I am Jessica Pitts.
My backs against the wall
I was finally asleep when I woke up to a loud yell. Oh god they're playing video games again. I checked the time to see it was midnight , considering I had to be up in 5 hours I was not happy.
I wrapped my blanket around me and moved down the hall to jakes room. I opened the door and groaned at the light. CC and jake were on his bed with controllers while the others watched.
" can you keep it down you woke me up" i said and they paused the game
" sorry" jake said looking over at me.
" it's ok please just be quiet or ill kill you, either way works" I said closing the door hearing them laugh
" night grumpy!" CC yelled.i kicked the door laughing and walking back to my room.
I closed my door and jumped in my bed under the covers finally falling asleep.
My alarm clock woke me up at 5and I groaned. I got up and Grabbed clothes making my way to the bathroom that was next to my room. I stepped out of my room and heard the boys. How the hell are they up.
I walked to jakes room and peeled my head in .
" how the hell are you up ?" I asked and they laughed
" tour " jake said and I nodded
" okay then" I said walking out the door and to the bathroom.
I took a quick shower and put on red skinny jeans with a blak veil brides shirt. I blow dried my hair and straightened it. I put a thin line a eye liner and opened the door.
I walked in my room and put my pajamas in the corner and grabbed my batman hat turning it backwards on my head.
I put my shoes on and then my grenade necklace. I cod hear the boys go downstairs loudly and sighed. My parents already left for work and won't come back till 6 like always they took the day off yesterday to see the boys.
I got my iPhone and head phones snaking them up my shirt and letting them hang. I picked up my backpack and walked out my door down the hall. I went down te stairs which went directly in the living room and saw the guys.
" mornig" Ashley said
" morning" I grumbled throwing my bag on the couch next to CC and sitting on the floor in front of them.
" someone's tired" Andy said chuckling
" yeah because of you guys" I said and they laughed
" oh don't be a baby" jake said and I stuck my tounge out
" you need a ride to school?" Jinxx asked and I shook my head
" no Tyler brings me " I said and they nodded
" I forgot he's a year older" Andy said
and i nodded when all of the sudden I heard beeping outside. I chuckled
" he's here" I said grabbing my bag. The guys each hugged me.
" be safe!" Jinxx yelled
" kick some ass" Ashley said
I laughed
" ill do my best" I said walking out into the dining room and out the door.
I got in the passenger side and he leaned over and kissed my lips.
" mornig babe" he said kind of dryly. I brushed it off he's probably tired.
" morning" I said smiling
He pulled out of the driveway and down the road.
" I have a dentist appointment after school so can you take the bus home?" He asked driving down the road
" yeah sure that's fine" I said I swore he just had one. I'm probably just going crazy.
He pulled in and got out and walked the other way without a goodbye.
What the hell is with him.
I walked towards the building dreading what was going to happen.
" look the fags back" Carlie shouted shoving me in the lockers. My head slammed against it and I grabbed it pushing myself up.
" leave me alone" I said looking at her
She punched me and my head hung to the side.
She spit at me and walked away.
Where the fuck was Tyler?
The day went by with the many encounters and I decide to walk home to clear my head.It was Only a 10 minute walk so it wasn't that bad.
I walked towards the parking lot with my headphones in when i looked up and stopped dead in my tracks. Tyler was leaning against his car making out with Carlie. She saw me and smiled waving alittle.
Tears poured down my face and I ran down the street . My heart was beating fast and it felt like I was going to throw up. Why would he do that . After 5 minutes I slowed my past nearing the house .My headphones were still in my ear and the tears kept falling fast from my eyes.
'Lying piece of shit 'I muttered
I can't believe he did that. My head was clouded and my heart pounded faster each step I took.
I finally got to my house about to brake down. I ran up the steps and threw the door open I heard the guys in the living room laughing.I threw my bag against the wall and ran into the living room.
" hey Jess -wait what's wrong?" Jinxx asked .I stopped the tears falling faster .I just shook my head ran up the stairs. I didn't want to talk .
I ran to my room hearing footsteps behind me .I slammed the door and locked it behind me.I looked at my desk and took the picture of me and Tyler kissing.
" fucking bitch" I yelled throwing it to the wall it shattered and I fell to the floor against the wall next to it burying my head in my knees.
I knew it was too good to be true
The door wiggled
" go away" I said the best I could through my sobs
"Come on what happened" I heard CC yell shaking the door again.
I didn't asnswere. I looked at the glass. It could all be done. I shook the thought away. I clawed at my head.
" fuck" I muttered the door jiggled again
" come on let us in talk to us" Ashley yelled
" just fuck off!" I yelled back choking on my words.
The door bursted open and the guys saw me On the floor.
Jake came over and picked me up bringing me to the bed.
He put his arm around me and jinxx sat next to me. I kept my gaze at the floor.
" what happened" jake asked
" he- he cheated" I said
" what?" Ashley asked shocked
" I knew he didn't like me he was uh kissing carlie after school" I said
" son of a bitch" Andy said and I cried harder
" shh shh it's okay" jake said wrapping around me.
" no it's not" I said standing up. They looked at me.
" can't you see? Everyone fucking hates me they always leave !" I screamed kicking the wall
" that's not true" I felt someone's hand on my shoulder
I turned around and Ashley was standing behind me
" come here" he said opening his arms and pulling me in a hug. He was always the one who could comfort me best besides jake.
" they're just assholes so is he dont lose hope in yourself your amazing" he said into my kneck.
They others agreed just then the door bell rang
" I got it" jake said running down the stairs.ashley let go and wiped my eyes.
We heard yelling and they jumped up running down the stairs.
i followed slowly the yelling grew louder as I walked into the kitchen towards the front door.
" what the fuck do you want" jake yelled. I walked in and saw Tyler standing in the doorway .
I stood next to jake.
" I need to talk to Jess" he said stepping in. Jake backed me up alittle bringing me closer to him.
" I'm listening" I said and he looked at the guys
" alone"
" no" Andy said
" fine"he sighed
" I don't want your apologies" I said he laughed
" good you weren't gettin one" he spat walking to me.
" I was just coming to say it's over" he said
" it already was" I spat
" when were you going to tell me?" I asked
" we'll I was going to do it tomorrow at lunch but this worked out"
" why ? Why the hell did you do this to me" i asked and he smirked
" because"
" because why?!" I screamed
" alright you want to know? I never loved you it was all a prank, I was dared to ask you out 6 months ago and get close so you would tell me all your pathetic secrets I've been dating Carlie this whole time you've ment noting to me nothing at all"
I went to slap him but he grabbed my hand and slapped me with the other. I stumbled back and felt someone grab me from behind as I saw jake jump on him.
" jake!" I screamed as he punched Tyler. Andy ran over and got jake off while Ashley was standing next to them. Cc came beside me and jinxx was holding me.
Tyler stood up and this time Ashley punched him.
Tyler went to hit back but Ashley shoved him to the wall.
" you fucking touch her again I swear to god ill fucking kill you" he snarled and shoved him out the door.
They turned to me and jake took my face in his hands
" are you okay?" He asked and I nodded slowly tears falling down my face. He grabbed me from jinxx and hugged me.
" I can't believe he fucking slapped you" cc said and I nodded.
" it's not the first time.." I mumbled and I saw them grow angry.
" that fucking-" Ashley went to go to the door but Andy grabbed him.
" calm down ash" he said and Ashley sighed walking to me. He touched my face.
" I'm so sorry jessy" he said hugging me.
My mind was on overdrive at this point.
" I'm going to my room" I said and turned but cc grabbed my wrist.
" Jess-"
I grabbed my hand away and ran up the stairs slamming my door. I locked it and slid down my wall.
My heart felt shattered, all a fucking prank, I trusted him with my secrets , everything.
I got up and rummaged through my drawer until I found what I needed. I sat against the wall and took the cool blade in my fingers and made jagged lines in my wrist. I dropped it and leaned against the wall breathing heavy.
I had officially cracked.
I wrapped my blanket around me and moved down the hall to jakes room. I opened the door and groaned at the light. CC and jake were on his bed with controllers while the others watched.
" can you keep it down you woke me up" i said and they paused the game
" sorry" jake said looking over at me.
" it's ok please just be quiet or ill kill you, either way works" I said closing the door hearing them laugh
" night grumpy!" CC yelled.i kicked the door laughing and walking back to my room.
I closed my door and jumped in my bed under the covers finally falling asleep.
My alarm clock woke me up at 5and I groaned. I got up and Grabbed clothes making my way to the bathroom that was next to my room. I stepped out of my room and heard the boys. How the hell are they up.
I walked to jakes room and peeled my head in .
" how the hell are you up ?" I asked and they laughed
" tour " jake said and I nodded
" okay then" I said walking out the door and to the bathroom.
I took a quick shower and put on red skinny jeans with a blak veil brides shirt. I blow dried my hair and straightened it. I put a thin line a eye liner and opened the door.
I walked in my room and put my pajamas in the corner and grabbed my batman hat turning it backwards on my head.
I put my shoes on and then my grenade necklace. I cod hear the boys go downstairs loudly and sighed. My parents already left for work and won't come back till 6 like always they took the day off yesterday to see the boys.
I got my iPhone and head phones snaking them up my shirt and letting them hang. I picked up my backpack and walked out my door down the hall. I went down te stairs which went directly in the living room and saw the guys.
" mornig" Ashley said
" morning" I grumbled throwing my bag on the couch next to CC and sitting on the floor in front of them.
" someone's tired" Andy said chuckling
" yeah because of you guys" I said and they laughed
" oh don't be a baby" jake said and I stuck my tounge out
" you need a ride to school?" Jinxx asked and I shook my head
" no Tyler brings me " I said and they nodded
" I forgot he's a year older" Andy said
and i nodded when all of the sudden I heard beeping outside. I chuckled
" he's here" I said grabbing my bag. The guys each hugged me.
" be safe!" Jinxx yelled
" kick some ass" Ashley said
I laughed
" ill do my best" I said walking out into the dining room and out the door.
I got in the passenger side and he leaned over and kissed my lips.
" mornig babe" he said kind of dryly. I brushed it off he's probably tired.
" morning" I said smiling
He pulled out of the driveway and down the road.
" I have a dentist appointment after school so can you take the bus home?" He asked driving down the road
" yeah sure that's fine" I said I swore he just had one. I'm probably just going crazy.
He pulled in and got out and walked the other way without a goodbye.
What the hell is with him.
I walked towards the building dreading what was going to happen.
" look the fags back" Carlie shouted shoving me in the lockers. My head slammed against it and I grabbed it pushing myself up.
" leave me alone" I said looking at her
She punched me and my head hung to the side.
She spit at me and walked away.
Where the fuck was Tyler?
The day went by with the many encounters and I decide to walk home to clear my head.It was Only a 10 minute walk so it wasn't that bad.
I walked towards the parking lot with my headphones in when i looked up and stopped dead in my tracks. Tyler was leaning against his car making out with Carlie. She saw me and smiled waving alittle.
Tears poured down my face and I ran down the street . My heart was beating fast and it felt like I was going to throw up. Why would he do that . After 5 minutes I slowed my past nearing the house .My headphones were still in my ear and the tears kept falling fast from my eyes.
'Lying piece of shit 'I muttered
I can't believe he did that. My head was clouded and my heart pounded faster each step I took.
I finally got to my house about to brake down. I ran up the steps and threw the door open I heard the guys in the living room laughing.I threw my bag against the wall and ran into the living room.
" hey Jess -wait what's wrong?" Jinxx asked .I stopped the tears falling faster .I just shook my head ran up the stairs. I didn't want to talk .
I ran to my room hearing footsteps behind me .I slammed the door and locked it behind me.I looked at my desk and took the picture of me and Tyler kissing.
" fucking bitch" I yelled throwing it to the wall it shattered and I fell to the floor against the wall next to it burying my head in my knees.
I knew it was too good to be true
The door wiggled
" go away" I said the best I could through my sobs
"Come on what happened" I heard CC yell shaking the door again.
I didn't asnswere. I looked at the glass. It could all be done. I shook the thought away. I clawed at my head.
" fuck" I muttered the door jiggled again
" come on let us in talk to us" Ashley yelled
" just fuck off!" I yelled back choking on my words.
The door bursted open and the guys saw me On the floor.
Jake came over and picked me up bringing me to the bed.
He put his arm around me and jinxx sat next to me. I kept my gaze at the floor.
" what happened" jake asked
" he- he cheated" I said
" what?" Ashley asked shocked
" I knew he didn't like me he was uh kissing carlie after school" I said
" son of a bitch" Andy said and I cried harder
" shh shh it's okay" jake said wrapping around me.
" no it's not" I said standing up. They looked at me.
" can't you see? Everyone fucking hates me they always leave !" I screamed kicking the wall
" that's not true" I felt someone's hand on my shoulder
I turned around and Ashley was standing behind me
" come here" he said opening his arms and pulling me in a hug. He was always the one who could comfort me best besides jake.
" they're just assholes so is he dont lose hope in yourself your amazing" he said into my kneck.
They others agreed just then the door bell rang
" I got it" jake said running down the stairs.ashley let go and wiped my eyes.
We heard yelling and they jumped up running down the stairs.
i followed slowly the yelling grew louder as I walked into the kitchen towards the front door.
" what the fuck do you want" jake yelled. I walked in and saw Tyler standing in the doorway .
I stood next to jake.
" I need to talk to Jess" he said stepping in. Jake backed me up alittle bringing me closer to him.
" I'm listening" I said and he looked at the guys
" alone"
" no" Andy said
" fine"he sighed
" I don't want your apologies" I said he laughed
" good you weren't gettin one" he spat walking to me.
" I was just coming to say it's over" he said
" it already was" I spat
" when were you going to tell me?" I asked
" we'll I was going to do it tomorrow at lunch but this worked out"
" why ? Why the hell did you do this to me" i asked and he smirked
" because"
" because why?!" I screamed
" alright you want to know? I never loved you it was all a prank, I was dared to ask you out 6 months ago and get close so you would tell me all your pathetic secrets I've been dating Carlie this whole time you've ment noting to me nothing at all"
I went to slap him but he grabbed my hand and slapped me with the other. I stumbled back and felt someone grab me from behind as I saw jake jump on him.
" jake!" I screamed as he punched Tyler. Andy ran over and got jake off while Ashley was standing next to them. Cc came beside me and jinxx was holding me.
Tyler stood up and this time Ashley punched him.
Tyler went to hit back but Ashley shoved him to the wall.
" you fucking touch her again I swear to god ill fucking kill you" he snarled and shoved him out the door.
They turned to me and jake took my face in his hands
" are you okay?" He asked and I nodded slowly tears falling down my face. He grabbed me from jinxx and hugged me.
" I can't believe he fucking slapped you" cc said and I nodded.
" it's not the first time.." I mumbled and I saw them grow angry.
" that fucking-" Ashley went to go to the door but Andy grabbed him.
" calm down ash" he said and Ashley sighed walking to me. He touched my face.
" I'm so sorry jessy" he said hugging me.
My mind was on overdrive at this point.
" I'm going to my room" I said and turned but cc grabbed my wrist.
" Jess-"
I grabbed my hand away and ran up the stairs slamming my door. I locked it and slid down my wall.
My heart felt shattered, all a fucking prank, I trusted him with my secrets , everything.
I got up and rummaged through my drawer until I found what I needed. I sat against the wall and took the cool blade in my fingers and made jagged lines in my wrist. I dropped it and leaned against the wall breathing heavy.
I had officially cracked.
God this story is so good.
1/22/16