My alarm clock went off making me wake up quickly. I sat and up and looked around, It was still dark outside but i could lightly see snow falling.

That explains why it's freezing in here.

I turned my head towards the clock that read 3am, Too damn early.

I had to get up and drive the guys to the airport before school. They were leaving today and I wasn't too excited. I really loved having them here, especially jake ,I barely see him any more, but I know he's living his dream so I had to deal with it.

We spent the last 4 days hanging at the house doing nothing really, i got my license, but thats basically it.

Throughout the 4 days no matter what i did I couldn't get that day with Ashley out of my head, he hasn't mentioned it so I hadn't either. I just need to forget it, but I can't, every day my feelings grow for him and it kills me even more knowing I don't stand a chance.

I shook my head and dragged myself out of my warm bed and stumbled out of my room towards the bathroom still groggy.

I went to open the door when another body collide with mine making me fall backwards.

Before i had time to react they grabbed my arm and yanked me back up before I hit the floor.

My eyes were still closed shut and my breathing was heavy as I was still pressed against one of the guys I assumed probably jake or something.

B I opened my eyes slowly and my breath caught in my throat as my hazel eyes instantly opened in front of those chocolate brown ones that made my knees weak everytime.

" wooh you okay?" ash asked starring at me.

" ye-ah" I nodded shakily stepping out of his grip turning and going in the bathroom still breathing heavy.

Damnit.

So much for forgetting about it.

I went back into my room and locked the door so I could get dressed without anyone barging in. I put on black skinny jeans and a outlaw hoodie that ash gave to me last year for Christmas.

Again my stomach ached with butterflies just at the thought of him.

I brushed my hair and sighed looking in the mirror.

Why hasn't he said anything ?Why can't I stop thinking about it? I groaned and rubbed my face before turning away from the mirror and searching for shoes.

I slipped on my black vans and grabbed my old beat up backpack before I left my room and Made my way through the dark hallway and down the stairs where the guys were sitting on their phones.

" ready?" I asked and they all looked up sadly.

I avoided Ashley's gase as I walked in the living room.

"No" jake said and I laughed sadly before walking to him and hugging his waist breathing in his scent

. He let out a breath and hugged me close.

" when will you be back?" I felt him sigh against me

" I don't know kid, we have a week break before we go on tour again. Well probably be in mass a date , so then, but I don't think I'll be able to see you on your birthday" I nodded sadly into his chest.

He's never been able to be home for a birthday except my 15th, 3 years ago. But I didn't mind much. I just wish he could be around more because he understands me the most.

He let go and kissed my forehead.

" I'll try though, but for now let's get going don't want to miss the flight"

" Yes we do" Andy said and I laughed turning to him.

He was smiling along with the others, damn I was going to miss them.

" let's go , your already getting me emotional" I said letting out a small chuckle before making my way to the front door picking my keys up on the way.

They all followed me out the door silently. I looked up as I walked down the dark driveway, snow covering my head in the process.

We got in my car, Ashley in the passenger side and the rest in the back. I yawned before turning on the car. I was so tired.

" you sure your okay to drive? Because ill drive so you can wake up a little if you want.." Ashley offered and I thought for a second before nodding quickly and getting out.

I heard them all chuckle as I made my way to the passenger seat and got in just as Ashley got in the drivers side smiling.

" thank you" I said putting my seatbelt on and he smiled putting it in gear and pulling out.

"No problem"

I fiddled with radio before finally putting in my a day to remember cd and going through the tracks

. " Jesus Christ Jess, your terrible when it comes to leaving a song on" Andy said

I glared at him before stopping at track 6. You had me at hello started playing and I smiled leaning back in the seat and looking out the window.

" done ?" Ashley asked an I laughed nodding

"Yes assholes" They laughed and it was silent for a few minutes until cc broke it.

" so your graduating soon how does it feel?" He asked and I groaned

" don't remind me"

"I thought you were excited to get out of , hmm what did you call it? Oh yes hell hole" jinxx said and I sighed fiddling with the console.

" I do it's just, moms bugging me about college, and I don't even want to go, id like a year to kind of think. I wanted to go somewhere, idk maybe move down to La and find somethig but she won't even listen"

" Jess, you don't have to listen to her,you turn 18 soon so it's your decision , your life ,mom doesn't control you, even if she gets upset you'll always have me behind you" jake said and I sighed leaning in the seat nodding.

I remained silent, another thing added to the list I was stressing about.

I felt a hand rub my shoulder and looked over seeing Ashley give me a reassuring smile

I smiled in return feeling my heart jump more. I just needed to forget this, I wish I could just forget this.

But I can't . I'm in love.

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We got to the airport too soon and I sighed out sadly . I didn't want then to go, I needed them.

" I know kid" andy said wrapping his arm around me as we walked into the airport towards security.

I looked around and saw Ashley ,jake , jinxx and cc all walking closely together whispering harshly mainly to Ashley. Wonder what that's about?

I shook my head focusing on walking forward as we made the long boring journey through security, I was aloud to walk to the gate as long I went through security , so I could sit with them until the plane left.

It took 15 minutes to get through it and by the time we got to the gate the plane was about to board.

We stopped and jake turned to me grabbing me in a hug and squeezing me tight.

" I'm going to miss you " I said into his chest " I'll miss you too but remember, I'm a phone call away, we all are , at least text me a few times a week or more just so I know your Doing okay,got it?" He asked pulling back

I nodded and he kissed my cheek before letting go and Stepping back in time for Andy to grab me.

" be good okay? I'm gana miss my batman Movie partner" he said into my neck and I laughed letting to and kissing his cheek

" I'l miss you too" He smiled letting go and cc grabbed me squeezing me tight

" remember what we promised, you can't do it anymore , I will find out and tell jake got it?" He whispered in my ear and I nodded against his chest making his squeeze me one last time before letting go.

" call me , or any one of us if anything happens okay?" He asked again and I nodded causing a smile to stretch across his face.

Jinxx grabbed me next and I smiled against his chest.

" I'm sure cc already said this but please don't do anything stupid , call us okay?" He whispered and I nodded against his chest. He let go and kissed my cheek.

" love you Jess ,ill miss you"

" I'll miss you too jinxx" I said and he smiled. I looked over and the plane was just being boarded

" we'll start going on while ash and you say goodbye ok?" Jake asked and I nodded , why weren't they waiting?

Jake gave me one last kiss on the head before they walked to the gate leaving me and Ashley standing there.

He grabbed me in a hug and I melted into him smelling his familiar scent.

" I really don't want to leave you" he said and I felt a rush of blood flow to me cheeks making me blush.

" I don't want you to leave" He pulled away and smiled moving my hair out of my face.

He stared at me for a few seconds and it looked like he was going to say something but he closed his mouth shaking his head and kissing my head.

" bye Jess" he said quickly before walking towards the terminal.

I let a small tear escape down my cheek. Why was I going to miss him so much?

Why didn't I tell him how I felt?

I shook my head after I realize I was standing in the middle of the airport with tears falling freely down my face. I quickly turned around and started walking to the exit.

This was going to suck.

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Ashley's pov:

I walked towards the gate where the guys were standing obviously waiting for me to tell them how it went.

It went terrible, why didn't I just kiss her? Why is it so damn hard?

I got to them and jake smiled

" did you do it?" He asked hopefully and I sighed shaking my head.

" no I chickened out.."

" Ashley! You understand you may never get a chance with her now right?" Andy exclaimed and I groaned

" I know b-"

" do it, now" jinxx said and I looked at him

" what? But we need to get on-"

" damnit ash, do it , now! Well make sure we don't go with out you, just, now!" Cc groaned and I looked at them frozen.

Jake gave me a shove and I instantly took off from the gate looking for Jess.They were right I had to do this.

I had a lump in my throat as I searched the crowd, she couldn't have gone too far.

I hope.

I spotted her just starting to walk away from where we said goodbye and instantly took off crashing through people trying to get to her.

My heart beated faster and faster the closer I got. This was my final chance.

Once I got about 4 feet away I reached out and grabbed her arm pulling it back making her twist around.

Before I had time to think I pressed my lips against hers stopping and placing one hand on her cheek and the other around her waist pulling her close to me.

I felt her freeze for a second and she didn't kiss back. Shit I probably just made a huge mistake.

I started to pull away when She grabbed my arm pulling me back and moved her lips move against mine. I smiled into the kiss and kissed her back harder before we pulled apart breathless.

She looked up at me shock written all over her as she breathed out.

" ash-"

" shh, let me talk , we don't have long okay?" I rushed out and she nodded

I breathed out looking at her face and smiled

" fuck Jess, I've wanted to do that for so long you have no idea, Jess I care about you so much,I was going to tell you sooner but I was too scared, I really like you, you amazing and damnit , Jessica, I think I'm in love with you" I babbled out quickly and watched as she froze.

I felt my heart beat fast, as the silence grew longer. " please say something.." I begged and I saw her smile a little as she looked up at me.

" I think I'm I love with you too.." She finally got out and I felt my lips pull into a smile.

" I'm so sorry for not telling you sooner , and I know I don't have a lot of time but Jess, please, give me a chance? Would you be my girlfriend?" I asked and she smiled widely

"Of course " I smiled wider and crashed my lips on hers again. I felt sparks fly through me and the intensity made my happier each second.

The kiss was cut off by the loud speaker.

" flight 102 to La final call for boarding"

I looked down at her and pulled her into a hug

" I'm so sorry that I'm doing this and then leaving but I promise ill be back as soon as I can okay?" She nodded Into me and pulled away.

" I'll call you when we land okay?" She nodded and I hugged her closely and giving her one last kiss on the lips.

" drive safe , I love you" She smiled up at me and kissed my cheek.

"I love you too now go or you'll miss the plane"

I nodded and turned around walking quickly to the gate and handing the attendee my ticket. I looked back one last time seeing Jess standing there smiling. I smiled back and walked on the plane feeling the happiest I've ever been in awhile.

As I walked on I couldn't stop the grin spreading across my face.

I actually did it.