You're Not Alone (Andy Biersack Love Story) [REVISED]

I can't believe you did that to your hair!" I exclaimed as I ran my fingers through Andy's now short hair.

"It was getting gross," he said defensively, "and I still can't get over what you did with your hair." He twirled a strand of my bleach blonde hair with rainbow streaks.

"What, do you not like it?" I asked.

"No," he said bending over and giving me a kiss on the cheek, "I love it."

We got out of the rental car and stepped back onto the bus.

"Holy shit! What the hell did you guys do?" a dumb-founded Jake asked.

"We got our hair done," I replied nonchalantly.

"Dude, the fangirls are going to be so pissed," CC laughed.

"The real fans won't like me just for my hair," Andy said.

"Ashley! Skylar! Stop having sex for a minute and get your asses out here!" Jake called.

Ashley and Skylar stumbled out of their bunk, fully clothed.

"We weren't having sex! Jesus, I don't just love Ashley for his looks you know," Skylar said.

Ashley turned to Skylar and asked, "You love me?"

Skylar covered her face with her hair to hide her now growing blush.

"Yes, I love you."

Ashley brought her into a hug and whispered into her ear, "I love you too."

"Blegh!" CC pretended to vomit.

"You're just jealous that you're the only one without a girlfriend," Ashley said. CC only stuck out his tongue in response.

"Why did you want us out here again?" Skylar asked Jake. Jake pointed to Andy and me.

"Oh. My. God. Melanie, why didn't you tell me you got your hair done?"

"Andy kinda pressured me to do it," I said, "Anyway, we should all just get some sleep. There's a show tomorrow, remember?"

"Fine, but we are so talking about this tomorrow."

I walked over to my bunk and laid on the blankets. I heard the curtain of her bunk being pulled back, so I rolled over.

"Princess, I'm going to go return the rental, I'll be back in a little bit though," Andy whispered.

I nodded my head and rolled back over onto my side. I didn't think I'd be all that tired after being asleep for a couple hours, but I was. I fell asleep after a few minutes, wishing Andy was there to sing me to sleep.

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"Princess, it's time to wake up," Andy murmured in my ear, then kissed my temple.

"Five more minutes mom," I slurred senselessly.

"Do I really remind you of your mother?" Andy chuckled.

I blinked my eyes open to see Andy and I immediately mentally slapped myself, "Um, no, I was just talking nonsense."

"Come on Princess, we picked up some food from Panda Express."

"I'm not that hungry, but thanks," I said, pecking him on the lips.

"Princess, you only had that one meal at the hospital yesterday. You need to eat," Andy said a bit frustrated.

"Fine, I'll eat," I said grudgingly, getting out of my bunk. I walked up to the front of the bus where Panda Express littered the counter tops.

I took a container of lo-mien out of one of the plastic bags and grabbed a fork from a drawer. I sat down at the table with the rest of the guys. Andy sat down next to me and placed his hand on my thigh, giving me some comfort. I took a bite of the lo-mien and felt everyone staring at me.

"I know you're not staring at me because of my hair, so I'm guessing Skylar told you, huh?" I asked. I couldn't help but feel insecure with everyone's attention on me.

"Mel, why didn't you tell us?" Ashley asked her.

"She doesn't trust us remember?" Jinxx scowled as he got up from the table and went outside.

"I should go talk to him," I said more to myself than anyone else.

"Not until you finish your food," Andy said.

"Remember when I told you, you didn't remind me of my mother? I lied," I told him.

Andy grinned at me and I heard the rest of the group chuckle a bit too. I quickly finished my container of lo-mien and sprinted off the bus in order to find Jinxx.

I found Jinxx behind the bus with his head in his hands. Little choked sobs were coming from him. I carefully approached him, putting a hand on his shoulder.

He looked up and glared at me, "What do you want?"

"Jinxx, what's wrong? I know I should have told you about me and Andy, but I don't understand why you'd be this upset."

Jinxx sighed heavily, "You have Andy and you get to be here with him everyday while Sammi is at home and I'm on the road. Ashley has Skylar, and I'm just incredibly jealous I guess. I miss Sammi and it's hard to be around so many happy couples I suppose."

"Jinxx, you'll get to see Sammi soon, and what you said about me and Andy being happy isn't completely true," I muttered.

"What do you mean?" Jinxx asked.

"Remember how I broke down crying the other day?"

"Yeah," Jinxx said, dragging out the 'h.'

"Well it was because I had a bit of a mental break-down when me and Andy were outside kissing. It reminded me of when I was raped. And then there's the fact that I used to cut and that I'm anorexic. Me and Andy are in love, but that doesn't mean we're entirely happy," I sighed, "my past kind of makes total happiness impossible."

"Mel, I didn't know," Jinxx gulped.

"That's why I didn't get mad at you when you yelled at me. Are we good now?"

"Yeah, we're good."

"Now hurry up, sound check is in a few," I said, taking his hand and helping him up.

We got back on the bus and were immediately greeted with the guys asking in unison, "Are you two okay now?"

Jinxx and I laughed and nodded. I was glad that Jinxx and I made up, because if we didn't, well, I didn't know what I would've done. He was my best guy friend and I needed him.

"Um, guys," Skylar spoke up, "I don't think I'm going to the show."

"Why not?" Ashley asked.

"I'm not feeling well, I think I'm going to-," she dashed to the bathroom before she could finish her sentence.

I heard Skylar's retching heaves coming from the bathroom. She walked to the bathroom and opened the door to see an exhausted looking Skylar draped over the toilet. Skylar was taking deep breaths, trying to collect herself. The vomiting stopped for the time being.

"Sky?" I asked.

"Mhm?" she grunted in response.

"You want to have a girl's night in?"

"Don't you want to see the show?" she asked shakily.

"Nah, I can see a show any time I want. Also, I don't want to leave my best friend alone on the bus while she's puking her guts out."

"Okay, sounds go-," the vomiting began again and was worse than before.

"I'll get you some water," I said.

Skylar nodded in between heaves and I took a plastic cup and filled it to the brim with tap water. I handed Skylar the cup and she gladly swallowed it all in one gulp, which probably wasn't the best idea considering a moment later she started puking again.

"I'll be right back," I told a shaking Skylar.

I went to the guys and told them, "I'm going to stay with Skylar tonight. I don't want her to be by herself, so you guys go on ahead to sound check."

"You sure?" Andy asked.

"Yeah, positive."

The guys got up from the table and headed off to sound check. I ran back to the bathroom to see if Skylar was alright. Skylar's hair was in disarray around her face, so I pulled it back and saw scars around her neck.

"Skylar, what the hell?" I gasped, "It looks like you cut veins and tied a noose around your neck."

"I-I di-did," she stuttered.

"When?"

"My dad, you know how he was, but you didn't know what went on when you weren't with me. He raped me, and I hated how I felt afterwards, so I tried killing myself. I've been better since I got away from that thing, but I can't get rid of the scars," she sobbed.

I enveloped her in a hug and whispered sweet nothings in her ear until she calmed down.

"You know what this calls for?" I asked a now red-eyed Skylar.

"What?" she asked, taking out her contacts, which were probably causing her a lot of discomfort.

"How about we watch a movie and have some popcorn?"

"Sounds great," Skylar grinned.

I put the first Harry Potter movie into the DVD player and shoved a bag of popcorn into the microwave and pressed the popcorn button. After three minutes the popcorn was done and I settled into the couch with Skylar and got absorbed in the movie, even though I already saw it twenty times.

About halfway through the movie Skylar and I had finished the popcorn. Skylar excused herself to the restroom. I heard vomiting sounds from the bathroom.

She's probably getting sick again, I thought to myself as I continued to stare at the TV screen.

A minute later Skylar came out of the bathroom and joined me on the couch.

"You okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine," Skylar said without looking at me, her eyes were glued to the TV.

After twenty minutes Skylar fell asleep and her head somehow ended up on my lap, and right before the end of the movie I drifted off too.

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