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Give Me A Sign, I Want To Believe

Flash of the Past

I woke up the next morning to the smell of pancakes, bacon and eggs. I noticed Allyson was gone so I went to the kitchen. Andy and Juliet were leaving as I came down so I said morning and Happy Birthday to Andy.

“She makes the best fucking food ever. She can make batman pancakes fly and taste like alcohol. She’s a fucking keeper.” Andy yelled as he walked away.

“He’s weird and Ally can really cook. She’s a keeper. I’ll see you tonight at the club. Bring Ally.” Juliet said as I hugged her good bye. I said okay and walked over to Ally.

“Good morning.”

“Hey. Hungry?” Ally turned and looked slightly up at me.

“Yeah. Need any help?”

“No. I’m good. Want an alcohol pancake, plain pancake, or chocolate chip pancake?”

“I’ll take three plain please. Along with bacon and eggs.” Ally made my plate and handed it to me. I sat down at the counter next to CC who was currently scarfing down a stack of flap jacks.

“Someone’s hungry.”

“IT’S SOOOOOO GOOOD!” CC yelled in between bites.” I laughed and ate my food. It really was good. In fact, it was amazing. I finished my food and put my plate and fork in the sink.

“Ally you’re really good at cooking.”

“Thanks. I used to cook with my mom a lot when I was little.”

Sammi, Lauren, Jinxx and Ashley all appeared from the living room. Ashley being the only tired looking one.

“Jinxx and I are gonna head home and wash up. Thanks again for the breakfast Ally. Morning Jake.” Sammi said.

“Morning. See you tonight?”

“Yup. Jake?” Sammi said.

“What?”

“I think she’s the one.” Sammi whispered before she left.

Ashley sat down at the counter and Lauren stood with me. Ally was finishing off the batter and cleaning up.

“He’s still eating?”
“I just woke up. I thought he just started.”

“No. But Ashley just woke up. Well I woke him up. I don’t think he’s super stoked about that.”

“He never is.” Ashley and Ally were talking and eating while Lauren and I went back into the living room. It was surprisingly clean.

“Who cleaned?”

“Ally, Sammi and I. We did it while the boys were sleeping.”

“Thanks.” I smiled and sat down on the couch and started to think.

*FLASHBACK*

I was watching a movie with Ella when she got a call. She went off to answer it. About 10 minutes later she came back looking upset.

“Who was that?”

“That modeling Agency I used to talk about. The one that I applied to but didn’t get accepted. They want to hire me. But they said I have to permanently live in the UK. Babe, what do I do?”

“Follow your heart. I know you’ve always wanted to work there. If it means living there then do it. I want you to be happy. If you accept when do you have to leave?”

“Tomorrow morning. Jake, I don’t want to leave you and have a difficult long distance relationship. I don’t want to put you through the full experience.”

“I love you Ella. I can handle it.” I said.

“Jake, you can’t trust me. I love you just as much but I don’t want to hurt you. I’m going to stay.”

“Ella Isobel Cole, you are going to take that job. I don’t want to hold you back. This is a once in a lifetime shot. Take it. I want you to be happy. And if that means you have to live in the UK then do it.”

“Jake…” Ella trailed off. I knew this hurt her but it hurt me more. And what was about to come next would shatter my heart and soul.

“Ella, I don’t want to hold you back. I want you to take this job. I want you to be happy. I love you so much and you know that. I can’t believe I’m going to say this but Ella, I’m… breaking up with you.” That right there killed my soul. My heart was shattered.

“Jake, please don’t do this.”

“Ella. I’m sorry. Call the agency and tell them you accept.”

“Are you sure? Jake I don’t have to take it.” Tears were slowly spilling from her eyes.

“Take it. Trust me, you’ll love it.” Ella slowly nodded and told the agency she’d accept the offer. I went to bed and Ella came with me. This would be the last night I would ever sleep with the girl I said I was going to marry. I was going to propose to her on Christmas.

We woke up the next morning and Ella packed up. We entered the car and intertwined our hands until we reached security. Ella turned to fully faced me and tears were falling from her face.

“Ella, my mom always said if you love something set it free.”

“And if it loves you, it will come back to you.” Ella chocked out. We looked into each other’s eyes and then had one lasting passionate kiss.

“FLIGHT 47A INTERNATIONAL AIRWAYS TO UK NOW BOARDING.”

“That’s my flight.” I wiped Ella’s tears and gave her one last kiss goodbye. I watched her leave until she was gone. I walked back to my car and drove home. All I could feel was emptiness inside me. Tears fell from my eyes when I opened the door to my house. My phone started ringing so I stopped crying and answered. It was Sammi.

“Hey Sam.” I cracked.

“Hey Jake wh- are you okay?”

“I’m fine. What’s up?”

“I was just going to say I’m down the street so we could look at the rings.”

“I don’t need them anymore.”

“I’m pulling up now. We’re talking when I get inside.” Sammi hung up and less than a minute later she pulled up.

“Explain.” Sammi said sternly. I told her the whole conversation and dropping Ella off this morning.

“I’m so sorry Jake. I promise I won’t tell a single soul. You are strong for letting her go. I would’ve liked to see mini Jake’s or mini Ella’s running around but who knows maybe you’ll find someone else who was meant for you.”

“But Ella was for me.”

“Honey, love is hard. It puts you to the test. I know you feel like Ella was for you. I felt like that with a guy I was with before Jinxx. But look at me now, I’m married to Jinxx. I’m sure someone else will love you. She’ll come around soon.” I sighed and put my head in my hands. Sammi rubbed my back and kissed my head.

“Jake it’s okay. I can order Chinese or something and we can watch stupid cartoon movies from when we were kids if it makes you feel better. I told Jinxx I’d be home by four.”

“Sure. Thanks for making me feel better Sam. Chinese sounds good.” Sammi ordered the food and we watched Lion King while we waited. So basically I spent the whole day with my friend watching stupid kid movies. Soon 4 rolled around and Sammi left.

“Thanks again for everything Sam.”

“No problem. Remember I’m here if you need me.” I waved bye and went to bed. I sighed, the room still smelled like Ella’s perfume. I plopped onto the bed and fell asleep.

*END FLASHBACK*

“Jake, are you okay?” Ally shook me out of my thoughts.

“Huh? What?” I looked around and noticed everyone was gone.

“I asked if you were okay.”

“Physically yes. Mentally, no. I’m a mess.”

“It’s okay. I know you’re still getting over Ella. It’s hard. I was like that when my first boyfriend broke up with me.” Ally rubbed my back.

“I probably don’t say this enough but thank you. Thank you for breakfast and thank you for helping me get over this.”

“It’s the least I can do. I’ve been through it and you’ve done so much for me.”

“What time is it?”

“ one thirty.” Damn. How long was I thinking for?

“I’m gonna call Andy and tell him I can’t make it out to the club tonight for his birthday. I’m honestly not feeling it and I don’t want some old drunk trying to feel you up.”

“Umm. Okay.” I got up and called Andy. I told him I wasn’t feeling so hot and I didn’t want Ally to be alone or get felt up by some stranger. He said to get better and that he was cool with it. He agreed that Allyson didn’t need that happening to her.

“So, do you wanna watch movies for the rest of the day? I can make some popcorn. Or we can actually go out and do something.”

“Can we go for a walk to a park? That usually really helps me relax. I used to walk all the time with my mom.”

“That sounds like a nice idea.” I got up and changed. Allyson did the same.
(their outfits : http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=93073721 )

“Ready?” I ask grabbing my keys and wallet out of the wallet bowl Andy forced me to buy. -.- (a/n: I had to. I was allowed to watch the episode and I’m writing a story about Jake. It was bound to happen.)

“Yup. Let’s go.” Ally smiled and I, unknowingly, grabbed her hand and started walking down the road. It was vacation so I knew the parks were empty. Ally and I walked in a comfortable silence.

“My dad used to take me to this park when I was five. He used to give me an underdog and then he’d swing next to me.” A stray tear fell from her face. I wiped it away with my thumb. I pulled out my phone and played the instrumental version of Miles Away by Memphis May Fire. I sang the words.

“I pack my bags and say goodbye to my wife for what seems like the millionth time.They said it gets easier, but they lied. She looks at me and says "Really baby, I will be just fine."But then she looks away so I don't have to see her cry. And that is when I ask myself,” Ally joined me on the chorus.“How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be? When I feel so alone, cause I left my heart at home. She needs me, but I know they need me too. So god give me the strength to do, what you created me to do.”

“Well, really I'm so thankful for the people I meet, the places I've been and the things I've seen (the things I've seen). But when she's not here it doesn't feel like I'm living my dreams. I know they say, that no one is perfect, but I swear she's perfect for me. And that makes it so much harder to leave.”

“How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be? When I feel so alone, cause I left my heart at home. She needs me, but I know they need me too. So god give me the strength to do, what you created me to do.” Allyson sang Kellin’s part.


“If you miss me, I'm just a phone call away. Please be strong, be strong for me. I need you to show me, how to the change the inside of me For my heart, for their sake, please be strong, be strong for me.

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be?
When I feel so alone, so alone.

How am I supposed to be everything they expect me to be? When I feel so alone, cause I left my heart at home. She needs me, but I know they need me too. So god give me the strength to do, what you created me to do.” Allyson smiled and hugged me.

“How’d you know I love that song?” Ally looked up.

“I didn’t. I just really like that song. I used to listen to it when Ella was away.”
“That song is amazing. It’s the only song I know by Memphis May Fire. A girl was singing it in Hot Topic so I asked her who sang that and she told me. I was planning to get their lyrics tattooed on my wrist.”

“I’ll take you.” I smiled.

“Really?” Her eyes lit up.

“Yeah.” She smiled and hugged me tighter. I pecked her head.

I hope Sammi was right. This girl is amazing and I’ve only known her for a week.

Notes

Here's the update!! Thanks for reading guys. I love writing this story. It's amazing.

~Wolf Tiger <3

Comments

@Bree Barham
thanks. No problem lovely. it was well earned and i love you too <3 :)
I loved it <3 thanks so much for the note at the end and i love you :)
Bree Barham Bree Barham
11/6/13
@Pebba Clown!ac
Thanks :)
he'd crouch i guess i dunno. i didn't think about that
Really good story! Just wondering. How is it possible for andy to hide behing jinxx? Because he's giraffe
Done Done
11/5/13
@Bree Barham
everynight with me