The no fighting thing lasted about an hour tops. We were doing good. We had stayed up in my room for a few more minutes and had been talking. Then we decided to go downstairs where all of the guys from FIR and OM&M were sitting with my family. I told them we had worked it out and then we all sat around talking for a while. Tino had just finished telling some kind of joke when Ronnie turned to me. “So little sister, you going to the big city?” He asked. And then it happened. I said yes and at same time Ashley said no. Everybody in the room tensed and I turned to Ashley with my eyebrow cocked. “What the hell Ashley. We just talked about this. We agreed I would go.” I said. “No we agreed I was being an ass earlier. If anything you agreed you wouldn’t go.” He countered. “What the hell? Why are being like this? Why do you have such a problem with me leaving for NY?” I growled. “Why do you want to so badly? Why can’t you just take my thoughts into consideration for once?” He practically yelled. The air in the room warmed up then cooled drastically as I narrowed my eyes. “I am always taking your thoughts into consideration. Every fucking day. If anything YOU never take MINE into consideration. I have to watch slutty fangirls throw themselves all over you every fucking day but I never do anything about it because you hate it when I get jealous. But the second any guy comes near me you’re all over them. I didn’t go to my senior fucking prom because I couldn’t bring my 29 year old boyfriend with me. I told you it was fine and that I didn’t want to go in the first place because I didn’t want you to feel bad when I was dying to go to prom. But I knew you would be upset if I went without you so I didn’t and now you’re telling me I can’t go live my fucking dream because it would upset you. Well news flash this is the one thing I’m not giving up. Not even for you Ashley.” I screamed. “So what? You’re telling me to quit the band?” He asked. I threw up my hands. “No. I would never want that because this band is who you are. It’s what you do and I can deal with every fangirl on the planet drooling over you as long as you are up on the stage being happy and who you want to be! I just don’t understand why you can’t do the same thing for me!” I screamed at him. By now I was crying. A feat that didn’t happen often. Only twice before in my life actually but somehow Ashley brought out the emotional side of me. When he saw my tears Ashley’s eyes widened as if finally realizing just what was happening. It was then that I remembered we had an audience. Jinxx was clenching his jaw while Sammi rubbed his back and shot glared at Ashley. CC and Jake were shaking their heads and Andy was holding his head in his hands rubbing his temples. Ella, Juliet and Christi were being held down to the couch by CC and Jake. Ronnie looked like he was going to punch Ashley. As did Jacky and Derek. Ryan and Ron were staring at me dumbfounded. Austin and the rest of his band looked slightly frightened. I understood all off their reactions though. I was Jinxx’s baby girl and it took a lot to make me cry and the fact Ashley had made him want to murder him. While Sammi was on a different level than Jinxx. She was focused on calming him and plotting Ashley’s imminent demise in her mind. Jake and CC just hated when we fought and Andy got migraines when we fought because he was worried if we were going to get hurt. Ella, Juliet, and Christi considered me their baby and sister so they were being held back so they didn’t murder Ashley then and there. Ronnie, Jacky, and Derek thought of me as their baby sister and had never seen me cry before over anything before then and they were pretty angry at Ashley for bringing me to it. While Ron and Ryan were just surprised I could cry. Austin and his crew had never been around for the stage that Ashley and I fought about everything and had fights at least 3 times a day. They had actually never seen us argue so this was new and kind of shocking to them. I turned back to Ashley. He was reaching for me looking apologetic. I wiped my ever flowing tears away and stepped back away from his hand. The air cooled further. When I stepped away it seemed like something in Ashley broke. He ran upstairs and into his room and locked the door. When he ran out I started crying in earnest. I was almost sure he was done with me. He had finally had enough and it was over. I sank to the floor and felt people approach me. Arms wrapped around me and I opened my eyes to see Ella, Juliet, Christi and Sammi gathered around me in a protective circle trying to shush me and calm me down. “He hates me now.” I said. Ella shook her head. “No baby girl. He hates himself. We all know how much it takes to make you cry and the fact that he did it makes him hate himself.” She said. My head shot up I remembered a conversation he and I had a couple of months back. When I had first seen the scars on his legs. I asked him about them.
// “Ashley? Why would you do that?” I asked with concern. He pulled me closer. “About six years ago I was in a bad place. This was before the band. I hated myself. Couldn’t find a reason to live. I was going to end it but then I met Jinxx at a bar as I was leaving. I had just decided that that night would be my last and was going home to finish the job when Jinxx bumped into me. We started talking and he told me his band was looking for a bassist and I should try out. After that things got better. I’ve been 6 years clean. Be 7 in a week actually. I still keep my old razors just to remind me of how low I once got.//
I gasped. I could hear him going through the drawers in his room and realization dawned on me. “No,no,no,no,no,no,no.” I said as I flew up the stairs. I reached his door and tried to open it but he had it locked. I started beating on it. “Ashley baby it’s me. Please let me in Please don’t do this. Come on baby open the door and let’s talk. Please don’t thrown 7 years away over me. Please. I need you.” I said through the door crying. I was still pounding on it yelling please. Everyone had gathered behind me in the hallway. When they realized what I was talking about most of them gasped. And then I wasn’t the only beating on the door too. Andy was pounding on the too. “Come on man. Open up. Dammit Ashley don’t fucking do this shit! You’ve been good for 7 fucking years. Open up and talk to Tora. You guys need each other. She’ll be heartbroken without you man! Come on. Open the fucking door Ashley!” He yelled. I was sobbing by now. Sammi was holding me and I was shaking. I kept saying please praying he would open up. Finally Ronnie walked over and made all of us back up. He took two steps back and then kicked the door. It broke. I shot up and ran into Ashley’s room. I saw him sitting on his floor crying with a razor poised over his wrist. He was about to bring it down when I ran forward. I knocked the razor out of his hand and flung myself in his arms sobbing. “I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry. This is all my fault. I never should have screamed at you. I never should have gotten angry with you. I won’t go to New York. I promise Please don’t hate yourself. Don’t hate me. Please don’t ever try and leave me again. I would be so lost without you. Please I need you baby. I’m so sorry.” I sobbed into his chest. He wrapped his arms around me and cried into my hair. “It’s my fault. You give up so much for me and I never do anything for you. I shouldn’t be so selfish. You have to go to New York it’s your dream. You have to follow your dream just like I did mine. I can’t hold you back from that. Please don’t hate me. I should have just agreed in the first place. I just didn’t want you leave because I thought you would find somebody better in the city. That you wouldn’t love me anymore. But I’m willing to take that chance if you’re happy. Please just don’t hate me.” He murmured. I shook my head “I could never hate you. You’re my mate. For life.” I said looking up into his tear filled eyes with my own. He nodded and then we were kissing. Sweet and Kind soon became hot and passionate as I pulled him closer to me. I had nearly lost myself in him just the little taste I had gotten made me want to hold him close and never let him go. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he put his hands on my hips. And then we were interrupted by someone clearing their throat. I turned and saw Austin standing in the doorway blushing furiously. “I umm Jake and CC sent me up to make sure you hadn’t killed each other. The rest of us are downstairs. Umm I will just go now.” He said and turned to leave. I turned to Ashley’s chest and started laughing. I knew that as soon as I had got into Ashley’s room everyone had gone downstairs to give us some privacy. Mainly because everyone from FIR and BVB knew how we got after a big fight. After I had finally accepted Ashley as my mate almost a year ago we didn’t really fight much anymore. But when we did it was a bad but after words one of us would apologize and we would ‘make up’ in very loud, very interesting ways. Jake and CC were probably just wanting to scar poor Austin for life. Pulling away from Ashley I decided that we should go downstairs. We walked down with me in Ashley’s arms because neither of us were willing to separate right now. When we walked into the living room Austin blushed and looked at the ground while Jake and CC started laughing. I cocked and eyebrow. They both looked at me suspiciously. I put on my best sadistic smirk and then I motioned Ella and Christi over. Oh yeah. Maybe I should explain. About 8 months ago, Christi figured out she wasn’t full on lesbian, more like bisexual and she was in love with CC who has been in love with her for 2 years. They then started dating and have been inseparable since. Like CC sleeps at our apartment most nights because he craves physical contact from Christi. But anyways, I called them over and whispered in their ears. When I was finished they both glared at their respective men and sat beside Ashley and I with their arms crossed. Ella and Christi wouldn’t look at Jake and CC. Both of the guys looked at me frowning. I smirked. “Paybacks a bitch and you can both expect to not sleep in the same bed as your women tonight. Or even the same house for that matter.” I said with a smirk. Their eyes widened and they looked back and forth from me to their women who weren’t looking at them. Andy smirked and laughed at them until I shot him a look. “Would you like to join them in the dog house?” I asked. He stopped laughing and looked from me to Juliet who was staring at him with her eyebrow up. “You wouldn’t.” He chocked out but looked doubtful. “Oh but I would.” I said he immediately shook his head and pulled Juliet close. “That’s what I thought Beirsack.” I said. After an hour I decided Ashley and I need more alone time and pulled him up so we could go to my apartment. He followed without a thought. We said our goodbyes and went to leave. When we reached my car I stopped. “I forgot my purse inside. I will be right back.” I said before running inside. I picked up the small bag I had intentionally left by Andy. As I went to pick it up I stopped by Andy’s ear. “Please check his room and get rid of all of them.” I said He nodded his head seriously knowing that I was talking about the razors. He was just as worried about Ashley as I was. I smiled and then went back out and got into my car. He climbed into his Ferrari and we sped to my apartment. We were craving physical contact. Nearly being lost to each other had taken a serious toll on our nerves. The minute we parked we were both out of the cars and racing up to my apartment. I managed to fumble and unlock the door and open it before I was picked up by Ashley. He kicked the door closed behind us and carried me back to my room. He laid me on the bed and settled himself on top of me. His lips met mine and I was lost in a swirl of passion. The whole damn apartment could have been on fire and I wouldn't have noticed it. As we got lost in the passion our beasts came out. My golden eyes turned into vertical dragon like slits and my nails turned to claws and my fangs elongated. Ashley's warm brown eyes turned red and and slitted while his claws and fangs came out. We shredded each other clothes without breaking our make out sessions. He kissed down my throat and chest before kissing my abdomen causing me to shiver in delight After shredding my underwear and kissing further downward I became lost in the dizzying swirl of passion. I wasn't sure which was was up or down anymore. Three hours later we lay wrapped in each others arms. "I love you. I'm so sorry I was such and ass earlier." He whispered to me. I shook my head. "No way it's my fault. I was being a bitch. I shouldn't have freaked out on you like that." I said. "You have to go to New York." He said. I was about to argue when he put a hand over my mouth. You're going you have to live your dream. You can't let me keep you from that. I will be here when you get back. I will always be here for you." He said I processed this for a moment and then nodded. before kissing him tenderly. I was shocked. How could he love me so much. How had I found the most amazing guy on the planet and managed to make him mine. I was such a lucky person now and I knew it for sure.

Notes

Hey everyone, BVBsoldier421 here again. SavedByCarolyn couldn't post because of no wifi where she is. So here's the new chapter. Love you guys! Never give in and never back down!:)

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