Secrets

Tour was finally over and we were back in California. As much as I liked touring I missed home and I missed Sammi. I was the first one into our apartment complex, Ash and Andy were still downstairs. I had lugged all of my trunks to the elevator and I practically wanted to drop my bags and rush to my door. Sammi had dropped off Killer and Tokyo about an hour ago and I was excited to see my babies. I missed them so much and couldn't wait to just snuggle with them both on my bed and watch the Harry Potter marathon I planned on having with all my DVDs. I would put off packing for Mary Ann’s until later. I had just gotten home and all I wanted to do was relax.

Andy and I were still trying to figure out a way to get rid of Vanessa. Getting rid of her would also mean we would have to tell Ashley and we had no clue when the right time to tell him would be. We both knew that there would never be a good time to tell him so eventually we would have to suck it up and just tell him. We were going to tell him soon because Andy was losing his mind trying to keep up the illusion that he actually liked Vanessa. Plus I wanted to open about my relationship with Andy, I wasn’t afraid anymore. Ashley was just going to have to deal with it.

When I reached my door I fiddled with my keys and I instantly heard running and barking on the other side of the door. I smiled and managed to open the door, Killer and Tokyo came bounding out of the door and jumped at my legs.

"Hey babies mama missed you two lots. You have fun with Auntie Sammi?" they just barked in response and I just laughed and grabbed my bags and brought them into the house. I dragged them into the corner of my room and left them there. I would unpack later but right now I wanted to spend time with my babies.

Tired from dragging all of my baggage around I collapsed onto my bed. Tokyo and Killer bound onto my bed and onto my stomach. I giggled as killer licked my cheek and Tokyo nipped at my hand. I petted them both and just sighed in content just happy to be around my babies again. We couldn't take them on tour with us cause Jon had dog allergies. Ashley bought them both for me after our therapist suggested we get some kind of comfort mechanism. She said it helped cope with traumatic events. And they do. These two just know my emotions so well that it's scary sometimes.

They both barked at me and I smiled "I missed you guys too. You want to go for a walk later?" I knew they weren't going to answer but I just asked anyway. Both of them snuggled up to each side of me and I heard Tokyo yawn. "You wore yourselves out waiting for me to get home didn't you?"

"Well I know where the party is at." I heard Ashley chuckle from outside of my door. I sat up a little to see him and I smiled.

"Yep! Come on in. It appears to be a sleepover." I said looking down at the two dogs at my side. Ashley just chuckled before he walked in and sat on the edge of my bed. As soon as he sat down Killer shifted away from me and onto Ashley's lap. Killer has always been closer to Ash. I didn't mind because Tokyo was closer to me. Ashley started petting Killer and Tokyo crawled on top of my stomach and yawned again before falling asleep.

"Tokyo has the right idea." I said yawning as well and shutting my eyes. The plane ride from Massachusetts to California was a long one and all I wanted to do was sleep.

"Well Killer and I will leave you two to sleep." Ashley said getting off of my bed with Killer in his arms. "I think I'm going to take this one for a walk. And grab some takeout while I'm out. Is there anything specific you want?"

"I've been craving sushi." I stated and he just laughed.

"Do you want a Scorpion roll or a Rainbow roll?"

"Scorpion roll, I'm in the mood for something spicy."

"Alright" he said laughing "I'll be back in about two hours, going to walk Killer first."

"Take your time."

"Will do." he said before kissing me cheek. "See you when I get back."

"Alright, see you later Ash." he just smiled before exiting my room. I sighed in content and closed my eyes. It was nice to be back in our apartment, I missed it here and I missed my bed.
Just as I felt myself slipping out of consciousness a weight was added to my bed.

"Hi Andy, I was wondering when you were going to make an appearance." I said not bothering to open my eyes. I heard him chuckle lowly before kissing my forehead.

"We just got back and you're already sleeping?"

"Well when Tokyo decides to sleep on my stomach I don't have the heart to move. And don't you dare move my baby!" I warned him knowing that's exactly what he was about to do.

"Fine." Andy said with an overdramatic whine. He moved so he was lying next to me and I opened my eyes and smiled at him. He was staring directly at me and I blushed and looked away slightly. After all this time he still managed to make me blush and my heartbeat race. I was so glad that we were back on track. Sure it was a slow start for us and I had a hard time forgiving him for how he treated me when he was with Vanessa but I eventually did. It took sometime but I managed to forgive but not forget. Andy's been trying so hard to make things up to me and it's hard not to forgive him when he's showering me with affection.

This is another reason why I loved him. He was always so determined to do something when His heart was in it and now he was determined to make it clear to me that he loved me and that he would do anything to prove it to me.

I seriously did miss the way things used to be between us and I was glad we were back to that point. I had missed him so much and I was glad to be able to call him mine again.

"What are we going to do now that we're off tour?" Andy asks and I giggled.

"Well I don't know about you but I'm going to go back to my real job."

"Are you going to give me a bunch of free pastries?" the anticipation in his voice was so obvious and I lightly punched his arm.

"Only if you're good I'll bring you back treats." I laughed at the pout that graced his face when I had said that. Tokyo shifted a little in his sleep but I started to pet his and he went back to sleep.

"You're so cruel to me!" Andy whined and I kissed his cheek.

"Andy baby you know if you want me to make you something all you have to do is ask. You know I love cooking and baking."

"Would you make me a triple chocolate cake?" he asked sheepishly and I rolled my eyes.

"I'll make you one from scratch tomorrow."

"Hot damn do I love you. What did I ever do to deserve you?"

"You know I still ask myself that question every day." I said clearly joking. Andy just rolled his eyes and kissed me.

"You are such a smartass."

"I thought you liked my ass?" I mused.

"Your ass has nothing to do with this conversation."

"Or does it?" I countered. Before I could even react Andy had pounced on me causing Tokyo to wake up with a yelp. Squished between the two of us he shifted and hopped off my bed and patted out of my room. Andy started to tickle my sides and I laughed uncontrollably. I was kicking and flaring my arms out in odd directions as he continued to harass my stomach.

"Do you surrender?" he asked grinning like an idiot.

"Never!"

"Suit yourself." he shrugged before reacting under my shirt to tickle me again. I squealed and the sensation of his cold hands.

"Fine I give up!"

"What's the magic words?"

"You never mentioned magic words?"

"Well those weren't the magic words." he continued to tickle me and I was finding it hard to breathe.

"Andy Biersack is the greatest man in the world!" I hollered.

"And..."

"He is a sex god!"

"Now those were definitely more than the magic words." he said releasing me. I tried to catch my breath and then I playfully punched me.

"You could have killed me." his only response was to kiss me. Forgetting about everything I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer. What started as simple kiss turned into a heated make out session and then soon enough I was practically ripping his shirt off.

"When in Ashley getting back?" Andy asked breathing heavily down my neck.

"In about two hours." I whispered slightly out of breathe. He got up and locked my door before coming back to me. I moved so I was under my sheets and I rested my head again my pillow and just stared up at him.

"Missy are you going to bed?"

"Nope just getting comfortable." I said taking my shorts and underwear off in one swift movement. I dropped them to the floor before lifting up my top and dropping it as well. Andy just looked at me with a pout on his lips.

"It's my job to undress you."

"Well why don't you just undress yourself?" I smirked and threw my blankets over myself. I heard Andy growl and a bunch of shuffling noises before the blankets were ripped off of me.
"Hey I’m cold!" I whined as Andy took the blankets away from me. He just smiled down at me stark naked and got on top of me. He moved in between my legs and grabbed my thighs and pulled me closer. Andy pulled the blankets over the both of us and smiled.

"Feeling better now?"

"Much better."

"Good." he said before pecking my lips. "You know it's been a very long day and I'm not in the mood for foreplay."

"Well it’s like you read my mind cause I was about to ask if you wanted to skip it. It's almost been so long I really just want you."

"Good thing I want you too." Andy said before kissing me and without warning slammed right into me.

"Fuck!" I shouted my back arching off the bed. I would seriously never get used to Andy's size and as I hissed in a mix of pleasure and pain he just chuckled to himself and left light kisses over my neck.

"You're an ass." I stated fake glaring at him.

"Yeah but you love me."

"I wonder what drug I'm on that made that happen." I joked and he pulled out then back in again causing me to shut up and moan instead of laugh. I roughly pulled him by his neck and into a desperate kiss.

Andy grabbed my thigh and pulled me closer causing him to go deeper into me. I clawed at his back as fire coursed through my veins. I moaned as he picked up his pace. We would have to make this short unfortunately. He slowed down and kisses my lips hungrily.

"I love you so much Jade."

"I love you too Andy." I gasped out. His lips attached themselves to mine and I wrapped my arms around his neck. With our tongues battling Andy picked up his pace causing me to moan into his mouth. I felt heat building up inside me and after a few minutes I was practically screaming Andy's name. I felt my orgasm hit full force as Andy went rigid and collapsed next to me.

We were both breathing heavily as Andy pulled me into his chest and kissed my forehead.
"God damn do I love you." he mumbled into my hair. I smiled and traced small circles on his chest. "Sucks it was fast I wanted to take my time with you." he purred and I shivered.

"Well hopefully next time Ash stays out longer." I mumbled "Wanna go snuggle on the couch until he gets back? Since we obviously can't continue to lay here."

"Yeah too bad I can't just lie here with you naked under the covers."

"Even if Ashley knew about us there would still be no way in hell that would happen."

"True. I'm just glad we're back together, don't even scare me like that again."

"I'm sorry didn't know Vanessa was a pyshco bitch."

“I’m just glad I have you back.” Andy said kissing my cheek. “Want to go shower first?”

“You just want an excuse to have shower sex.” I stated poking his chest and he just chuckled.

“Your point?” He asked and I just rolled my eyes before kissing him and standing up.

“Race you to the bathroom.” I said before heading off.

“You sneaky little cheater!” He shouted after me and I just continued to giggle as I made my way into the bathroom. Just as I had turned on the water I felt his arms wrap around my waist. “You know I don’t think you won because you cheated.” I could just feel him pouting and I leaned back into his embraced and tilted my head back to look at him.

“Aw does the sore loser want a prize?”

“Yes, yes I do.” He said leaning down and pecking my lips. I pulled myself out of his arms before kissing him sweetly and stepping into the shower.

“Well then come and get it.” I said with a beckoning finger.

“Yes Ma’am.” He whispered before climbing into the shower with me.

-x-

Andy and I were watching The Amazing World Of Gumball when Ash finally returned with Killer. I was wearing an oversized t-shirt that covered all of my chest because Andy forgot that he couldn’t leave marks and now I have a huge behind hickey on my chest. So much for wearing V-Necks.
“Hey all what have you two been doing?” Ash asked as Killer ran up to me and sat on my lap.

“Oh we’ve just been sitting around watching the TV. Your favorite episode of Adventure Time came on by the way.” I said and Ash pouted.

“Really? Dammit! Anyway here’s your sushi. Killer get down so your Mommy can eat her food.” Ash scolded and Killer jumped down with no complaints and ran off probably to go find Tokyo. I squealed bouncing up and down from excitement. Ash knew how much I loved my sushi.

“Jade calm down you’re going to choke if you eat it all so fast.” Andy scolded and I just ignored him and continued to eat.

“Oh please even if I choked I know you would save me.” I said with food still in my mouth, screw etiquette I’m fucking starving!

“True I totally would.” Andy said hugging me and I just grinned my mouth full of food. “Jade that’s so gross.” He scrunched up his nose in disgust and I just laughed. He eats with his mouth wide open all the time the damn hypocrite.

“Oh by the way-” Ashley started to say grabbing our attention. “Everyone wanted to go out and celebrate our successful tour so they want to go out tomorrow.”

“Where are we going?” I asked genuinely excited.

“We’re going clubbing, this new place called Electric Chapel just opened up and we want to check it out.”

“Aren’t I too young to get into clubs?”

“Not when you’re with me you’re not. I talked to the owner in advance he said you could come in you just need to wear a bracelet so the bartenders know you’re not twenty-one.”

“Okay that sounds fine. Ooh I have to find something to wear!” I exclaimed in excitement.

“Yeah I know Sammi and Jamie wanted to take you out to go shopping early tomorrow.”

“Is Vanessa coming?” I was really hoping she wouldn’t be coming.

“Yes she is. It’s really nice that you two are getting along so well.” Ashley said patting my back and I had half the mind to tell him how much I hated the bitch but I kept my mouth shut. Instead I gave Andy a knowing glance and he tried not to laugh.

“I’m going to go change into some pajamas I’ll be right back.” Ash stated before heading out of the room. When I noticed he was nowhere in sight I grabbed Andy’s face and kissed him deeply catching him completely off guard.
“What was that for?” He asked still in slight shock.

“For no reason I just wanted to.” I said shrugging. He chuckled and pecked my lips.

“I love you.”

“Love you too Andy.”

“I’m going to end it with Vanessa tomorrow.” He stated and I stared at him wide eyed.

“Do you think that’s a good idea?”

“Jade Baby I can’t wait any longer. I know you’re scared of Ashley’s reaction but I’m not going anywhere no matter what.”

I bite my lip in nervousness but realized he was right. “Okay tomorrow.” Our promise was sealed with a kiss and though I was excited to let the world know Andy was mine I was still nervous as all hell and I just couldn’t shake the feeling that something bad was going to happen tomorrow, I so hope that I’m wrong.

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