Freedom in the Night
You're not alone
We reached the bottom of the stairs, and I swear to god I've never been so nervous in my life. Ever. Jinxx whispered in my ear "If they don't notice you, then you don't have to make yourself known, but if they speak to you or aknowledge you, you have to aknowledge them, kay?" I nodded. Jinxx still held my hand, and waalked me to the kitchen. All of the guys were sitting on the couches in the living room, and so we walked behind them, Please don't notice me please don't notice me please don't notice me. Then the inevitable happened. "Hey Audrey." Ashley spoke first. "Hi." Jinxx left me and walked into the kitchen. "Well aren't you a pretty thang?" CC jeerd. I giggled. "CC! Paws off my baby cousin!" Jinxx yelled from the kitchen. "Alright.." He sounded almost disappointed. "Well, at least come give your big brother a hug!" He stood up, and I walked over to him, and he gave me a bear hug. I smiled. Jake stood up next, "Hey.." and gave me an awkward hug. I didn't mind. Ashley invited me to come sit in between him and Andy. Andy turn to me. "Hi, I'm batman." and he shook my hand. I laughed and he pulled me into a hug. Jinx walked into the living room and handed me a glass of water and a piece of pizza. Don't you fucking eat it you fat cow. I put the pizza on the coffee table in front of me, and just sipped at the water. CC stood up and got pizza for everyone else, and they turned on the first Batman movie. "Audrey Miranda Ferguson." Jinxx glared at me. "What did I say?" I sighed and picked up the pizza, and picked at it. "Better." and he continued to eat his. Ashley spoke up. "Why what's wrong does she not like pizza?" he put hi hand on my forhead "Hon are you feeling okay?" I smiled and nodded. "Yeah I'm fine. Just tired and not all that hungry." Jinxx sighed from across the room. "Audrey..one piece. For me?" "Alright...for you." I ate it. And I hated every second of it. I got up to put my plate and glass away, and Andy stopped me. "I'll get that for you. Just sit." And I did. I pulled my knees into my chest, and curled into my little ball and started watching the movie. I laughed at all the right parts, but I felt nothing. I don't want to worry Jinxx, or give him any reason to be suspicous of me not eating or of long sleeves.
At some point I must've fallen asleep because I woke up in my bed the next morning. I wonder how I got here? I shook it off, and went into the bathroom to bush my teeth and to look half-presentable. I walked to my door to go out, but I hesitated. I checked my phone. 6:07 Damn swim practice schedule has me all fucked up. I went to my bed, and I made it, and sat. I took my hoodie off, to check my arms. "Holy fuck.." I whispered to myself. Deep, red, angry...infected. What am I gonna do? I can't tell Jinxx. He'll be angry. So will Sammi. And I don't trust the others enough to want to tell them. I ran to my bathroom and searched frantically for some kind of cleaning aid. I found rubbing alcohol, and I poured it all over my cuts. "MOTHER FUCK!" I scream because it hurt so badly.Oh shit I hope I didn't wake anyone up. I ran hot water over them, and then dried them with a dark blue towel. I heard a knock on my door. "Audrey?" I ran to the door and opened it, keeping my arm behind my back. It was CC. "You okay? I thought I heard you yelling." I started shaking. "Yeah I'm fine. I stubbed my toe on my dresser." He rubbed his eyes. "Alright darlin.." and turned to walk away. "Sorry CC.." and he went back to his room. Wow I feel like a first class bitch. I laid on my bed, and rubbed my arm. It looks really bad. Green puss coming out of the cuts, and red streaks coming away from the cuts. It's really bad. I put alcohol on them one more time, and then I found peroxide to run over them. I put on a longsleeved shirt, and a pair of shorts with lace. I listened to Saviour and Carolyn a few times to calm my nerves so Jinxx wouldn't suspect anything. I took our my ear buds, and then I just let myself go numb. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. Tears started streaming down my cheeks, and I couldn't stop them. A sob escaped my lips, and I buried my face in a pillow. I cried so hard my throat hurt. Why are you still crying you stupid bitch? Stop it. You're weak. Stop it right now. I Pressed on my arm, and twisted. I felt the blood coming out again, but it burns like hell. I pressed my hands into my eyes to stop the crying, but it didn't help. I couldn't stop. No matter how hard I tried. But it didn't matter, because I cried myself back to sleep..
I woke up, and checked my phone. 11:39. I went into the bathroom to clean my face. My arm was starting to hurt to move. I rolled up my blood crusted sleeve. "Oh fuck.." they had turned purple within 5 hours. I felt super nauseous. My knees hit the floor, and I saw that pizza again. I flushed the toilet and laid in the floor. The cold tile felt good on my face. I wiped the sweat out of my eyes, but everything was still blurry. I felt my stomach squeeze again, and all I could do was dry heave. There was nothing on my stomach to come out, so I just ended up dry heaving until my chest ached. I pulled myself off the floor, and brushed my teeth again, and put makeup on to hide the dark circles around my eyes. I brushed my hair, and walked out of the bathroom, to find none other than Jinxx sitting on my bed. He stood up, and walked over to me. "CC said you were up really early, and then he heard you coughing really hard or throwing up. Are you okay?" I nodded and tried to fake a smile. He put his hand on my forhead. "Oh baby you're burning up. Sit on the bed, I'll be right back." I sat on the bed, but ended up falling backwards. I laid there, waiting for Jinxx. My whole body ached. I've never physically hurt this bad before. I curled up into a ball, and I heard frantic footsteps coming in. "Audrey? Baby can you sit up for me?" it was Sammi. I looked up and saw her and Andy. She helped me sit up, and she rested my body against her. Andy put a thermometer in my mouth, and a hand on my forhead. Sammi kissed my hair, and I could tell she was kinda freaked out. The themometer beeped. "102.3. Well, you've definitely got a fever. How do you feel?" I groaned. "My head hurts and I've been really nauseous, and I just threw up." Andy patted my leg. "Sounds like a stomach bug. I can go get you some medicine, and then we can go from there. And you might want to change out ot that long sleeve shirt and into a tank top. Your body will get cooler. I know you'll be really cold because of your fever, but it'll help. Sammi she might be contagious so be careful. I'm goona go get some medicine for you Audrey, kay?" he rubbed my hair and then left. Sammi got up and went through my drawers to find a tank top. "Aw hon you have almost nothing. I'll take you shopping when you feel better, I'll be right back with a tank top." She ran out, and I crawled to my pillows, and shut my eyes and laid there. "So, what's the diagnosis from Dr. Batman?" Jinxx. Infected self harm cuts. "Stomach flu." He sat on my bed. "Where did I see Sammi running off to?" Andy said I needed a cooler shirt so she's getting me one." He rubbed my back. We sat in the quiet until Sammi came back in witha black tank top. "Alright I got one for you, and a pair of softer shorts." She handed them to me. "Hey are those my boxers?" I laughed and threw them back at Sammi. "Ew..." She threw them back, and laughed. "Those shorts don't look comfortable to be sick in, so I brough you his boxers." I smiled and whacked him with the clothes. "Alright you too. Out I need to change." He kissed my forhead, "Text me if you need me, Andy will be back with medicine soon." and they both left. I did as I was told, and put on Sammi's tank top and Jinxx's boxers. I looked at my arm. It was purple and swollen all the way around, and there was alot of puss. Super gross. I crawled under my covers, and closed my eyes, to help ease off the nausea.
I fell asleep at some point which i was very greatful for, but I felt my heart stop when I was waken by hearing Andy whisper "Holy shit."
At some point I must've fallen asleep because I woke up in my bed the next morning. I wonder how I got here? I shook it off, and went into the bathroom to bush my teeth and to look half-presentable. I walked to my door to go out, but I hesitated. I checked my phone. 6:07 Damn swim practice schedule has me all fucked up. I went to my bed, and I made it, and sat. I took my hoodie off, to check my arms. "Holy fuck.." I whispered to myself. Deep, red, angry...infected. What am I gonna do? I can't tell Jinxx. He'll be angry. So will Sammi. And I don't trust the others enough to want to tell them. I ran to my bathroom and searched frantically for some kind of cleaning aid. I found rubbing alcohol, and I poured it all over my cuts. "MOTHER FUCK!" I scream because it hurt so badly.Oh shit I hope I didn't wake anyone up. I ran hot water over them, and then dried them with a dark blue towel. I heard a knock on my door. "Audrey?" I ran to the door and opened it, keeping my arm behind my back. It was CC. "You okay? I thought I heard you yelling." I started shaking. "Yeah I'm fine. I stubbed my toe on my dresser." He rubbed his eyes. "Alright darlin.." and turned to walk away. "Sorry CC.." and he went back to his room. Wow I feel like a first class bitch. I laid on my bed, and rubbed my arm. It looks really bad. Green puss coming out of the cuts, and red streaks coming away from the cuts. It's really bad. I put alcohol on them one more time, and then I found peroxide to run over them. I put on a longsleeved shirt, and a pair of shorts with lace. I listened to Saviour and Carolyn a few times to calm my nerves so Jinxx wouldn't suspect anything. I took our my ear buds, and then I just let myself go numb. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. Tears started streaming down my cheeks, and I couldn't stop them. A sob escaped my lips, and I buried my face in a pillow. I cried so hard my throat hurt. Why are you still crying you stupid bitch? Stop it. You're weak. Stop it right now. I Pressed on my arm, and twisted. I felt the blood coming out again, but it burns like hell. I pressed my hands into my eyes to stop the crying, but it didn't help. I couldn't stop. No matter how hard I tried. But it didn't matter, because I cried myself back to sleep..
I woke up, and checked my phone. 11:39. I went into the bathroom to clean my face. My arm was starting to hurt to move. I rolled up my blood crusted sleeve. "Oh fuck.." they had turned purple within 5 hours. I felt super nauseous. My knees hit the floor, and I saw that pizza again. I flushed the toilet and laid in the floor. The cold tile felt good on my face. I wiped the sweat out of my eyes, but everything was still blurry. I felt my stomach squeeze again, and all I could do was dry heave. There was nothing on my stomach to come out, so I just ended up dry heaving until my chest ached. I pulled myself off the floor, and brushed my teeth again, and put makeup on to hide the dark circles around my eyes. I brushed my hair, and walked out of the bathroom, to find none other than Jinxx sitting on my bed. He stood up, and walked over to me. "CC said you were up really early, and then he heard you coughing really hard or throwing up. Are you okay?" I nodded and tried to fake a smile. He put his hand on my forhead. "Oh baby you're burning up. Sit on the bed, I'll be right back." I sat on the bed, but ended up falling backwards. I laid there, waiting for Jinxx. My whole body ached. I've never physically hurt this bad before. I curled up into a ball, and I heard frantic footsteps coming in. "Audrey? Baby can you sit up for me?" it was Sammi. I looked up and saw her and Andy. She helped me sit up, and she rested my body against her. Andy put a thermometer in my mouth, and a hand on my forhead. Sammi kissed my hair, and I could tell she was kinda freaked out. The themometer beeped. "102.3. Well, you've definitely got a fever. How do you feel?" I groaned. "My head hurts and I've been really nauseous, and I just threw up." Andy patted my leg. "Sounds like a stomach bug. I can go get you some medicine, and then we can go from there. And you might want to change out ot that long sleeve shirt and into a tank top. Your body will get cooler. I know you'll be really cold because of your fever, but it'll help. Sammi she might be contagious so be careful. I'm goona go get some medicine for you Audrey, kay?" he rubbed my hair and then left. Sammi got up and went through my drawers to find a tank top. "Aw hon you have almost nothing. I'll take you shopping when you feel better, I'll be right back with a tank top." She ran out, and I crawled to my pillows, and shut my eyes and laid there. "So, what's the diagnosis from Dr. Batman?" Jinxx. Infected self harm cuts. "Stomach flu." He sat on my bed. "Where did I see Sammi running off to?" Andy said I needed a cooler shirt so she's getting me one." He rubbed my back. We sat in the quiet until Sammi came back in witha black tank top. "Alright I got one for you, and a pair of softer shorts." She handed them to me. "Hey are those my boxers?" I laughed and threw them back at Sammi. "Ew..." She threw them back, and laughed. "Those shorts don't look comfortable to be sick in, so I brough you his boxers." I smiled and whacked him with the clothes. "Alright you too. Out I need to change." He kissed my forhead, "Text me if you need me, Andy will be back with medicine soon." and they both left. I did as I was told, and put on Sammi's tank top and Jinxx's boxers. I looked at my arm. It was purple and swollen all the way around, and there was alot of puss. Super gross. I crawled under my covers, and closed my eyes, to help ease off the nausea.
I fell asleep at some point which i was very greatful for, but I felt my heart stop when I was waken by hearing Andy whisper "Holy shit."
You depicted Andy as quite the asshole in the last chapter, especially considering that blonde character was a stupid-ass bitch — who should've been more of a one-night stand, if anything else. But what you did certainly adds a good bit
of drama that makes me want to keep reading to see what happens to Audrey
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