You're Not Alone (Andy Biersack Love Story) [REVISED]

"Miss, you've got to let go of the body," the paramedic told me.

I reluctantly let go of Skylar and let the paramedics take her on the ambulance. They drove away with the sirens blaring. I walked back onto the bus and sat myself down outside the bathroom. I stared at the pool of blood and went into some sort of trance.

"Mel? What are you- Oh my god...," Andy gasped from the front of the bus.

I didn't move or say anything. I felt numb, empty, dead.

"Mel, what happened? Why is there blood on the floor?" Andy asked, worry evident in his voice.

I tried to answer, but only choked noises came out of my mouth. Then finally everything hit me like an on-coming bus. I curled up into a little ball, not caring if I got blood on my clothes. I was probably drenched in blood already anyway.

Andy fell to his knees and took me into his arms. My face was pressed up against his bare chest and my tears were quickly ruining his war paint. I needed the comfort, but I couldn't bring myself to stay in his arms, so I gently pushed him away.

"Mel, what happened?" Andy repeated.

"Skylar sh-she sl-slit her wr-wrists a-and she d-died r-right in f-front of m-me. T-they t-took her t-to the hos-hospital, b-but sh-she's d-dead," I cried.

"Wh-what?"

"She's d-dead, the p-paramedics didn't s-say it, b-but I kn-know she's d-dead."

"Hey, have you guys seen Sky- why are you guys covered in blood?" Ashley asked.

I broke down in tears again. I couldn't tell him. He'd be so broken.

"Skylar was sent to the hospital," Andy said.

"Why?"

"She tried to commit suicide," Andy responded.

"Oh my God! Where's the hospital?" Ashley asked frantically.

"I'll drive. Get the guys. We're cancelling the show."

Ashley ran out of the bus in search of the guys and brought them back to the bus five minutes later, along with a very pissed off Jon.

"Why the hell are you cancelling the show? It's the last one, so why now?!" he yelled.

"Skylar's in the hospital. We need to see... if she's okay," I answered for Andy. I couldn't bear to tell Ashley that Skylar was dead, especially if there was a glimmer of a chance that she would survive.

"God... alright you guys go. I'll get everything here sorted out," he said and walked off the bus.

Andy took the drivers seat and drove everyone to the hospital in complete silence.

I should've been there for her. Why didn't I save her? I watched my best friend die, and I'm pregnant. How could everything go so wrong in one day? I thought.

We reached the hospital and we all ran to the front desk.

"Do you know what room a Skylar is in? She has black and blue hair? Not hard to miss," Ashley asked the old woman at the front desk.

She nodded slowly and said, "She's in room 216."

We all raced to Skylar's room without giving the woman a 'thank you.' We made it to room 216 and saw a doctor in there covering someone with a sheet.

Ashley barged into the room and screamed, "What the hell are you doing?!"

"I'm sorry sir, but the patient is deceased," the doctor told him.

"No, no, no, NO!" he yelled and ripped the sheet off the body to reveal Skylar.

Ashley cried. Andy gasped. CC put his head in his hands. Jinxx sniffled. Jake leaned against the wall and slowly slid down. I fell to the floor. I couldn't stand seeing my best friend dead in a hospital bed, so pale, so cold.

"Why?" Ashley sobbed.

"It seems that she had been abused in the past and that she possibly may have suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder. It also appears that she hasn't eaten properly in the last three weeks, she was dying before she committed suicide," the doctor said.

His words only made Ashley cry harder and me feel even more guilty. I should've known Skylar had an eating disorder. Every time Skylar ate it was a salad and she'd excuse herself to the bathroom afterwards.

"Do you know what you want to do with her body?" the doctor asked the group.

"I want her to be buried. It's what she deserves," I whispered.

"You'll need to sign a few forms, then we can release the body to you."

"Ash, do you have any specific spot you wanted to bury Skylar at?" I asked, numb.

"Somewhere near the beach. She'd like that," he mumbled.

"Princess, are you okay?" Andy asked me quietly.

"No. I'm not. My best friend is dead and I'm-," I stopped myself before telling him. I couldn't.

"Andy, I'm going to go back to the bus for a bit. I need to calm down," I said.

"Sure, we'll stay here with Ash."

I got up off the floor and dusted myself off. I wandered back to the bus, unsure of what to do. I couldn't stay here. Not now. Not with Skylar gone, Ashley broken and me pregnant.

I quickly packed up all of my stuff, leaving my toiletries in the bathroom. I couldn't go in there, Skylar's blood was still there.

I took a pad and pen and wrote a letter to Andy. I put the letter on his bed and gathered my suitcase and backpack. I got off the bus and looked back at it, trying to preserve this image in my head forever. After taking a moment, I turned around and headed to the nearest bus stop, not sure where I was going, but it didn't matter. In the end I always ran away from my problems.

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Andy's P.O.V.

Melanie hadn't come back and it had been over an hour. I couldn't help but be worried, she just went through a great loss, as did I. Skylar was becoming like a little sister to me, part of me felt dead now that she was gone. Knowing that was how I felt, I couldn't imagine what Melanie must be going through.

"I'm going to see if Melanie's alright," I said to the guys before walking out the door and making my way to the bus.

I got on and all of Melanie's things were gone. I searched the whole bus and I couldn't find her. I pulled back the curtains on my bunk, hoping she would be resting in there, but the only thing there was a letter. I picked it up and read every word carefully.

Andy,

I love you so, so much, but I can't stay here. Skylar's gone and Ashley's heartbroken. I don't want to be here to remind him of his loss. Skylar told me to tell Ashley to give his heart to someone when the time is right, but since I'm not there, I'm leaving the message for you to give him. I want the same for you. This may not make any sense right now, and honestly, I hope it never does. It's better for both of us that you don't know. I need you to move on from me and eventually forget me. Tell Ashley that I'll miss him and his perverted jokes. Tell Jake I'll miss the pizza nights where we all got so stuffed we couldn't move. Tell CC that I'll miss his hugs that always made my days better. Tell Jinxx that he's my best friend and that I'm sorry (he was right in saying that's all I ever seem to say). I'll always love you. You really are my Batman. Goodbye.

Love,

Melanie

I could feel my heart aching with every beat. Skylar's dead. Ashley's broken. Melanie's gone. How had everything gone so wrong? I didn't believe in God, but if I did, I'd be cursing at him for fucking up my life.

What am I going to do? Should I forget her? No, I couldn't, that would be impossible. All I can do is hope I'll find her again. Someday.

THE END

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