Love Cannot Be Forgotten

I slammed the car door shut and buried my face in my hands. What was I thinking?! I was acting like an asshole to my mate, my beautiful mate who I adore. I can’t get over myself enough to show him I love him?! What the fuck Ashley, pull it together. I sighed driving to the nearest bar and walking in, taking a seat in a barstool and ordering a beer. I sipped at it while I thought hard.

What could I do to show him I love him? I mean, I do, I really do. I guess I’m just to much of an asshole who doesn’t want to admit he was wrong to prove it. I heard someone sit next to me.

“Hey Ash, had to get away from the bitch now, did you?” I heard whispered in my ear. I growled and was about to go ape shit until I realized it was Kina. I sighed and sat back down, glaring down at the drink in my hands. She’s the exact person that I really did NOT need to see, “awe baby, c’mon. It’s me, you can talk to me. I ditched my dom, and I’m oh so glad I found you,” She said then pushed her way and then sat in my lap whispering into my ear, “let me take care of you.”

“Kina… please just leave me alone,” I mumbled. She rolled her eyes and started to palm me.

“Oh c’mon baby you know you love it. Take me out back and just use me like a toy all night,” she said seductively. I groaned and pushed her off.

“I’m not going to let you cheat on your mate, and I’m not going to cheat on mine. That’s not the kind of person I am. If that’s you, fine, but don’t use me for your filthy fucking ways. You know, you always were a whore. I stayed with you because I thought sex was love, but I was wrong. Love is wanting to protect someone with your life. Love is wanting to hold that person close and never let go. That’s how I feel towards Andy, and even if I will not admit that to him, I will tell you that I truly do love him, and I will not hurt him by cheating on someone as filthy and disgusting as yourself. I don’t want to see you, hear your voice, or even smell your cheap perfume anymore. I don’t want you anywhere me. Oh, and stay the fuck away from Andy. Did you know that you ass dialed me before going and saying all that horrible shit to him?! I heard everything. You’re lucky you’re a fertile, because if you weren’t I would kill you for making him cry like that. I swear to God all you care about is yourself, alcohol, your drugs, and sex. What’s going to happen if you get pregnant? Are you going to continue that heroin? Are you going to quit drinking bottles of vodka every night? I bet you won’t, and that poor child, if it’s a fertile, will be damaged! All because you are a horrible, horrible person. You’ll never make a good mother. I hope you use condoms every night, because no one wants to go to school saying they’re a fucking CRACK BABY WHO’S MOTHER IS A SLUT!!! NOW GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY SIGHT!” I screamed. She looked at me wide eyed and ran out of the bar. I felt a million eyes on me.

I groaned and got up, throwing money on the bar and walking back to Andy’s home. I got hungry along the way so I pulled a human into an ally and drank him. When I got back to his house, I slowly walked inside and cleaned myself up before getting into the bed next to Andy. I smiled at his sleeping form. God he was so damn gorgeous. I started to slowly stroke his hair.

“Oh Andy my love, one day I will show you how I feel. I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done to hurt you,” I whispered. I slowly kissed his forehead and laid back, pulling him into my side. He cuddled into me in his sleep, and I smiled.

It was hard to fall asleep. Thoughts of everything I’ve done to him. I must have made him miserable. When he confessed his love to me, I was so happy, but then I had to ruin it by yelling at him for saying things that were actually true about Kina. She was always such a bitch to me. God, if I could go back and change ever asking her out I would.

~FLASHBACK~

I smiled at Kina as she sipped her wine. We were on a date at the finest restaurant in the city. She smiled back at me when I paid and got up reaching out for her hand. She quickly took it. I drove to her home and got out, opening her door for her. She got out and whispered in my ear, “walk me in, my parents aren’t home.”

I walked her inside, and she instantly pinned me to the wall kissing me. I kissed back groaning and holding her hips. She wrapped her leg around my waist and started to grind her hips against mine. It felt so good that I didn’t know what to do other then grind back against her.

Before I knew it, we were in her room and I had her pinned to the bed. I ripped her shirt off, along with her bra, and started to fondle her tits. She moaned and gripped my shirt. I took it off and slipped her skirt down. She didn’t have anything on underneath. I smirked at her and pulled my jeans off. I started to rub her clit to get her wet. She moaned like a fucking whore, and at the time I loved it.

“Condoms baby?” I whispered huskily. She pointed to the side table so I quickly found one and rolled it onto my hardened member. I lined up with her, “are you ready baby?” She nodded, so I pushed into her.

I groaned at the new feeling. She moaned so loud as I thrust into her. I kept going faster and harder. Our moans intertwined together. It felt so beautiful. I thought it was love or something. I pounded into her as hard as I could, and soon she reached her peak. I moaned as her orgasm caused her to tighten around me, causing me to cum into the condom.

~END FLASHBACK~

Yep, she’s a slut.

Notes

Yep. She's a whore.

Chapter Title: Misery Business by Paramore