The next few days were better. She hadn't seen Ben since that night. She had sobered up since then and stayed clean. But it was getting harder each day to fight it. The monster inside of her begged to be fed. She was going crazy without it. Her hands would start shaking and all she could do was sleep it off. But sleeping it off could only go so far. She could only sleep for so long.

Andy had said no more parties for a few weeks and Sophie didn't know how much longer she could take it. If this is what getting clean is like, she knew she didn't want to quit anytime soon.

She sat in the living room, debating with herself on if she should sneak a couple pills just to get the temptation off her back; but Jinxx waltzed in with a dreamy look on his face.

"Hey, Jinxx. What's up?" Sophie attempted to make small talk to get her mind off the pills in her bunk.

Jinxx sighed. "My beautiful wife is coming to stay with us for a few weeks!" He sat down on the couch next to Sophie.

"Sammi is coming?" Andy walked out and sat down on the other side of Sophie, putting his arm around her.

"I'm going to pick her up in an hour." Jinxx informed them.

"Why don't you take Sophie with you?" Andy suggested. "You could use some time outside. You haven't left the bus for almost a week. Whenever I go to ask you if you want to come to our set, you're always asleep." He stroked her long blonde hair and she rolled her blue eyes at him.

"I don't know, Andy..." She objected. "I--"

"Sammi would love to meet you. You girls can get acquainted on the way back to the venue and maybe hang out together. I think having her around will be good. Have some more estrogen around here."Jinxx encouraged her to go.

She didn't want to leave the bus because that meant the possibility of seeing Ben. It's not that she didn't want to see Ben. She was worried about what she would do if she did see him.

"Oh, alright." She finally agreed. "Let me go get decent looking."

"You're always beautiful, dollface." Andy called after her.

Once she had disappeared into the bathroom, Andy turned to see Jinxx wearing a mask of worry.

"What's wrong?" Andy questioned.

"I'm worried about her, Andy." Jinxx replied. Andy gave Jinxx a confused look and he continued. "Running away with Ben that night and coming back looking more than drunk? And I've woken up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and hear her crying. I'm really worried about her. Who knows what Ben did to her that night and who knows what she's doing in her bunk at night."

"She doesn't have cuts on her wrists." Andy defended. "She's not cutting. I don't want to believe that."

"She could be cutting in other places..." JInxx trailed off. "I think having Sammi around for a few weeks will be good. Maybe if they build a really good girlfriend relationship, Sophie will tell her something that she's too scared to tell you or any of us."

Andy thought for a minute, then nodded. "Yeah, you're probably right..."

The door hinges squeaked as she pushed the bathroom door open and walked down the hallway back towards Andy and Jinxx.

"You ready to go?" Jinxx asked.

"Yeah, I believe so." She said and reached up to tousle her hair a bit, causing her shirt to lift up and reveal her protruding hip bones and flat stomach.

Andy couldn't help but look and quickly regretted it when he saw exactly what he never wanted to see. All over her stomach, there were light scars. Her right hip had one long cut across it that looked new and her left hip was covered with a square piece of gauze, secured to her skin with medical tape. He averted his eyes before she could catch him staring.

She gave him a quick kiss on the cheek before leaving with Jinxx to go to the airport to get Sammi. Andy only hoped Sammi could get Sophie to confess something to her. Otherwise, he was going to have to risk everything and confront her himself.