Give Me A Sign, I Want To Believe
You aren't alone just know that I can't save our hearts tonight
Allyson’s Point of View
“JAKE!” I screamed as the ceiling fell over Jake. Trixy had jumped out of my arms and rushed to Jake’s side. I sat there frozen. I couldn’t move. I started shaking under the door frame as I fell to my knees. Tears were pouring down my cheeks. The earthquake had subsided and I was just sitting on the floor staring at where Jake’s body was. I was hoping he was still alive.
“please be alive. Jake please. I love you.” I whispered. My phone started vibrating and I shakily answered it.
“hello?” my voice was barely an audible whisper.
“Allyson, are you and Jake okay? It’s Ashley. I’m fine. But Jake’s not answering his phone. Please tell me you’re both okay.” I cried even harder.
“i-i. Jake.. he’s.. Ashley I think Jake is dead.” I bit my trembling lip. Trixy hadn’t returned and I was scared.
There was a long heavy silence.
“I’m walking over there now. Stay where you are.” With that the line went dead and I looked over and saw Trixy trying to dig her way to Jake, I presumed.
“Trixy, I don’t think he’s here anymore.” Trixy whimpered and stuck her nose under the rubble. I could faintly here the sounds of sirens. I looked down and curled up into a ball
I finally had a chance at love and now he’s gone. My love was gone. If only I had run to Jake, I wouldn’t be alone. Why didn’t I just stay in the drum room a bit longer? These thoughts swirled through my mind. I kept crying as I thought about Jake not ever coming home. Why didn’t I tell him to stay where he was? This is my fault.
I had cried for a good hour before I couldn’t cry anymore and my throat was in pain.
“Allyson? Are you there?” The familiar voice filled the air. I sat up and looked over to see Ashley standing in the door way. He saw me and jumped over rubble to get to me.
“Do you know where Jake is? Maybe we can try to get him out.” I nodded and walked to where Trixy was. That was when I saw jet black hair and blood. I looked away. He’s gone for good.
Ashley looked at me and rubbed my back before he walked over to the ceiling covering Jake. He slightly moved the broken ceiling only to reveal Jake’s face covered by his hair and a small stream of blood trailing down his face.
“Ashley, he’s gone. There’s no way he could’ve survived.” I said, thinking the worst possibility becoming a reality. Ash shook his head and dialed a number and started talking. I zoned out all the noise and closed my eyes, while falling to my knees. I opened them and looked at Jake’s face.
I pushed his hair out of his face and wiped up the crusted blood on his forehead.
“please don’t be gone.” I shut my eyes and kissed his forehead. I stood back up and leaned into Ash’s side. He pecked my head and looked me in the eye.
“Ally, don’t think like that. I called an ambulance and they should be here in a minute. Jake will make it.” Just then, I heard loud sirens and people yelling, ‘Over Here!’
A small group of firefighters and EMTs came over to Ash and I. We showed them Jake and they pulled the rubble off of him and rushed him to the, still intact, hospital. Ashley and I hopped into the ambulance with them.
Jake looked so peaceful. IV’s were being put into Jake and they told us he was alive, but barely. We arrived to the hospital and they rushed Jake into surgery. Ashley and I went to the waiting room where a nurse asked me questions about Jake and what had happened.
“Ashley, are they boys and their girls okay?”
“I called Andy and he said Juliet and he were fine. I couldn’t get a hold of Jinxx or Sammi. CC said Lauren got hurt but their okay. In fact they should be here. I’m just worried about Jinxx, Sammi and Jake.” I nodded and walked up to the nurses’ desk.
“Excuse me; is a Lauren Watson in this hospital?” The nurse tapped away on her keyboard and clicked a few things.
“Yes she is. She was just placed into a room not long ago. Only immediate family is allowed to see her though.”
“I’m her sister. And that’s her brother,” I pointed to Ashley, “ may I ask what room she’s in?”
“Room 513. And your boyfriend is still in surgery and should be out in about two hours. I hope you’re doing okay.”
“Thanks. I’m trying my best. I watched him get crushed. I’m going to be devastated if he doesn’t make it.”
“Honey don’t dwell on it too much. Here’s my number in case you want to talk. My shift ends at 5. It’s 2 now so I’ll come find you after work. My name’s Scarlette. I’ll text you if Jake gets out early. And I know that’s not Lauren’s brother and you’re not sisters. But I’ll let it slide.” She smiled as she handed me a slip of paper.
“Thanks. I’ll text you in a bit. Thanks for your help Scar.” I waved as I walked over to Ashley and told him Lauren’s room number and Scar.
“Want to see Lauren while Jake’s in surgery?” I nodded and we took the elevator to the 5th floor. We got to Lauren’s room and saw CC sitting next to Lauren.
“ASHLEY! ALLY! YOU’RE OKAY!” Lauren yelled. But then looked around like someone was missing.
“Where’s Jake?” She asked nervously. I stiffened. The ceiling collapse replayed in my mind while his name echoed through the memory.
I looked to Ashley for help. I couldn’t move, let alone talk. Ashley told Lauren what happened and she shot me a sympathetic look. CC came over and hugged me tightly.
“Ash, did you get a hold of Jinxx or Sammi?” CC asked whilst hugging me.
“No. Did you?”
“Jinxx answered but all I heard was yells and static.” I buried my head into CC’s chest.
He rubbed my back and carried me to the couch and sat us down.
“CC, do you think Sam and Jinxx are okay?”
“I hope so. It’ll be a few days before we find out how bad it really was.” I sighed and then my phone buzzed. It was an unknown number.
Hey Ally, it’s Scarlette. Jake’s still in surgery, but Jinxx is looking for you. P.S. I know about BVB and I won’t tell anyone that Jake and you are dating. ~Scar
Tell Jinxx to meet us in Lauren’s room. And thank you so much for not telling anyone. We’re keeping it under wraps until Warped. I’ll tell you the full story at 5. ~ Allyson 1.8.13 <3
No problem. He’s coming up now. Sammi is with him. They’re okay. ~ Scar
I put my phone away and told everyone that Jinxx and Sammi were okay and their coming up now. Just as I had finished up speaking, they walked in.
“Hey guys.” Jinxx croaked. God, he doesn’t sound too good.
“Are you okay Jinxx? You sound sick.”
“Dust in my lungs.”
“Oh. Are you okay Sammi?”
“I’m fine, just shaken up. How’s Jake?”
“Still in surgery.” Sammi nodded and sat down next to me. Jinxx sat on the arm rest and we talked until Andy and Juliet walked in. Now we were waiting on Jake. About 3 hours later Scar texted me saying Jake was put into a room an hour ago and is now able to take visitors. But, he was in a coma and he broke 3 ribs, his back, left leg, his right arm and his left wrist. And he cracked his skull open and has a major concussion and may not remember everything when he wakes up. And he flat lined once while they were closing his head. He was in room 521.
“At least he’s on the same floor and just a few doors down. Now we can go back and forth.” CC said trying to lighten up the mood. I shrugged and got up and left the room. Ashley followed me as I walked into Jake’s room. He was hooked up to tons of machines and he had casts on left and right.
“Ashley, what if he forgets who I am when he wakes up? There’s no way I can manage living if he forgets me. He’s the only other person in this world who really loved me.”
“He’ll remember you. If he really loved you then when he wakes up you should be the first thing he remembers. If he forgets the band but remembers you, I’ll be happy. I’d rather he remember the person who made him happy than us.” I looked at Ashley and slightly smiled. I walked over to Jake’s bed and held his hand. His hand was warm, but it was slowly losing its heat. The heart monitor was beeping at a normal pace.
My heart was shattered just seeing him in this state. Ashley had left to go see Lauren and everyone else. Scar came to check on me and said she’d be back in the morning for work and she’d come by to visit. I held Jake’s hand and fell asleep in the chair. I didn’t know what to do anymore.
“JAKE!” I screamed as the ceiling fell over Jake. Trixy had jumped out of my arms and rushed to Jake’s side. I sat there frozen. I couldn’t move. I started shaking under the door frame as I fell to my knees. Tears were pouring down my cheeks. The earthquake had subsided and I was just sitting on the floor staring at where Jake’s body was. I was hoping he was still alive.
“please be alive. Jake please. I love you.” I whispered. My phone started vibrating and I shakily answered it.
“hello?” my voice was barely an audible whisper.
“Allyson, are you and Jake okay? It’s Ashley. I’m fine. But Jake’s not answering his phone. Please tell me you’re both okay.” I cried even harder.
“i-i. Jake.. he’s.. Ashley I think Jake is dead.” I bit my trembling lip. Trixy hadn’t returned and I was scared.
There was a long heavy silence.
“I’m walking over there now. Stay where you are.” With that the line went dead and I looked over and saw Trixy trying to dig her way to Jake, I presumed.
“Trixy, I don’t think he’s here anymore.” Trixy whimpered and stuck her nose under the rubble. I could faintly here the sounds of sirens. I looked down and curled up into a ball
I finally had a chance at love and now he’s gone. My love was gone. If only I had run to Jake, I wouldn’t be alone. Why didn’t I just stay in the drum room a bit longer? These thoughts swirled through my mind. I kept crying as I thought about Jake not ever coming home. Why didn’t I tell him to stay where he was? This is my fault.
I had cried for a good hour before I couldn’t cry anymore and my throat was in pain.
“Allyson? Are you there?” The familiar voice filled the air. I sat up and looked over to see Ashley standing in the door way. He saw me and jumped over rubble to get to me.
“Do you know where Jake is? Maybe we can try to get him out.” I nodded and walked to where Trixy was. That was when I saw jet black hair and blood. I looked away. He’s gone for good.
Ashley looked at me and rubbed my back before he walked over to the ceiling covering Jake. He slightly moved the broken ceiling only to reveal Jake’s face covered by his hair and a small stream of blood trailing down his face.
“Ashley, he’s gone. There’s no way he could’ve survived.” I said, thinking the worst possibility becoming a reality. Ash shook his head and dialed a number and started talking. I zoned out all the noise and closed my eyes, while falling to my knees. I opened them and looked at Jake’s face.
I pushed his hair out of his face and wiped up the crusted blood on his forehead.
“please don’t be gone.” I shut my eyes and kissed his forehead. I stood back up and leaned into Ash’s side. He pecked my head and looked me in the eye.
“Ally, don’t think like that. I called an ambulance and they should be here in a minute. Jake will make it.” Just then, I heard loud sirens and people yelling, ‘Over Here!’
A small group of firefighters and EMTs came over to Ash and I. We showed them Jake and they pulled the rubble off of him and rushed him to the, still intact, hospital. Ashley and I hopped into the ambulance with them.
Jake looked so peaceful. IV’s were being put into Jake and they told us he was alive, but barely. We arrived to the hospital and they rushed Jake into surgery. Ashley and I went to the waiting room where a nurse asked me questions about Jake and what had happened.
“Ashley, are they boys and their girls okay?”
“I called Andy and he said Juliet and he were fine. I couldn’t get a hold of Jinxx or Sammi. CC said Lauren got hurt but their okay. In fact they should be here. I’m just worried about Jinxx, Sammi and Jake.” I nodded and walked up to the nurses’ desk.
“Excuse me; is a Lauren Watson in this hospital?” The nurse tapped away on her keyboard and clicked a few things.
“Yes she is. She was just placed into a room not long ago. Only immediate family is allowed to see her though.”
“I’m her sister. And that’s her brother,” I pointed to Ashley, “ may I ask what room she’s in?”
“Room 513. And your boyfriend is still in surgery and should be out in about two hours. I hope you’re doing okay.”
“Thanks. I’m trying my best. I watched him get crushed. I’m going to be devastated if he doesn’t make it.”
“Honey don’t dwell on it too much. Here’s my number in case you want to talk. My shift ends at 5. It’s 2 now so I’ll come find you after work. My name’s Scarlette. I’ll text you if Jake gets out early. And I know that’s not Lauren’s brother and you’re not sisters. But I’ll let it slide.” She smiled as she handed me a slip of paper.
“Thanks. I’ll text you in a bit. Thanks for your help Scar.” I waved as I walked over to Ashley and told him Lauren’s room number and Scar.
“Want to see Lauren while Jake’s in surgery?” I nodded and we took the elevator to the 5th floor. We got to Lauren’s room and saw CC sitting next to Lauren.
“ASHLEY! ALLY! YOU’RE OKAY!” Lauren yelled. But then looked around like someone was missing.
“Where’s Jake?” She asked nervously. I stiffened. The ceiling collapse replayed in my mind while his name echoed through the memory.
I looked to Ashley for help. I couldn’t move, let alone talk. Ashley told Lauren what happened and she shot me a sympathetic look. CC came over and hugged me tightly.
“Ash, did you get a hold of Jinxx or Sammi?” CC asked whilst hugging me.
“No. Did you?”
“Jinxx answered but all I heard was yells and static.” I buried my head into CC’s chest.
He rubbed my back and carried me to the couch and sat us down.
“CC, do you think Sam and Jinxx are okay?”
“I hope so. It’ll be a few days before we find out how bad it really was.” I sighed and then my phone buzzed. It was an unknown number.
Hey Ally, it’s Scarlette. Jake’s still in surgery, but Jinxx is looking for you. P.S. I know about BVB and I won’t tell anyone that Jake and you are dating. ~Scar
Tell Jinxx to meet us in Lauren’s room. And thank you so much for not telling anyone. We’re keeping it under wraps until Warped. I’ll tell you the full story at 5. ~ Allyson 1.8.13 <3
No problem. He’s coming up now. Sammi is with him. They’re okay. ~ Scar
I put my phone away and told everyone that Jinxx and Sammi were okay and their coming up now. Just as I had finished up speaking, they walked in.
“Hey guys.” Jinxx croaked. God, he doesn’t sound too good.
“Are you okay Jinxx? You sound sick.”
“Dust in my lungs.”
“Oh. Are you okay Sammi?”
“I’m fine, just shaken up. How’s Jake?”
“Still in surgery.” Sammi nodded and sat down next to me. Jinxx sat on the arm rest and we talked until Andy and Juliet walked in. Now we were waiting on Jake. About 3 hours later Scar texted me saying Jake was put into a room an hour ago and is now able to take visitors. But, he was in a coma and he broke 3 ribs, his back, left leg, his right arm and his left wrist. And he cracked his skull open and has a major concussion and may not remember everything when he wakes up. And he flat lined once while they were closing his head. He was in room 521.
“At least he’s on the same floor and just a few doors down. Now we can go back and forth.” CC said trying to lighten up the mood. I shrugged and got up and left the room. Ashley followed me as I walked into Jake’s room. He was hooked up to tons of machines and he had casts on left and right.
“Ashley, what if he forgets who I am when he wakes up? There’s no way I can manage living if he forgets me. He’s the only other person in this world who really loved me.”
“He’ll remember you. If he really loved you then when he wakes up you should be the first thing he remembers. If he forgets the band but remembers you, I’ll be happy. I’d rather he remember the person who made him happy than us.” I looked at Ashley and slightly smiled. I walked over to Jake’s bed and held his hand. His hand was warm, but it was slowly losing its heat. The heart monitor was beeping at a normal pace.
My heart was shattered just seeing him in this state. Ashley had left to go see Lauren and everyone else. Scar came to check on me and said she’d be back in the morning for work and she’d come by to visit. I held Jake’s hand and fell asleep in the chair. I didn’t know what to do anymore.
Notes
Hey guys, i am back with posting on a regular flow now. Thanks for all the support you guys gave me. Unlike my previous stories, i am NOT deleting my notices. i usually delete them bc they're not important. But with these two notes, i want to keep them and when i finish this story, i want to look back on it in a few months and see what i went through and how i came over it. In my first story Memories Forgotten, i had a long authors note one or two times about not posting due to personal issues. So i just wanted to let you all know that, for the past two notes i put up, will NOT be deleted.In other news, i'm a bit better than i was a few days ago. And just bc of what happened to Jake, this chapter and the upcoming chapters will be in Ally's POV. Love you all. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.
~Wolf Tiger <3
9.11.2013
thanks. No problem lovely. it was well earned and i love you too <3 :)
11/7/13