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Love Isn't Always Fair

After The Show...

Andy's POV

"Thank you and goodnight!" I shouted into the mic after we finished performing the last song in our set, Love Isn't Always Fair. As I walked off of the stage and out of the backstage door, I remembered why I had written the song... It was about her. It was always about her. Everything. And I tended to resent her for it. I couldn't tell her how I felt. I'd fucking known the girl since she was born, for Christ's sake! And save the fact that she was fucking 15, my best-friends little sister,I had a girlfriend, and she had a fucking boyfriend! I couldn't help but wonder what was wrong with me for feeling this way about her. Someone so young and so fragile. I couldn't help how I felt though and I couldn't escape thoughts of her. All I really wanted was to see her and tell her how I felt. I couldn't exactly tell her how I felt, but I could at least see her and talk to her and be around her. That was enough for me at the time, just seeing her face, her smile, hearing her laugh at my goofiness. I loved it all so much. I was turning into a creature that felt the need for some extreme affection. Not just from any woman, but from her. The fact that she now had a boyfriend would make spending time with her a hassle. I remember finding out about it about a month after we had left for touring. I wanted to yell at her, I wanted to kill him, I wanted more than anything to tell her how I felt, but I couldn't do any of those. I just had to sit there and pretend like I was happy about some kid possibly fucking the love of my life. The thought enraged me more than anything ever had... Him putting his hands on her in that way... Looking at her naked body... I resented him for taking her away from me. I'd resent anyone who took her. No one knew how I felt about her and I wanted to keep it that way. It would just be much easier for me to ignore my feelings for her and try my damnedest to get over her. Which would be hard considering I had been in love with her since she was 12 and I was 18. Yeah it sounds really fucked up and bad, but she was different from every other girl. She was rather mature for her age and I don't know why I was so drawn to her, I just was. I felt somebody grab my shoulder then. I started and whirled around to see Ashley with a concerned look on his face. "You've been staring at the bus for like 30 minutes." Ashley said his tone on the concerned side. "Are you feeling okay?" He asked softly. "I'm fine. I was just thinking." I said with a reassuring smile on my face. "About what?" He asked as he let his hand dropped, his face seemed slightly amused. "Nothing to important." I said quickly. I could feel heat flooding my cheeks. I couldn't tell Ashley that I had been thinking about his little sister. He was my best-friend and I'm sure it would bother him, given the age difference and whatnot. "You were obviously thinking about something! Your face is beet red!" Ashley said, his tone teasing. "I really wasn't." I said, a rather bored expression on my face. "Whaaaaaattteeeeever you say man. But come on. Get on the bus. We gotta get goin! Angel is excited to see us and I'd like to be there by the time she gets up!" Ashley said as he pushed me towards the bus. Her name made my heart leap with some sort of worry and excitement. "Okay okay!" I said, slightly annoyed with Ashley as I went up the stairs to our tour bus. We were finally going home. It had been about a year since the last time I saw her and within that year I managed to find myself a girlfriend to fill the void. I didn't particularly love Juliet, but I liked her. It was more like a friend based relationship. We just had sex and whatnot. I didn't even really like doing things like that with Juliet. It made me feel gross and skeezy, like I was cheating or something like that. "ANDY!" Ashley yelled in my ear. "WHAT!???!?!?!?" I shouted back, my tone angry. "Do you want to stop and get something to eat? For the 15th goddamn time." Ashley said seeming rather annoyed with me. "No." I said through clenched teeth. "Just leave me alone for awhile." I said calming myself down. I had gone to my bunk as soon as we had gotten on the bus for the soul purpose of being alone. I even told everyone that I wanted to be alone, I mean I understand that he was just trying to ask me a question, but goddamn. He sort of stormed out of my little area. I sighed and closed my eyes, because all I really wanted to now was sleep and hopefully dream about her. Sleep did not come easily for me, all I could do was think about her. Her smile, her laugh, the way she said my name when I teased her... God I missed it all so much.I remembered how she had cried the day that we left and the way that she held onto me, like she never wanted to let me go.The truth in it all was that it was I, who did not want to let her go. But I had to, I always fucking had to. Despite my inner conflict, despite my inner protests, I always had to fucking leave. Then I had to come back to an Angel who always seemed to grow up so much during my time away from her. I sighed as I tossed and turned, thoughts of her never seeming to leave or even fade slightly. I hated these feelings! I wanted them to go away more than anything... and yet, at the same time, I didn't want them to go anywhere. I wanted her to feel the same way about me, but it just didn't seem possible. I wasn't one hundred percent sure how she felt about me, but I was sure that it wasn't the same as the way I felt about her. It took awhile, but I finally managed to fall asleep.


Sorry it's so short. A lot of the chapters mybe like that, until I get really into it (:


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