Red and blue flashed before my eyes. I sat on the front step, wrapping my arms around myself. Police were gathered all around the house. My crying mother stood in the yard talking with police.
The police contacted Andy for me. He should be here any minute. I stared off. I can’t believe I killed him. I had control, I didn’t have to shoot him. But I wanted to, and that scared me. I heard a car door close, I looked up. Andy came sprinting. I stood up and he embraced me. I was crying now.

“You’re ok! You’re ok” Andy held me

“Andy, I was so scared” I sobbed into his shoulder

“Shhh shh shhh” he tried to calm me “I know” he said softly and squeezed me tight, he kissed my forehead.

“GOD, I promised you I wouldn’t let this happen to you again” Andy said

He held my head against him, he rested his cheek on my head.

“Excuse us” a paramedic opened the door

Andy shifted me out of the way. The paramedic was carrying something. A body, covered with a sheet. Another paramedic was helping. They carried him away. Andy made me look away.

“I killed him” I mumbled

“What?” Andy didn’t hear me mumble

“I killed him” I said

He made me look at him, cupping my face.

“You had to” he said

I shook my head “No, no I didn’t, I wanted to” I sobbed

“Sonny” Andy said “He wouldn’t have stopped” he said

“I know” I cried

Andy just held me. He stayed with me as the police asked me questions. My mother came over to us as the police drove away.

“Oh god Sonny, I’m so sorry” she stood in front of me, Andy had his arm wrapped around my shoulder.

I didn’t say anything

“I’m sorry” she shook her head, tears welled in her eyes

“It’s too late for that mom” my voice shook

She sniveled. “Please” she begged

“You let him lure me here, YOU LET HIM” I raised my voice “YOU WENT ALONG WITH IT!” I was yelling now

“YOU ARE A DISGUSTING EXCUSE FOR A MOTHER” I yelled

“Sonny” Andy shook my shoulder. That didn’t stop me.

“YEARS! YEARS HE DID THIS TO ME! AND YOU ACTED LIKE NOTHING WAS GOING ON!” I yelled

“I-I couldn’t—couldn’t

“Couldn’t what?” I said

“I couldn’t just leave him” she said

“Are you HEARING YOURSELF? I AM YOUR DAUGHTER, you picked him over ME!” I raised my voice

“I couldn’t help that I loved him” she yelled

It was silent now. I did something I thought I’d never do. I slapped her across the face. Andy grabbed my arms and pulled me away. My mom was shocked. She just stood there with her hand over her mouth as Andy pulled me away. He got me into the car. I watched my mom stand there as we drove away. I was breathing heavily.

“Sonny…calm down” Andy said

I nodded my head. I clenched my knees. I looked at Andy.

“H-hows your mother?” I asked, I nearly forgot.

“She’s…uh…she’s pretty bad” Andy said

I looked down

“Is she going to be ok though?” I asked

“Yeah, it’s just going to take her a while” he said

It was silent now. There was not much to say just…SHIT IS FUCKED UP. My life… Andy’s life. Andy’s mother is extremely hurt and I killed someone today. My mind felt like a scrambled mess of emotions, anger, fear, loathing, hate, and disgust. For some reason, I am not relieved about Michael. He’s dead and I don’t even feel a thing. I can only imagine how Andy feels about everything. He’s just there, watching the people he loves get torn apart and hurt.
I looked down and realized I was tracing the scar on my arm. Andy glanced over, he set his hand over it rubbing his thumb against my skin.

“It gets better Sonny” Andy said

I looked at him “Yeah” I said

I hope he’s right. Right now, I have no family. My mother is out of my life. No more. All I have now is Andy and Misty.