This Is Our Sweet Blasphemy
Fourteen
(DESTINY)
After laying with CC for a while, I got dressed and kissed his cheek and left the bunk area. I walked out to the lounge where the others looked kinda pissed. They all glared at me.
"Next time, if you were quieter." Jinxx said.
"I'm sorry guys." I said.
"It's okay. Just quieter next time please." Jinxx said.
"Okay." I said.
"Come sit." Jinxx said. I sat next to him and then CC walked out. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and turned my face to his and kissed me. He then walked into the kitchen and came out with a water bottle. He sat next to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. Then Jon came in with some not so great news.
"Hey guys.. Well, I have some news." Jon said. We all gave our attention to him.
"We won't be attending Warped Tour." He said.
"WHAT!! THAT IS BULLSHIT!" CC yelled.
"CC, calm down." I said.
"How can I calm down!? I was looking forward to Warped!!" CC yelled. Jon left.
"There are always other tours!! Don't worry!"i said.
"Next thing I know you're telling me there are always other girls out there." CC said. The guys gasped behind me and I stared at CC with shock.
"Excuse me!?" I asked.
"You heard me." CC said.
"Why in the actual fuck would I ever say that to you!? I'm not breaking up with you! You mean everything to me, Christian!" I yelled.
"That's not what I meant." CC said.
"Bullshit, CC. Why would you ever say that to me? You're my world!" I said. I sat down and it was silent.
"Destiny." CC said.
"I need some air. I'll be outside if anyone needs me." I said. I stood up and walked outside. I leaned against the bus for awhile. CC came out ten minutes later.
"Destiny, I'm sorry." CC said. He pulled me in for a hug.
"It's okay CC. It's just when you said that I just felt like I'm dating you for nothing." I said. I pulled away and looked at him. He smiled warmly.
"I love you, Destiny." CC said.
"W-What?" I asked.
"I love you, Destiny." CC repeated.
"I love you too, CC." I said. I smiled and he pulled me in and kissed me. He pulled away and opened the bus door for me. I walked in and he closed it behind him.
"You guys okay now?" Jinxx asked.
"Yeah Jinxx. We're okay." I said. I sat back down on the couch next to CC, reclaiming our earlier position. The day was very uneventful, until around nine pm after the guys left for the bar. I was reading a very boring book when the door opened. No one walked in though. The door closed right after it opened. I was curious, so I set my book down and walked out the door. I didn't see anyone, so I went around the bus and saw something that made my eyes tear up.
CC was kissing another girl.
I gasped and then quickly walked away. I heard the guys coming, so I got back in the bus and resumed sitting on the couch, but I was crying and staring at the floor. CC had a bag on his arm though. Jinxx walked in, followed by Andy, Ashley, and Jake. They were all surprisingly sober. Jinxx saw me and sat next to me.
"Destiny, what's wrong?" Jinxx asked.
"Nothing." I said.
"Yes there is. What's up?" He asked.
"Nothing just drop it. I'm fine." I said.
"Are you sure?" Ashley asked. I looked up at him and nodded, then continued to stare at the ground inbetween my feet. CC walked in and over to me and he kneeled in front of me, reaching into the bag he had. He pulled out a little black velvet box and held it in front of him.
"I love you, Destiny. Will you marry me?" CC asked, opening the box, revealing a beautiful engagement ring.
"No CC. I will not marry you." I said.
"Wait, what?" He said as the others gasped.
"I said no, Christian." I said.
"Why?" He asked.
"You should know!!" I yelled. A hint of guilt crossed over his features, and he knew I caught him
"Destiny, what did he do?" Jinxx asked.
"I- I caught him kissing another girl." I said.
"WHAT!?" Jinxx asked.
"I'm sorry!!" CC said.
"Sorry isn't gonna cut it, Christian. We're fucking done." I said. I pushed past him and into the bunk area, where I crawled into my bunk. I was crying, hard. I heard Jinxx yelling at CC, and then I heard footsteps. Those footsteps opened the curtains on my bunk. It was Jake. I stood up and hugged him, i needed one right now. He hugged back while I sobbed into him. I pulled away and grabbed my iPod.
"Let's go outside. i feel like you need some air." Jake said. I nodded and followed him while I turned on music. We sat outside for a while in silence while I listened to my music and cried. Then a song came on that didn't make me feel much better, but I started to sing it anyway. It was I'm With You by Avril Lavigne.
I'm standing ona bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It'sa damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... in with you
I'm with you
Im looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Oh why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah-he-yeah, yeah-he-yeah, yeah-he yeah, yeah-he-yeah, yeah!
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
I finished off the song and looked at Jake, who was sadly smiling at me. I felt some more tears fall and I stood up and walked inside. Jinxx's screaming match was over and CC was no where in sight. I only had the four guys left. My other family was in different states. CC fucked up big time. I gave Jinxx a hug and put my right earbud back in, turning the volume up on my iPod as I crawled back into bed. We were almost at my house, where we all would be staying. We'd be arriving tomorrow, and I couldn't wait to get off this bunk and back to my room.
After laying with CC for a while, I got dressed and kissed his cheek and left the bunk area. I walked out to the lounge where the others looked kinda pissed. They all glared at me.
"Next time, if you were quieter." Jinxx said.
"I'm sorry guys." I said.
"It's okay. Just quieter next time please." Jinxx said.
"Okay." I said.
"Come sit." Jinxx said. I sat next to him and then CC walked out. He wrapped his arms around me from behind and turned my face to his and kissed me. He then walked into the kitchen and came out with a water bottle. He sat next to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. Then Jon came in with some not so great news.
"Hey guys.. Well, I have some news." Jon said. We all gave our attention to him.
"We won't be attending Warped Tour." He said.
"WHAT!! THAT IS BULLSHIT!" CC yelled.
"CC, calm down." I said.
"How can I calm down!? I was looking forward to Warped!!" CC yelled. Jon left.
"There are always other tours!! Don't worry!"i said.
"Next thing I know you're telling me there are always other girls out there." CC said. The guys gasped behind me and I stared at CC with shock.
"Excuse me!?" I asked.
"You heard me." CC said.
"Why in the actual fuck would I ever say that to you!? I'm not breaking up with you! You mean everything to me, Christian!" I yelled.
"That's not what I meant." CC said.
"Bullshit, CC. Why would you ever say that to me? You're my world!" I said. I sat down and it was silent.
"Destiny." CC said.
"I need some air. I'll be outside if anyone needs me." I said. I stood up and walked outside. I leaned against the bus for awhile. CC came out ten minutes later.
"Destiny, I'm sorry." CC said. He pulled me in for a hug.
"It's okay CC. It's just when you said that I just felt like I'm dating you for nothing." I said. I pulled away and looked at him. He smiled warmly.
"I love you, Destiny." CC said.
"W-What?" I asked.
"I love you, Destiny." CC repeated.
"I love you too, CC." I said. I smiled and he pulled me in and kissed me. He pulled away and opened the bus door for me. I walked in and he closed it behind him.
"You guys okay now?" Jinxx asked.
"Yeah Jinxx. We're okay." I said. I sat back down on the couch next to CC, reclaiming our earlier position. The day was very uneventful, until around nine pm after the guys left for the bar. I was reading a very boring book when the door opened. No one walked in though. The door closed right after it opened. I was curious, so I set my book down and walked out the door. I didn't see anyone, so I went around the bus and saw something that made my eyes tear up.
CC was kissing another girl.
I gasped and then quickly walked away. I heard the guys coming, so I got back in the bus and resumed sitting on the couch, but I was crying and staring at the floor. CC had a bag on his arm though. Jinxx walked in, followed by Andy, Ashley, and Jake. They were all surprisingly sober. Jinxx saw me and sat next to me.
"Destiny, what's wrong?" Jinxx asked.
"Nothing." I said.
"Yes there is. What's up?" He asked.
"Nothing just drop it. I'm fine." I said.
"Are you sure?" Ashley asked. I looked up at him and nodded, then continued to stare at the ground inbetween my feet. CC walked in and over to me and he kneeled in front of me, reaching into the bag he had. He pulled out a little black velvet box and held it in front of him.
"I love you, Destiny. Will you marry me?" CC asked, opening the box, revealing a beautiful engagement ring.
"No CC. I will not marry you." I said.
"Wait, what?" He said as the others gasped.
"I said no, Christian." I said.
"Why?" He asked.
"You should know!!" I yelled. A hint of guilt crossed over his features, and he knew I caught him
"Destiny, what did he do?" Jinxx asked.
"I- I caught him kissing another girl." I said.
"WHAT!?" Jinxx asked.
"I'm sorry!!" CC said.
"Sorry isn't gonna cut it, Christian. We're fucking done." I said. I pushed past him and into the bunk area, where I crawled into my bunk. I was crying, hard. I heard Jinxx yelling at CC, and then I heard footsteps. Those footsteps opened the curtains on my bunk. It was Jake. I stood up and hugged him, i needed one right now. He hugged back while I sobbed into him. I pulled away and grabbed my iPod.
"Let's go outside. i feel like you need some air." Jake said. I nodded and followed him while I turned on music. We sat outside for a while in silence while I listened to my music and cried. Then a song came on that didn't make me feel much better, but I started to sing it anyway. It was I'm With You by Avril Lavigne.
I'm standing ona bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It'sa damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... in with you
I'm with you
Im looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
'Cause nothing's going right
And everything's a mess
And no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Oh why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yeah-he-yeah, yeah-he-yeah, yeah-he yeah, yeah-he-yeah, yeah!
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand?
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
I finished off the song and looked at Jake, who was sadly smiling at me. I felt some more tears fall and I stood up and walked inside. Jinxx's screaming match was over and CC was no where in sight. I only had the four guys left. My other family was in different states. CC fucked up big time. I gave Jinxx a hug and put my right earbud back in, turning the volume up on my iPod as I crawled back into bed. We were almost at my house, where we all would be staying. We'd be arriving tomorrow, and I couldn't wait to get off this bunk and back to my room.
@mrs.purdy
Ill think about it haha
1/22/15