*Adylen's POV*

I looked up from the spot I held on the couch in the tiny office. I hadn't spoken any words yet. The tears hadn't stopped flowing, but Doctor Marshalls wasn't being rude. She was waiting patiently for the tears to stop. Or she was waiting until i was going to be comfortable enough to talk. I wiped the tears off of my entire face & let out a sniffle.

'I was done. I mean i am done i guess. After i woke up from my coma, i just got the horrible urge to rip through my skin with a blade. But i didn't want to because i had made it so fucking far. I had made so much of my life in such a little time. I had gotten the guy of my dreams, the one i used to post countless pictures of. He's mine now. But all that got destroyed when that semi hit me. I woke up not knowing what to do & not knowing why i was alive. I had no want or need to live. I didn't care if i died & frankly i wanted to.'

I said, this time crying again. I let a few tears slip through my eyes as i started to think of Carylon by my brothers band. I cried some more. Doctor Marshalls got up. She put a CD in the player & sat next to me laying my head in her lap. She stroked through my hair while Carylon played to calm me down.

'Those times in life we learn to try, with one intention
Of learning how and when we'll die, but we can't listen
I wish to God I'd known that I, I didn't stand a chance
Of looking back and knowing why, or pain of circumstance

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm

So here's my song I wrote in time, when it was needed
Through pain of heart or loss of mind, your burdens lifted
You aren't alone just know that I, can't save our hearts tonight

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
Let's face today
You're not alone

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
Let's face today
You're not alone

You're not alone
We'll brave this storm
Let's face today'

But the only problem was it made me cry harder. I needed to get a taste of the fact that i was back at square one. I wanted to die, badly. & There was nothing i could do to face that reality but try my fucking hardest to beat it.