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Please tell me what we have is real

I'd rather be alone

Ashley Purdy’s Point of View

Something made an annoying noise right next to me. I groaned and tried to grab that thing but missed. I sleepily opened one eye, recognizing it as my alarm clock. I groaned even more and turned it off, squinting my eyes. I didn’t want to get up. It was my first day of school in this weird new town. I would be an outsider anyway. Nobody would like me. No use in getting up, is there? But then again I would get into serious trouble...
When I eventually got up it was a quarter to seven. Still too early for my taste. I went to the bathroom and took a shower, forgetting about my worries for fifteen minutes. As I stood in front of my wardrobe, looking for something to wear, my mind started to wander again. Maybe I should try and look decent for once? Not that it would be of much use anyway. I sighed and took out a pair of black ripped jeans and a W.A.S.P. shirt. I fixed my hair, applied some black eye shadow and eyeliner before studying myself in the mirror. Something was missing. My eyes fell on a red and black bandana. I folded it up and put it around my head, fixing my hair again so it fitted in. Way better. I also put one of my star necklaces on before I grabbed some breakfast and finally had to leave my flat, walking towards this new hell. The fact that it was raining didn’t lighten my mood at all. On the contrary, I was even more pissed.
Even from far away I could make out the noise of cheerleaders giggling and jocks laughing. I hated it already as much as I hated my old school. This would not be fun.


Andrew Biersack’s Point of View

I sleepily got up when my alarm went off at six am and rubbed my eyes. It was the first day of school after the long summer break. And as if that wasn’t bad enough already it was raining like hell. I sighed and went to the bathroom. I showered quickly and dressed like always. Black skinnies, band shirt, This time it was Kiss. I dried and teased my hair before applying my usual black eye shadow and eyeliner. I put on some necklaces and wristbands, looked at myself in the mirror and decided that this would have to do. Looking “normal” would only make me feel worse and wouldn’t help at all, so I just dressed like I wanted. I went downstairs to eat something; my mom and dad already sat at the table, chatting happily.
“Morning mom, morning dad” I said and helped myself to some coffee and a bowl of cereals.
“Good morning Andy, did you sleep well?” my mom asked and smiled at me.
“Sure, I hope you too” I replied. I loved my parents, they were so caring and I knew I could talk to them about everything. They were, except for my closest friends, the only people that knew I was gay. It wasn’t easy at first but they accepted it, just as they accepted my style and taste in music. They supported me in everything I did. I knew that this wasn’t natural and that many kids had problems with their parents. I considered myself very lucky.
I looked at the clock and sighed.
“Well, I have to get going. See you this afternoon” I said to them, before leaving the kitchen to put my shoes on.
“Have fun!” both replied and I nearly laughed out loud. Too bad not everyone was as tolerant and positive as my parents.
On my way to school I met up with Jake, Jinxx and CC. They were my best friends and we practically did everything together. It was always fun to hang out with them. We had a band and a few original songs, but we were missing a bassist and a name. Oh, and gigs.
We talked about the band, our songs and finally school.
“Maybe there will be interesting new students” CC said and winked at me. I laughed. Typically him. He was always looking for a boy that I could fall in love with. He hasn’t been very successful so far.
“Yeah sure” I just laughed. At the moment I wasn’t even interested in a relationship but my friends didn’t want to hear that.
“Well, we’ll see!” Jinxx said in his cheery voice and we walked up to the main gate. A boy that was our age stood there and sighed heavily. He even looked like he could be part of our little group. I was pretty sure I never saw him before. He looked as annoyed as I was feeling.
“New student?” Jake whispered, nodding in his direction. CC nodded.
“Maybe he needs help to find the office?” Jinxx asked, always wanting to help. I just shrugged.
“Let’s just go in, I don’t really want to be late on our first day.” I said and walked through the main gate. The guys followed shortly after and together we went into the building and to our first class. The everyday routine of school and homework welcomed us with open arms although we didn’t want to step into that embrace.


Ashley Purdy’s Point of View

I sighed heavily and looked at the building. Hello my hate. How long has it been? Only a few months but I didn’t miss school at all. A group of students passed me by and they looked the same style and age as me. Maybe I stood a chance here. But who was I kidding? Even for people “like me”, how my relatives liked to call them, I was an outsider, a freak, an outlaw. It was a good thing that I’ve been used to being alone ever since. That meant no unexpected hurt and no letdowns.
Sighing one more time, I went into the building and straight to the office. The secretary studied my outward appearance with a look on her face that clearly told me that I wasn’t welcome here. Acting as if everything was alright, I waited until she handed me my timetable, a map of the school and other documents.
“You’ll get your books during lunch break in the cellar” she finally said and went back to her computer.
I took a look at my timetable. History. Another look at the map told me that I had to get to the second floor, so I went up the stairs and waited near the classroom along with other students, but not close enough to get in touch with them. Two guys of the group that passed me earlier were there too, so they actually were my age. They curiously looked at me but I acted as if I didn’t notice and leant against the wall, staring at the opposite wall of the corridor.
Finally the teacher arrived. When he passed me he looked at me.
“You have to be Ashley Purdy.” he said and smiled.
“Yes, Sir.” I said quietly and looked into his eyes. He nodded and unlocked the door to the classroom. I let the other students pass and went into the room last.
“Be quiet now.” the teacher said and the class really went quiet. Popular or strict?
“This is Ashley, he is new here, so please be nice to him. Ashley, please take a seat next to Andy.” the history teacher, who didn’t tell me his name, said to me and mentioned to the back. I looked up and crystal blue eyes pierced my brown ones. The guys from earlier.
I made my way to the last row with people sniggering as I passed them and sat down on the chair next to the guy called Andy. It was a seat at the window, so I wouldn’t complain. I took out something to write and tried to follow the lesson until I was really annoyed by someone staring at me. I turned my head to the right and met Andy’s eyes.
“Hey, I’m Andy” he said nicely and smiled.
“Yeah, I got that already. Now would you mind stop staring at me? That’s annoying.” I just replied and turned back to the lesson. I didn’t want to make friends. I just wanted to get through the year with as little trouble and drama as possible. The plan was to not get to know anyone really and to just sit through it. From the corner of my eye I saw Andy shrug in the direction of the boy next to him.
I sighed as the bell rang. Finally. The guy next to me had kept staring at me every now and then and I nearly freaked. What the fuck was he thinking? Wasn’t my behavior proof enough that I didn’t want to make any friends? Apparently he didn’t quite understand that. When I stuffed my things into my bag he stood in front of me and tried to be nice.
“So you’re new?” he asked and I just rolled my eyes.
“Obviously.”
“You know, you can hang out with us. We could show you to the classrooms and stuff.” he went on, pointing at himself and the guy next to him.
“No.”
“This is Jinxx by the way” He totally ignored my short answers. “He is quite shy but as soon as he gets to know someone he is the most out-going person ever!”
I sighed in annoyance.
“Look. I don’t know what about my behavior you don’t get. Maybe you just don’t know what my reactions mean, so I’m gonna explain them to you. And you better listen, because I’ll only explain it once. When I say you are annoying, I actually mean it. That was no joke earlier. You really do annoy me, so please shut the fuck up. I don’t want to get to know you or other weird people. I don’t want someone to show me around. I just want to be left alone, ok? I mean it. Don’t fuck with me. Don’t annoy me. Don’t talk to me.” And with that I left Andy and Jinxx standing there and made my way to the next class. Awesome. English. Guess you noticed my sarcasm.


Andrew Biersack’s Point of View

“Don’t fuck with me. Don’t annoy me. Don’t talk to me.” and with that Ashley left the classroom. Jinxx and me looked at each other, totally confused.
“What was that?” he finally asked. I shrugged.
“No clue. Weird guy. Maybe he has problems or something. How can someone not want any friends?” I couldn’t understand his reaction. There are people that would give anything to have a bunch of friends but Ashley just threw that possibility away. I already knew that I would think about him the whole day. He was incredibly hot and I wanted him. A smirk crept on my face.
“What is it?” Jinxx asked confused and I told him that I wanted Ashley in my bed.
“Just a fuck?” he asked doubtfully but I nodded my head. “But Andy, maybe he isn’t gay at all. He didn’t look like he would let anybody near him, to be true.” I just shrugged. I wanted him in my bed and I would get him into my bed. It was just a matter of time. I could be really convincing and persistent.
Outside the classroom we met up with CC and Jake. We told them about our encounter with Ashley and CC raised an eyebrow.
“What’s up with that guy?” I shrugged again but also told him that I would get him in my bed. My friends knew that I sometimes preferred one-night-stands.
“However I wouldn’t bet my ass on that.” Jinxx said, stating his doubt once more. CC just shrugged.
“It’s worth a try, I’d say. There’s nothing to lose.” he said and looked at Jake who had been quiet all the while.
“None of my business.” he just said and shrugged. Him and Jinxx were the quiet ones of us but Jake really was the worst of them. He barely said anything and if he did it was short and most of the time indifferent. We loved him anyway.
“Well, I have to get going.” CC sighed and took a leave, the rest of us following shortly after. We were already 5 minutes late for class but we just didn’t care.

Notes

So, the first real chapter. I'll probably update this weekly. Some comments would be much appreciated ^.^ I hope oyu enjoy the story so far!

Comments

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DarkQueen DarkQueen
6/28/16

I'm having withdrawals.

Okay, I just read over this entire story again. Absoulely amazing the 3rd time around. (:

I demand an update!

Im loving the story but is this the end?

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1/4/15