guitar. The guys looked at us funny but I paid no attention to them. I practiced some of the songs we we’re going to play and then Ally jumped on my back after I put my guitar away.
“ALLY!” I yelled as we fell to the floor. I tickled her and she started giggling like crazy.
“Jake stop! I- I can’t! Breathe!” I laughed and picked her up. Jon said that the interview was for Andy and who ever wanted to go. It was a Bryan stars interview. Jinxx and I did one. He’s a cool, funny guy. CC volunteered to go so we let him. It was now 3:30. We all went to get ready. I gave Ally a mix of my old and new war paint. So she had the lines under her left eye and the eyeliner, but she also had stitches on her arms. I was the first person done so I sat down and waited for the guys to finish. Ally said she had to go to the bathroom so I let her go. I was on twitter when Andy spoke up.
“Not to be rude or anything but, what’s up with you? You left with Allyson and then you guys come back laughing and happy. And it’s been a while since you’ve been that happy. I’m glad you’re happy. And what happened with you and Ella?” Well, I guess I have to tell them now.
“ermm. Ella and I sorta broke up.”
“What do you mean?” CC questioned.
“She got a job offering at a modeling agency that she’s really wanted to get accepted to. She finally did but she has to permanently live in the UK to get the job. I didn’t want to hold her back or make her feel unhappy because she can’t live here anymore, so I let her go. I didn’t want her to feel bad and lose an amazing opportunity because of me.” Jinxx nodded while the rest of the band looked at me shocked.
“When was this?” Ashley finally asked.
“about four weeks ago. It was two weeks before I brought Allyson to the studio. So yeah, four weeks.”
“Why didn’t you say anything before?” I was starting to get uneasy, thinking about the subject. It was bad enough losing her, but I have Allyson and I don’t want to fuck that up because of second thoughts.
“Can we just drop it? It’s not that important anymore. I broke up with Ella. No more, no less.” I said irritated. Luckily, Ally came into the room so they all shut up.
“Are you okay? You seem on edge?” Ally whispered into my ear as she sat next to me.
“Fine. Just a little uncomfortable about talking about certain things.” Ally nodded as she helped the boys finish up their paint.
“ANDY, CC TIME FOR YOU TO GO!” Muscles, our security guard, yelled. Andy and CC left, leaving Ash, Jinxx, Ally and I. The girls were on the bus getting ready. I held Ally’s hand while she rested her head on my shoulder. The guys couldn't see so I was okay. I got up and decided to take a quick walk to the bus to grab a bottle of whiskey. I brought Ally with me since i didn't want to leave her with Ashley, even though Jinxx was there. We walked hand in hand while we entered the bus. This was normal behavior for us so the girls really didn't notice. Except for Sammi. Sammi notices everything. Ally was on the couch with Lauren while I went to my bunk to put some wristbands away. Sammi dragged me into the back room.
“how long have you guys been a thing?”
“When we left to go for a walk.”
“I knew it.”
“Keep this between us. I already had to tell the guys about Ella.”
“you do realize, one of them will find out. And what are you going to tell the fans about you and Allyson? Jella is over and you have just created Jallyson.”
“Are you serious about those names?”
“Yeah. That’s what the fans called you and Ella. Jella.”
“Oh god. Well the fans are going to have to live with the fact that I gave up my love so she could follow her dream. Like I say, “Follow your heart and chase your dreams until you catch them. Negative people who say you can’t are only speaking for themselves.”
“There’s the Jake I know.” Sammi laughed and we walked back out to the living room. I picked Ally up and threw her over my shoulder.
“JAKE!! I can walk y’ know. I’m not disabled.”
“But where’s the fun in carrying my girlfriend?” I laughed back as I put her down. I looked around and spotted a tree.
“Follow me.” I ran to the tree and rushed up it. I helped Ally up and I smiled.
“Why are we in a tree?”
“So I can do this.” I kissed her slow and passionately.
“Why didn’t we do it on the ground?” Ally smiled as we pulled away. I could get used to this.
“Trees are cooler and mysterious. And plus I like this whole tree idea. It’s relaxing.” Ally laughed. This girl is amazing. I kissed her one last time before heading back to the venue with her. This day can’t get any better.
I woke up to everyone groaning and yelling “CC! not now!” I rolled my eyes and got out of my bunk. Yet again, CC was naked running away from the guys. He had a monster in his hands which is never good. I threw a shirt at him and yelled at him to put clothes on. He finally put clothes on and we all went back to bed. Ally was sleeping off her hangover. She was in my bunk since we had to share. It was noon and we had sound check at 2, an interview at 4, a meet and greet at 6:30 and the show at 8.
“Allyson, wake up.” She rolled over and stuck her head under the pillow. I chuckled and pulled her out of the bunk. She nuzzled her head into the crook of my neck while I sat down on the couch with her still in my arms. I stroked her hair while she slowly woke up. Sammi came out and awed. I rolled my eyes as Sammi sat next to me.
“Awww. Look at you two being all lovey.” Ally groaned and flipped Sammi off. I laughed.
“We’re not being coupley or whatever the fuck you said. I’m extrememly tired and hung over. Jake pulled me out of bed and brought me over here against my will.”
“Hey, you never objected to anything. You’re the one who cuddled my neck.”
“Ahhhhh fuck off.”
“You guys act like a couple. She even quoted you.” Sammi laughed.
“How?”
“I said that one time while playing a song and uploading it to my YouTube channel.”
“Why’d you even wake me up? It’s not like I have sound check. I’m just your make up assistant.”
“This way you don’t wake up and we’re gone.”
“By the way Happy Birthday.” I whispered into her ear. She smiled. She mouthed Thank you.
“Why don’t you guys just get together already? Like geez, we all know you guys like each other and she’s finally legal. God. Just ask her and make everyone happy.” Sammi complained. I rolled my eyes. Ally flipped Sammi off and buried her head in my chest.
“For the last fucking time Sammi, I’ve known her for a week and we’re just friends. Can you not accept that?” I rolled my eyes at Sammi and her attempt to persuade me to go out with Ally.
“No. No I cannot.” Just then Ashley came out.
“Morning everybody. Hey Ally.” Ally waved and then Ash went back to the bunks with a water bottle and some advil.
Just then all the guys came out with a balloon that said Happy Birthday.
“HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLYSON!” She smiled and said thanks. We all got her gifts. CC and Ashley got her a BVB pillow with our shadows on it. Andy and Jinxx got her new shoes and a MCR backpack. I got her a gold guitar pick necklace with two music notes together that looked like a heart. The girls all chipped in and got Ally a dress and jeans.
“You guys are awesome. I love you all.” Ally beamed. She hugged everyone and hugged me last. For some reason, she hugged the longest. Everyone left the bus to check out the venue, while I stayed on the bus with Ally.
“Why’d you bury your head when Sammi said we should get together?” I smirked, trying to mess with her. I honestly wanted to know, I just didn’t want to show it.
“No reason.” She mumbled.
“There’s gotta be a reason silly.” She buried her head deeper into my chest. I just laughed and rubbed her back.
“I hate you.” She muffled out.
“No you don’t. You’re just saying that because you don’t want to admit why you buried your head.”
“Ugh. Your such a smartass. How’d you get to be like that?”
“My sister.” I laughed.
“Want to go for a walk before sound check?”
“Sure.” We were still dressed from yesterday, so we didn’t have to change until before the interview. I grabbed my leather jacket and headed out. Ally just had a sweater on.
We headed out of the bus and started walking. We walked for an hour hand in hand, unknowingly.
“So tell me the real reason why you buried your head. I won’t say anything or freak out. Promise.” Ally looked at me and looked at the floor. We stopped by a tall tree.
“Climb with me and I’ll tell you.” We climbed the tree and sat on a branch. Ally sighed and looked up at the sky.
“The real reason I buried my head was because I was blushing. I didn’t want you to see or find out.”
“Why not? Do you really like me?” Ally looked to the sky and sighed. She nodded slowly.
“I feel the same way. The day I found you was the best thing ever. I wasn’t heartbroken anymore. I felt like you deserved better. The morning you woke up to get ready for the studio I started getting feelings for you. You’re different. You’ve struggled and made it. I really enjoy your company. I love how we just naturally hold hands when we don’t realize it. I love knowing that I make you feel safe. Your mom trusts me and likes me and I’ve met her once. And that’s amazing. Allyson I love you and I really don’t see any girl in my future. I know Ella’s going to pop up now and then but, she won’t get the same love from me that I give you.” Ally started tearing up.
“Jake, the night you found me was incredible. I honestly thought I was unloved and should’ve died. You took me in. The first night I slept with you was the first night I didn’t get a nightmare. I was so confused to why I didn’t get a nightmare. I get this weird feeling when I’m around you. It started the when you sang Saviour to me. No one, not even my mom, ever did that to help me when I woke up from a nightmare. You saved me Jake. You’re my Saviour. I keep thanking you because you’ve been doing everything I’ve hoped for. It gets hard when your mom is the only caring person in your life. It’s the little things that you do that made me start liking you. Telling me I have so much to live for, being kind, offering to let me stay with you after a hard break up, letting me borrow your clothes so I would be warm, getting me a phone, just everything. Even down to you staying with me so I’m not alone and don’t get a panic attack. I know my mom told you about it and I’m okay with it. I didn’t even know about your band when you found me and you didn’t care. Its things like that, that show you care. That’s what sticks out to me.” Ally had tears rolling down her cheeks. I wiped them away with my thumb.
I had no idea she felt that way. I didn’t realize that little things stuck out to her. I didn’t know any of that. Wow… I’m speechless.
I looked at Allyson as she looked to the sky and let the tears fall. I moved her face towards mine. I cupped her cheek and kissed her. She didn’t hesitate at all. We pulled away and she was smiling. Her tear stained cheeks glistened in the light.
“Allyson Moore, I know we’ve only known each other a short time, but we’ve poured our hearts out to each other. Would you like to… to go out with me?” I looked down at the ground.
“Jake, I’d love too.” I smiled and grabbed her hand. I looked at the time and saw it was 2. We climbed down the tree and I gave her a piggy back ride to the venue.
“JAKE STAHP!” Ally kept giggling. I ran to the stage and put her down.
“Ass.” She punched my arm and I laughed. I ruffled her hair and tuned my guitar. The guys looked at us funny but I paid no attention to them. I practiced some of the songs we we’re going to play and then Ally jumped on my back after I put my guitar away.
“ALLY!” I yelled as we fell to the floor. I tickled her and she started giggling like crazy.
“Jake stop! I- I can’t! Breathe!” I laughed and picked her up. Jon said that the interview was for Andy and who ever wanted to go. It was a Bryan stars interview. Jinxx and I did one. He’s a cool, funny guy. CC volunteered to go so we let him. It was now 3:30. We all went to get ready. I gave Ally a mix of my old and new war paint. So she had the lines under her left eye and the eyeliner, but she also had stitches on her arms. I was the first person done so I sat down and waited for the guys to finish. Ally said she had to go to the bathroom so I let her go. I was on twitter when Andy spoke up.
“Not to be rude or anything but, what’s up with you? You left with Allyson and then you guys come back laughing and happy. And it’s been a while since you’ve been that happy. I’m glad you’re happy. And what happened with you and Ella?” Well, I guess I have to tell them now.
“ermm. Ella and I sorta broke up.”
“What do you mean?” CC questioned.
“She got a job offering at a modeling agency that she’s really wanted to get accepted to. She finally did but she has to permanently live in the UK to get the job. I didn’t want to hold her back or make her feel unhappy because she can’t live here anymore, so I let her go. I didn’t want her to feel bad and lose an amazing opportunity because of me.” Jinxx nodded while the rest of the band looked at me shocked.
“When was this?” Ashley finally asked.
“about four weeks ago. It was two weeks before I brought Allyson to the studio. So yeah, four weeks.”
“Why didn’t you say anything before?” I was starting to get uneasy, thinking about the subject. It was bad enough losing her, but I have Allyson and I don’t want to fuck that up because of second thoughts.
“Can we just drop it? It’s not that important anymore. I broke up with Ella. No more, no less.” I said irritated. Luckily, Ally came into the room so they all shut up.
“Are you okay? You seem on edge?” Ally whispered into my ear as she sat next to me.
“Fine. Just a little uncomfortable about talking about certain things.” Ally nodded as she helped the boys finish up their paint.
“ANDY, CC TIME FOR YOU TO GO!” Muscles, our security guard, yelled. Andy and CC left, leaving Ash, Jinxx, Ally and I. The girls were on the bus getting ready. I held Ally’s hand while she rested her head on my shoulder. The guys couldn't see so I was okay. I got up and decided to take a quick walk to the bus to grab a bottle of whiskey. I brought Ally with me since i didn't want to leave her with Ashley, even though Jinxx was there. We walked hand in hand while we entered the bus. This was normal behavior for us so the girls really didn't notice. Except for Sammi. Sammi notices everything. Ally was on the couch with Lauren while I went to my bunk to put some wristbands away. Sammi dragged me into the back room.
“how long have you guys been a thing?”
“When we left to go for a walk.”
“I knew it.”
“Keep this between us. I already had to tell the guys about Ella.”
“you do realize, one of them will find out. And what are you going to tell the fans about you and Allyson? Jella is over and you have just created Jallyson.”
“Are you serious about those names?”
“Yeah. That’s what the fans called you and Ella. Jella.”
“Oh god. Well the fans are going to have to live with the fact that I gave up my love so she could follow her dream. Like I say, “Follow your heart and chase your dreams until you catch them. Negative people who say you can’t are only speaking for themselves.”
“There’s the Jake I know.” Sammi laughed and we walked back out to the living room. I picked Ally up and threw her over my shoulder.
“JAKE!! I can walk y’ know. I’m not disabled.”
“But where’s the fun in carrying my girlfriend?” I laughed back as I put her down. I looked around and spotted a tree.
“Follow me.” I ran to the tree and rushed up it. I helped Ally up and I smiled.
“Why are we in a tree?”
“So I can do this.” I kissed her slow and passionately.
“Why didn’t we do it on the ground?” Ally smiled as we pulled away. I could get used to this.
“Trees are cooler and mysterious. And plus I like this whole tree idea. It’s relaxing.” Ally laughed. This girl is amazing. I kissed her one last time before heading back to the venue with her. This day can’t get any better.
Notes
Sorry for the small wait. I got super busy with plans. Some guy asked me out Wednesday and I said no for the following reasons:A) I don't know anything about him other than his name, he owns a dog, and he's a freshman.
B) I've only talked to him once and it was weird.
C) He's a total creep. Like everyone i know, has met him and said he knows where people live and he's annoying.
I'm sorry but i hardly know him and i don't even like him as a person. When i first talked to him, he just irritated me so much. i know it's not right to judge someone right away, trust me he'll annoy you.
My little rant is over now. Sorry i had to just throw my life in there like that. I just needed to get it out there. Well here's the update and i hope you all like it. :)
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11/7/13