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I'm a Loaded Gun (Part 2)

Cut Me Open

Andy's POV
My eyes burned. Her words rang in my head. "it's over, enjoy Juliet" , that's not what I wanted! I wanted her...I wanted to make things right. My phone vibrated and my face instantly show down to the phone. Reya had...texted me? Oh shit, my fingers shook as I skid the read button. It was a picture. What could she possibly send me? She probably is flipping me off, I hope to god she's not making out with someone. I dropped me phone when the picture loaded. Tears burned as they began to pour from my eyes. I shrank back against the wall of the bus and fell down to the ground, back against the wall. I never wanted to see that picture again. She looked...broken...obliterated...her arm was covered in cuts. She told me she had stopped. Did she? Was this because of what I did or had she been doing this since we left? I was practically choking from the gasps in my chest. I heard someone rustle in their bunk.

I wiped my eyes and attempted to compose myself. My phone was on the floor in front of the bunk doors. A pair of black shocked feet pause right in front of the phone and a hand with black nails reached down to grab it. "Andy? Are you alright, man?" Jinxx asked. He carefully stepped over to me and squatted down next to me as he placed a hand in my shoulder. "Whoa, what happened? You look like hell."

"Reya...Reya," I choked "left me."
He dropped his head down, his long black hair dropped over his face. "Andy, what did you expect to happen? Did you expect her to instantly forgive you and say everything is rainbows and sunshine? You fucked up. You fucked up big time. You hurt her so badly. She was fragile when we got her and you were her only support. She gave you not only her body, but her mind, emotions, and heart. You broke her trust. You know Seth was cheating on her."
"I wasn't thinking, Jinxx! I-I know I fucked up, it's killing me on the inside. Now the tabloids are going fucking crazy talking about how appearnetly Juliet and I've been secretly dating for months."
Jinxx looked at my phone. His fingers began to unlock the screen. "Jinxx don't-"
His body froze and his eyes widened. "Andy...she...she d-didn't..."
"She did."

"Andy...this is...this is really fucking bad. You don't think she's going to...do anything else do you?"
"I don't know! I need to go see her but I have absolutely no idea where she is."
"Where who is?" Ashley said as he walked into the room. "Fuck man, what happened?" He laughed and grabbed the whiskey from a cabinet. He poured a shot and handed it to me. I gulped it, thankful for the numbing burn in my throat and stomach.
"Reya uh-she well..." Jinxx began. he stopped and made a motion with his hands as if breaker a twig in them. Ash's face fell. He glanced between me and Jinxx, obviously uncomfortable. He shook his head with an awkward look on his face.
"I'm...I'm sorry buddy."

Ashley can't really handle people being upset or crying. My sobs had quieted and was left with an empty...hollow feeling. I remember Reyas song. I felt Hollow. I felt...empty. It was like I used to...I guess rule the world in a way. It was like holding the key to heaven. But now? I feel like I've just lost everything. I feel just dead, broken with my back here against this wall. I stood above everything and I was completely blind to everything around me. Now I can see it all, but I feel like I can actually feel the cuts in my arm like her. I just want to figure this out. If I can't save her, who will? My mind had a momentary clear. Lost it All. The song I had struggled with in the studio. I knew exactly what to do with it now.

Reyas POV
I woke, my arm throbbed so badly. Squinting against the bright light flooding in my room I put my arm up. It's...bandaged? Why is it...Andy. Last night...last night was real? I pulled back the material, revealing the angry red slash marks on my arm. Damn...one, two...six marks. Six. I would end up with the same number as Andy's stage name. I refuse to cry again. I walked to my bathroom, where I cleaned and rebandaged my wounds. Everything just seemed...empty to even say the least. I thought I felt hollow before but this...this isn't pain I'm feeling. It's the exact opposite. I feel numb, like I can't feel anything at all. It's cold. I leave the bathroom and see my computer. I walk over and turn it on, going to my warped tour page, I canceled my tickets and had the money returned to my bank account. There's no sense in driving four hours to see it when I all that will happen is me being upset about Andy. I don't want it think about him. I don't want to see him. I want absolutely nothing to do with him.

Notes

Sorry this is going so slow guys, writers block again and I've been sooooo busy.
Make sure to check out my other two series.

Worth Fighting For- co written with It's A Shame Ain't It?
Fight for F.E.A.R. - solo written by me :) (about legion of the black)

Comments

Nice to see you back again sister keep it coming xx

loulvsya loulvsya
3/3/15

What. The fuck. Was that? WHAT WAS IT TELL ME OH MY GOD.
grr.

txke-me-dxncing txke-me-dxncing
1/27/15

Love it!

x-Katywa-BVB-x x-Katywa-BVB-x
12/31/14

Oh God that's awesome so evil but so funny

bvbchick99 bvbchick99
12/22/14

Omg thats awesome of Reya. He deserves it from not respecting their agreement lol!