This Is Our Sweet Blasphemy

"And what would you consider doing?" Andy asked.

"Fuck, I don't know. Something." I said.

"How about your homework." Jinxx said. I sighed.

"You're no fun Jinxx." I said. My phone buzzed and I looked at it. It was my boyfriend. I answered it.

"Hey babe, what's up?" I asked.

"Nothing darling. How are you?"
"I'm fine. Just hanging out with some friends. Want to meet them? I think you might love them." I said.

"Sure baby. I'll be there in ten minutes. Bye. I love you."

"I love you too." I said and hung up.

"Who the fuck was that?" Jinxx asked. I rolled my eyes.

"My boyfriend dumbass." I said.

"Since when did you have a boyfriend?" Jinxx asked.

"Since freshman year Jinxx. You've never met him and he's a fan of all metal or hard rock bands, and that includes you." I said.

"Oh. Okay... so he's coming over then? And he doesn't know you're related to me?" Jinxx asked.

"Yes he's coming over and no he doesn't know that." I said. Then the doorbell rang. Andy answered it because CC held me back. I just let him and then Chris, my amazing boyfriend, walked in the room. CC let me go and I walked up to him and engulfed him in a hug and gave him a quick kiss.

"Baby, you didn't tell me Andy Biersack would answer the door." Chris said.

"I also didn't tell you that I'm related to Jinxx, and I've known these guys for years." I said smiling.

"Holy shit, really?" Chris asked.

"Really." I said. I kissed him for a minute until someone, I'm guessing Jinxx, cleared their throat. My cheeks reddened and I pulled away from Chris.

"So, what's your name?" Jinxx asked.

"I'm Chris Jacobson." He said.

"If you hurt my cousin, I will-"

"JINXX! MY BOYFRIEND DOESN'T NEED THE TALK!! He won't hurt me. Don't worry. He especially doesn't need it from one of his many idols." I said. Chris nodded.

"I like your name Chris." CC said.

"Haha I like yours too CC, but mine is short for Christopher, not Christian." Chris said. I smiled and CC just rolled his eyes. I looked at CC. He looked... hurt? Jealous? I wasn't very good at reading emotions, but I think I was pretty close. I shook it off. There was no way I would ever date CC. He's so much older than me, and I love Chris. Speaking of Chris, he dragged me to the couch and made me sit on his lap. I giggled a bit and kissed his cheek. I could feel CC's eyes on me. I tried to shrug the feeling of his eyes boring into the back of my head, but it was uncomfortable, so I just sat inbetween Chris' legs on the floor. He stroked my hair for a while while we all talked. This night ended up ending in a disaster.

"That feels nice Chris." I said to him. He was still stroking my hair.

"That fucking asshole. Just walks in like he owns the place." I heard CC whisper to Andy. They were a seat away from us, and I think Chris heard it too.

"What did you say?" Chris asked CC.

"Nothing." CC said quickly.

"You are such a fucking liar, CC." I said," if you have a problem with my boyfriend, say it now."

"Okay. He's a fucking smart ass. Every question, statement, or comment we say, he throws out some smart ass remark. You're the only ones who find it funny." CC said. My mouth dropped. I walked over to CC and slapped him. I grabbed Chris by the arm and walked out of the house. We walked down the street in silence and we reached an empty clearing with a single oak tree standing there. I always came here when I was mad or upset. I sat down under the tree and layed back into the grass. Chris layed down next to me and we intertwined our fingers together. All of a sudden, I was crying.

"Baby, what's wrong?" Chris asked.

"It's just, CC has never done something like that before, and it just... it upset me. It wasn't a nice thing to do to you. I'm so sorry about that." I said.

"It's okay baby. I don't mind." Chris said. He kissed me and we ended up making out. He was on top of me and we continued for a while until we were quite rudely interrupted by Ashley.

"Oh.. Sorry. Didn't know you guys would be sucking face." Ashley said. Chris rolled off of me.

"Really Ashley!! Can't we have any fucking privacy!? Tell Jinxx to leave me alone!" I screamed. Ashley looked taken aback and then walked away. I just leaned up against the tree.

"They really must not like you." I said. Chris just looked at me before speaking.
"Look, babe, I actually wanted to do this tonight." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"Stand up." I did.

"Destiny," Chris said getting on one knee," I'm breaking up with you."

"What? You have to be fucking kidding me." I said.

"Nope. I found someone so much better than you." Chris said. I couldn't take this, so I slapped Chris and stormed back home with tears spilling out of my eyes. I didn't care what anyone would say when I got there. I wasn't in the mood. I walked inside and five pairs of eyes met mine. Jessica had left earlier. CC walked up to me.

"Des-"

"SAVE IT CC. I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE YOU DID THAT! FUCK OFF! ALL OF YOU. DON'T FUCKING BOTHER ME!" I yelled making my way to my room. I slammed the door and slid to the floor, with my back against it. I sat there in the dark crying to myself. I was a loud crier, so of course everyone knew I was crying. Jinxx pounded on my door, and Andy threatened to kick it open, but still I didn't move.

"Destiny Ferguson!! Open this fucking door!!" Jinxx yelled. I ignored him and continued to cry. I quietly dragged my nightstand along the carpet and placed it in front of the door. Then I put my desk chair inbetween my dresser and the nightstand and made sure it was stuck there good. Then I sat on my bed and cried myself to sleep. I wasn't planning on coming out of my room, so the next morning I grabbed my phone and deleted Chris' number. Jinxx had tried calling me, but I didn't pick it up. Then he sent a text. I read it, but didn't respond. It asked what was wrong and that I needed to get ready for school. Fuck school. Fuck life. Fuck everyone. When the time came for school, Jinxx came up and knocked on my door.

"Destiny, get the fuck up and get ready for school. You're acting like a god damn child." Jinxx said. I ignored him once more. I layed there sniffling and not doing anything.

"Destiny, get up. Please. You're making us worry." Ashley said.

"Go away Purdy. I don't fucking give a single shit. Just let me die in here. I might make the process faster." I said.

"Destiny. Don't" Ashley said. Then he walked away, but I heard footsteps a minute later and then boom, the top half of my door fell in.

"What the fuck?" Andy said.

"It's called having shit blocking the door dumbass. Leave me alone." I said. Then Jinxx was lifted into my room. He walked over to me and sat down. I just glared at all of them.

"Tell me what the fuck happened Destiny. Now." Jinxx demanded.

"Leave me alone." I said.

"DESTINY MICHELLE FERGUSON!! Right now." Jinxx yelled. Fuck the middle name. I didn't care.

"Why do you want to know so bad, Jeremy." I said," you're not my fucking father, and you're not my fucking brother. You're my cousin. Just leave me the fuck alone." I said.

"No." He said, then he picked me up and slung me over his shoulder. Then I was passed to Andy who took me to the living room where CC was. God damnit.

"PUT ME DOWN MOTHERFUCKER!" I yelled. Andy put me down and glared at me.

"What the fuck was that?" He asked.

"I said, put me down. Motherfucker." I said slowly. He glared harder, even though I don't think that's possible.

"You'll regret that, bitch." Andy said. Wow. Shit got real.

"Excuse me? If I'm a bitch, you must be a dick sucking douche." I said. Then Andy slapped me in the face as hard as he could, which sent tears spilling out of my eyes. I looked at him for a minute, then ran into the bathroom holding my face. Then I heard yelling.
"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO!??"

"I DIDN'T MEAN TO! FUCK IT JUST HAPPENED!"

"IT JUS-"

"NO! FUCKING STOP! I'M TIRED OF THIS!" I yelled walking out of the bathroom with tears still falling. Jinxx looked at me and then my face. He sent a glare my way and started laughing along with Ashley at something. Feel the love? Cause I sure as hell don't. I felt weak, and I just fell to floor and cried. No one made a move to pick me up or even talk to me, except CC. He picked me up and placed me on the couch.

"Do you not care that your cousin is bawling her eyes out right now? Do none of you care that she has feelings too? And Andy, do you not care that you just fucking slapped a girl in the face? A fucking GIRL ANDY!!" CC yelled. I looked up and wiped my eyes. CC turned back to me and hugged me with all his might, which only made me cry harder.

"CC.. please, let go. I can't breathe." I said. CC let go and wiped the tears from my face. Then he kissed my cheek where Andy slapped it. I wrapped my arms around his neck and we just hugged. No one else made a move to say 'I'm sorry'. They all just sat there and stared at me and CC. Then CC made me wrap my legs around his waist and he carried me to my room. He set me on my bed gently.

"Can you tell me what happened last night?" CC asked. I nodded a little and a slight smile played on his lips.

"Umm.. Chris.. He broke up with me." I said. CC looked at me sadly.

"I'm sorry hun. For everyone and everything." CC said. He took me into a hug again.

"It's okay CC. Chris is just... it's difficult CC. He was my first boyfriend, and I gave him everything I had, knowing full well he could crush it, and he did last night. I feel so fucking stupid. I don't feel like I should be here. My parents are never home anymore. I've forgotten what they look like CC. This is just... I don't even know. I don't deserve anything good that's happened to me. He said he found someone so much better than me, and that hurt like hell. I don't know what to do anymore. I've lost the will to live happily." I said. CC rubbed my back and held me tighter.

"You'll get through this Des. I know you will. I'll be here with you every step of the way. Don't worry." CC said.

"Thanks CC. You're an amazing person, you know that right?" I asked.

"I guess so. According to you." CC said.

"I don't want to continue school CC. I want to spend every day with you." I said.

" Destiny, I need to tell you something." CC said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"I... I love you. Not like a friend, but more than that." CC said. I pulled out of the hug and looked CC in the eye.

"CC, right now isn't the best time. I just got out of a four year relationship. I need time." I said.

"I know. Just thought I'd let you know." CC said, then he kissed my cheek and left the room, climbing over the bottom part of the door. I moved the stuff and then opened the door the rest of the way and walked down to the living room. It looked like the guys were leaving. No. They can't leave me here alone.

"What are you guys doing? You can't just leave me here alone." I said walking over.

"I know, but we need to leave for the rest of the tour." Jinxx said.
"Come with us." CC said. I smiled.

"Okay... can I?" I asked. Jinxx smiled and nodded. I ran upstairs and quickly packed a backpack full of clothes. I never wore makeup, so I didn't grab any. I rushed out to the bus only to find it gone. What the hell? Was I their toy?
"Are you fucking serious?" I asked myself.

"I said I'd stay with you... remember?" CC asked. I turned around to him and hugged him.

"But, you need to finish Warped Tour." I said.

"Nope. I said that I'm feeling sick and that for the next final two weeks of the tour, they'd get my drum tech to do it for me." He said. I smiled. He really did love me.

Notes

Second chapter lovelies!!